tangyuans and christmas

some late pics of 'tangyuan day' (dongzhi i think) ahaha.

they sure are small..

into the boiling water!

into cold water after they've cooked

bet you all were too lazy to make your own tang yuans : D buy from ntuc one rite! lazy people.

anyway i made some sugar cookies too :]

rolled into balls and then flattened :o


cooking in the oven!

yeah. today is xmas eve and everyone is probably out with their friends and all but im stuck at home blogging : ( pathetic. xmas seems early this year, for goodness knows what reason. it's like i just realised hey it's xmas in like one week. just can't get into the festive mood. oh well.

yeah and tomorrow is like christmas and all. merry christmas, i mean, what can i say? :]

jiam: haha yeah murder our parents lol. :] so when is housewarming? : (
jk: huh what prize giving tell me!!
huiyi: yeah they're all crazy people :\

i wonder why is it that my mum can't talk nicely to me. or my siblings. or my dad.

she has to raise her voice and scream out everything she is saying, like she hasn't been allowed to say anything for the past few hours. like she's venting all her frustration on me.

does raising her voice actually make me more compelled to do what she is asking for? NO. never ever. it just makes me want to throttle her and bang the door in her face in half-scream.

why can't she be a sweet and nice mum who talks to me nicely and treats me well? why can't she be the model mum, who knows just how to discipline her children? why?

instead she forces me to do things i dont want to do (eg kumon) and dont try to tell me to persuade her to let me quit, because if you were in my shoes you'll know that's impossible. i've had countless arguments with her over this and to no avail.

she screams at me everytime i dont do the worksheets. it's a miracle i haven't gone deaf. i'm just too busy, too lazy to do the stupid stuff, and simply can't be fcuking bothered to. and she seems to be taking kumon more seriously than my school work, wtf? she doesn't care if i've done my holiday homework; she only wants me to complete kumon kumon and kumon WTH LAH CAN.

im sick and tired of kumon. so sick that i could burn up all of them sitting on my table and go tell the teacher my dog ate them all. i am SO sick of this.

i give up, totally. i dont want a mum who doesn't have my welfare at heart. i dont want a mum who can't discipline her kids. i dont want a mum who screams at me constantly. i dont want a mum who calls me a san1 ba1 po2. wo bu yao.

just thought i'd post some photos before i go back to doing the stupid kumon worksheets my mum requested.

spastic. so act cute can o.o

SEE!! that action AGAIN!

a bit dark.

anyw just received news that im going for exercise thunder warrior together with MISS LI XINHANG, MR JON LOKE AND MR ONG :] yeah baby. : D excited sia. i'll be skipping school! jealous right? i know :] hee.

i gta chiong kumon or i wont have any money to spend tomorrow. : (

im bored.

it's been pouring







and pouring







and pouring








and im in no mood to blog. seriously.

jev: HELLO.

jk: did you ever cut yourself? paper shredding is fun! :]

jm: hah k will invite you next time :]

i tell you, cooking is the best okay :D it's constructive, and i'll have something to eat afterwards! great for foodies like me. i love cooking stuff. it's so cool, watching separate ingredients become something edible and delicious. i love it. maybe i'll consider a career as a chef in a 5-star hotel :D

and guess what? I MADE FUDGE TODAY! :D omigod. okay me and val she helped A LOT o.o lol.

okay anyway. we couldn't find the marshmallow cream, so we just bought a pack of marshmallows and melted them. end up hor, the mixture damn bloody sweet lah. cos it's like the marshmallows are the ready to eat type and naturally they'll be sweeter rite. and i added like one whole pack + 300 g of sugar. it's diabetic food. but end result = tastes like snickers but two times sweeter :x

you all should try my fudge : D

and so me and val were v bored and we were playing snap. and after a while we made card towers, and i made a super super tall one, but the pictures are with val and she refuses to send them to me : ( maybe next time.

after a while jev came over, and we playing card games for a while before i had to go for guitar. den yuli came too : D

was her bdae, so we used the fudge as her bdae cake and even had candles :] hee den we played bridge again : D i think card games are cool. they really make you use your brain man. lol.

yeah. somebody's coming back tomorrow! :]

gdnite guys :]

0042 hrs

STUCK. AT. HOME.

im stuck at home again, with no money whatsoever, and no one to go out with : ( everyone has something to do but i have nothing : (

anyway i think i have this condition. it's this food addiction thing. i tend to have this overwhelming urge to consume whatever is put in front of me, whether edible or non-edible. which is quite dangerous, if you ask me. dont think i never try to eat my keyboard okay!! :x got lor okay just what my hands dirty den i dont wish to get food poisoning lol. okay well anyway im getting fatter and i can't do anything to help it omigod. :(

anyway yesterday i was stuck at westmere cos it was raining so i went to huiyi's house to TRY to do some homework, but i did no more than two comprehension questions. gave up on homework and started on my xmas list. yeah.

then in the evening val bry and jev came over to play bridge :] hee this time we turned the tables; me and jev actually won the both of them WHEE : D hehehe. bridge rocks man. im addicted oh no :D they played till 2345 hrs and, expectedly, got a huge scolding from my mum, but my mum always gives me huge scoldings so i guess it doesn't really matter.

bye~ :]

FREE STUDENT LABOUR

i swear, CIP is like, free student labour.

i spent a beautiful monday stuck in a room in the Spring building shredding paper. how very interesting. -.- but it was actually the first time i've ever used a paper shredder, and believe me, the experience was not at all extraordinary. firstly, the damn thing jammed up on me, and xinhang and elise had to try to pick out all the bits of paper stuck inside. secondly, try sitting next to a paper shredder for hours at one go, and you'll be feeling like blowing the whole thing up.

when i reached the place the both of them were exclaiming animatedly that the previous group (wanleng crystal and serene) screwed everything up by throwing away the important stuff while still keeping useless pieces of paper inside the file. xinhang was bascially trying to clear up their mess by going through the the paper that they discarded yeasterday. yeah. and elise was tearing out paper from files. and did i mention that i was stuck with a paper shredder?

i was eating the whole time lor. honest. i finished half a can of pringles, a pack of Poiful jellybeans, another quarter of a can of dunno what chips, some sour plums, mints and whatnot. and not a bit of exercise. deadly combination.

for goodness knows what reason, "how to save a life" by the Fray keeps playing in my head ><

clt pop and act tomorrow.. yeah. and going to www on wednesday. omigod. can't go there with my current figure lah. will scare the living daylights out of anyone. :x

yeah. that's all. till next time-

CAMP PINNACLE; kingFOUR.

FIVEday &FOURnights.

overall it was very enjoyable :D we visited the airforce as well as the naval base, and considering we spent our nights at SISPEC, essentially we had a three-in-one thing. i rmb:

• toot toot boy who had an abrasion at his 'toot toot' HAHAHA
  
• mr english, the mp from pap LOL
• pp (paper panty) who said his shirt felt like a pp ><+
• ahbeng who kept standing up hahaha
• derek who is forever the right marker
• abrasion (cheejun) aka notebook :p

and many more :)

on the first day we just did rock climbing, rappelling and the SOC. there were two rock walls and the instructor told the girls to try the shorter wall, but ironically the shorter wall was harder can -.- yeah no one could get above the halfway mark. rappelling was SIX storeys. actually the scary thing about rappelling is not about the height it's about getting into the L shape position so you can walk down. and the first step is pretty scary too. you keep thinking you'll lost footing and fall all the way down >< the SOC was okay, but there were many uh, 'cheats' for the girls cos we either weren't tall enough, didn't have enough armpower, or other reasons. i completed the monkey bar :D

the c130 flight was cool, though a bit stuffy. i saw sentosa from a bird's eye view; it was damn cool lah can. but before the takeoff there was a long way to go and everyone was like falling asleep lah. i mean you're lucky to even be selected to be taking the flight dont sleep can?

anyway. we explored RSS persistence as well, and the ship is like. super cool lah. inside is just like hotel liddat, albeit very, very small. facilities v cool. but the kitchen was like infested with cockroaches, made me wonder if they cook the cockroaches with the food lol :x

countless talks and videos shown to us in audits, including the first half an hour of 'A Few Good Men', intro to SISPEC and survival tips by sch sergeant major of SISPEC, and this talk by the teacher officer of teck whye sec. i dont know, but he comes over as a person who hated ncc as a kid and is coming to psycho us. he talked about punishments such as putting boots on shoulders, running in the rain with rifles over head and kept asking us,"What is the POINT?"

i feel that implementing such practices isn't entirely wrong sometimes. maybe we have to inculcate 'no fidgeting in fall-in position' then we have to resort to putting boots at shoulders and so on. cos we can't pump them forever rite? and it's quite creative also what.

never mind i shall stop ranting. as usual we had talks with the students at warrant officer school (WOS) currently going thru their course. nothing much lah. they just shared their experiences.

bunk checks weren't super strict this time round; just had to make sure the bunk was clean. yeah.

the clts were cool :] maam xianyu was our pc and sir zuhilmi was sort of our apc. sir syafiq was there as usual, he's there at every camp i go to and usually he's the one who stands out; everyone keeps teasing him haha :] sir jiayong was thr too; knew him thru spec course. sir suhardi too! LOL lah. was talking to him in the ops room. maam melissa was in charge of admin; must be very boring cos she visited us sometimes. sir khairul like got a bit familiar leh. i've seen him somewhere.

k never mind. with this i shall end my post: the TOOT TOOT CHEER! : DD

when i was a cute little boy
my mother bought me cute little toys
cute little toys hanging on the wall
i call it my toot toot
my toot toot, my toot toot
i like to play with my toot toot

the rest you'll have to come ask me :) tata~

im bored.

it's been a long time since we've had activity :] the soreness in my upper arms is shiok, totally : D

went to the airport together with yitong zixi and weirong to fetch jasmine hongru szekiat and ms tan from the airport :] tong zixi and weirong drew a very colourful banner, drawing disapproving looks from the other people. cos everyone else is what "ritz carlton hotel welcomes blah blah blah" and ours is like "WELCOME HOME" >< so paiseh lah. and summore they were the last to come out cos hongru's luggage got missing or something LOL.

szekiat went off first and after catching up jasmine left with her parents and th rest went to burger king to eat. yeah. nothing much lah. we just ate. and i ate the american chicken sandwich, which i took forever to finish.

did i mention that my upper arms are shiok-ingly sore? :p

surprise, surprise, i haven't finished my holiday homework. :]

honestly, my wardrobe is depressing me. i just opened it yesterday and i felt like crying. there is nothing for me to wear lah. i must go shopping everyday when i have the financial ability to do so.

jasmine is nagging at me to finish eating maggi mee. im going to go bald from comsuming so much msg.

yeah. so i gtg. :] tata. till next time.

jk: yeah i dont get dc. will look at your schdeule to see if anything fits.

think im going nuts.

ouran high school host club is OVER and i didn't even know :( for two months alr leh! and i didn't know leh :( ohmy. but at least haruhi got tamaki back. for a second there i thought he was really going to leave. haha never mind i think you guys dunno what i talking abt =x

i've been slacking at home for the past three days. i feel so lazy and lethargic and everything. ._. i want to go out.

i dont get direct circuit lah, missed one lesson and i totally blur liao. waddehell >< someone please teach me. or i'll have to attend the makeup tgt with the dance and co ppl.

im currently at the last episode of fullhouse! but i dont know why it keeps getting stuck at 7:07. i guess i'll have to try my luck with the dvd player..

and yes, i haven't touched my homework yet. O.O

there's exercise thunder warrior interview tmr !! my gosh. what if i can't say anything? oh no :(

this is one random post. i can't seem to get my thoughts together. what's happening ?! :(

anon: HAHA! got white powder meh! never noticed before lol!
gina: hee yah purposely spell liddat one. :p

so much to do, yet so little time.

zl: you den kuku lor ><
peng: hello :)
kenneth: so long never come liao the doughnut one was dunno how long ago can o.o

i think we singaporeans becoming more lc alr ! in terms of speaking proper english, i think we'rew quite unsatisfactory.

imagine you go up to a troubled friend and you ask,"a penny for your thoughts?" that person would probably reply,"HAR?! what??" something along that line lah. then it will render you helpless as you switch to singlish mode,"what you thinking, leh?"

we shall start a new movement! the 'speak powderful english movement' (spem) and soon everyone will be going,"sorry, i didn't quite understand that last point you made" or "have i seen you somewhere before?" INSTEAD OF "HUH? repeat!" or "you veli familiar sia, when i see you before one ar?"

it's 11:36 and im damn tired.im going to slp now :] gdnite

i think i'm like seriously pathetic lor. everyday i reach home at around 6, plonk down in front of the computer, turn it on and start playing summon night 2 and msn. im a loserly no-lifer. dont talk to me.

: ( im lonely. nobody is talking to me.

please talk to me.

...

never mind.

i have absolutely no sense of time. i can't organise my stuff well. i dont know how to prioritise. im stuck in front of the computer 24/7. im atrocious, preposterous and absolutely horrendous. im not a good person. i look down on people too much. i say that they're ugly. i say that they're uncool. what right do i have?

: (

it isnt going well at all. i keep getting affected. why should i subject myself to these things? im like totally not in control of my life anymore. this sucks.

i dont know what im talking about.

anon: dont confuse me with your profound english >< haha. i wanna see your baby :]

sunnysaturdays.blogsome.com. go there for more, uh, private posts. like today's. credit goes to mr kuang for introducing blogsome to us :] ask me for the password ya.

jk: >< what ! come suan me one rite. so evil. miss ppl ma tt's why cry nt cos i miss sch okay. :x

anon: im nt sure. i cry today again cos somebody bully me :( this year must cry more cos 16 den cannot cry liao. 15 still young =p

zl: hello :] you come my blog one ar lol

alan: yes we're ff fans ! :D

anon: yah cos you say must work hard for what you want in future mah. so i learnt not to view studies as a chore. in fact after the chi 'o's i'm going to be more hardworking, promise :] hope you dont miss us too much :) &please come for our class bbq :]

my brother is a loser lor. -.- dont understand why he is so ill-mannered. no wonder no girls want to jio him lor. he's smelly and foul-mouthed and vulgar and UHHH whatever. never mind.

went to school in the morning with jiahui to study chinese, but we got distracted and started to play with the piano. then we went for our dental (bloody as usual, literally) and then went back to jec. she went home while i went to pop to meet jiamin to go watch "dess note" tgt with bryan and his friend. yeah. dess note is good, and light (kira) is a basket. what with killing criminals who deserve to be punished lah. he killed his own girlfriend! he's inhuman lor.

&i want to borrow someone's ps2 so i can play ff. seh, the characters are like so pretty lah they're impossibly good-looking o.o and i play ff(?) halfway [the one with reks and migelo and rogue tomato lol] then my cousin want to play liao -.- and he had no mem card so i'll have to start from scratch next time T.T

listening to no promises, shayne ward :]

MY KEYBOARD IS OKAY LE :D

stupid keyboard, deprive me of blogging and msn-ing and everything else regarding the keyboard. but im so glad that i can finally type now :D made me appreciate my keyboard even more now heh.

okay, enough of keyboards.

hi mr kuang and everyone else who comes to this almost stagnant blog, thanks to my very bitchy keyboard :]

exams are over but there isn't really difference, is there? what with going back to school for remedials and stuff. but somehow i dont rly view studies as that much of a chore anymore lah. thnks to mr soh for his speech lor. haha :] i dont want to blog about the teachers who are leaving lah. 'nuff said alr. what's done is done already lah. just hope they have a better time with the other schools yeah.

i dont know what to blog about. i still think all humans are angels.

im not intending to study history.

this sucks :[ eoys are making everyone so f-ed up. and i lost my handphone lah. F. there's a thief around in school. i think it's stupid why someone would wanna take my handphone lor. why take things that dont belong to you? it's MINE. sai, better return or i rly kick someone's ****s alr. all my stuff inside lah kns RETURN LAR. >:[ miss my hp so much. :[

anyw. this is for you.

actually i also dunno what to say abt you. i hv no problem with your hypocritical (i apologize for the harsh word used. my vocabulary is limited) ways, but the thing is that they're making me damn confused. dont know whether you really mean what you say. can't trust you anymore.

all the stuff i see you do, it's like im watching it from across the street. like, 3rd person pov. we just.. drifted apart. maybe it's cos of the stuff that the people ard me say abt you. but i DID try to clear things up with you. i heard you out &stuff. i was convinced you were a nice person again. never did i think that you wld lie to me.

i think our friendship 3/4 gone liao. or maybe everything gone liao. i also dunno lah. but i dont rly think it's worth salvaging anymore. it's nt the same you anymore. and you do have _. whether you wanna admit it or not. it's just the way you look at things lah. &the comments you make abt them.

never mind. this isn't worth my time.

th time now is 8:59. i am giving myself a 5 mins break, so i shall go back to ploughing through merger and separation at 9:04. merger and separation is such a long chapter. it'll take forever to finish it. i am sad.

okay fine i sound like a boring hag. sadly i have not been productive at all for th last few hours, and i think im going to fail my humanities, pure, sub and ss. this sucks :[ there's no time to study anymore. i want to cry.

my eyes are killing me. it is 9:03. i shall go back to my notes and continue staring at them for as long as i can keep awake.

today was an eventful day.

went to accompany juniors to the orienteering comp, partly because i wanted to miss kumon, and partly because i knew that if i didn't go, i would be too worried to sit down and do worksheets anyway. and so i decided to go, and it was damn paiseh cos i didn't sew my rank yet, and everybody was asking me,"eh winifred, you still 2sg ar?" first time i didn't feel good in my uniform :x

anyw zhiler went to do some saikang, leaving me, yitong, and the two reserves, fengye and cheelin, (who wanted to take curry puffs for his plt mates just because sgt kahsing told them that the curry puffs very nice o.o) to stay at our old tree :) cheelin is damn cute, he likes to smile a lot and he shows a lot of teeth :D

so anyway, i was worrying the hell out of myself, and i think yitong was too, but she tried to look relaxed so as nt to make me worry even more =x thx tong (: th girls came back within 1hr 16 mins, and got 0/3 correct, & th guys came back within 1 hr and 2 mins and got 5/6 cps correct. so that's it for th results. disappointed lah, but i think they're feeling worse, so i shan't say le yah. if you all reading this, just wna tell you all to work harder, you all can definitely improve de :) jiayou. i believe in you people. what's done is done, don't feel so bad.

anyway after that we had the operation smokebomb, and left before the results were announced. i felt like a criminal, a loser, a sore sore loser. i have a problem with the lack of integrity that we displayed. it sucks, honestly.

and by the way, i haven't started studying (cept for chem) and i bet everyone is mugging his/her ass off right now, so im feeling damn guilty, and i shall end here :[ gdnite everyone, gdluck for eoys :))

winifred
2009hrs

knn gekpoh so many chico it's flooded with them i think i need to protect myself in future l i shall wear armour

i hate eoys =( and i hv absolutely zero motivation to mug.

eoys are coming, and i want to die cos i haven't started studying yet and it's just ard the corner, RAWR.

hello mr soh : )

anyw to 3L de if you all are reading this (i hope you are) please listen up.

i think we're all affected by mrs tay's outburst, whether it's on a big scale or it's just bugging you at the back of your mind. this blog post nt meant to scold you all lah, but just reflect on ourselves ba.

since when have we ever paid her ample attention for her to really get through to us?

since when have we done her homework dutifully, and handed in her assignments without fail? "mrs tay assginment ar, no need do one lah" - i hear this everytime.

since when have we ever been quiet during her lesson? every few seconds she'll have to tell us to shut up, and i think if i were in her shoes i'd feel very, very sad. what is the point of standing in front of a class that doesn't even listen to you, and doesn't even respect you just because you're NICE?

yes i know that she's nice she's friendly she jokes with us a lot. in case you guys dont know, she treats us much, much better than any of her other classes. go ask the people from 3H if you dont believe me.

anyway, my point is, we dont appreciate her at all. just because she is slack with us we really shouldn't just trample all over her like a doormat, you get what i mean? and the thing is, after her outburst, we just continued talking after a few minutes like nobody's business. i quote mrs tay,"what kind of a damn rotten attitude is this?" it's like she doesn't matter at all. i mean, yah lah, she's slack, but she is still a teacher right? where is her due respect? we're nt giving her any.

the talking thing doesn't apply to only mrs tay. not-so-fierce teachers like mr soh, paul lim and mrs woon also face this problem. why can't we just pay more attention to them? and even if you dont respect the teacher and you just simply want to talk, cant you please spare a thought for those people who REALLY want to listen and get the most out of the lesson? it isn't very fair for the rest, because talking when the teacher is teaching is F-ING distracting. how would you feel if you were presenting in front of the class and nobody is talking to you?

think about it, put yourself in mrs tay's shoes. how frustrated she must feel when we dont listen to her, how disappointed she must be when we dont do the questions that she tells us to do, how hurt she must have been when she was close to tears, and we were STILL talking.

and there's also this toilet problem. how come just before paul lim's lesson, three quarters of the class go out to relieve themselves? why is it always paul lim's lesson? why dont i see the same thing happening when we have mrs ong's lesson, or lkc's lesson? why must we always bully the (i shan't use the word 'slack') not-so-strict teachers? do we have to get taught by very very fierce teachers before we can pull up our socks?

i admit that im also guilty about some of the stuff that i brought up here; im contributing to the toilet problem =x but if we all make an effort to give more respect to our teachers, maybe 3L's reputation will improve?

i dont know what to say anymore, th rest is up to you all to reflect ba, there's only so much i can say. this post is nt intended to offend yeah so please dont take it to heart; i just want you all to reflect on yourselves la yeah.

cheers.

why is msn down =(

i dont wanna know just wna heck evrything yea dont wanna bother abt it anymore just go away leave me alone please

im back from oph ! : D with charlie :]

we :
trekked a hell lot
slept in a smelly AND wet AND dark AND cold tent
ate maggi mee for all meals for two days
stuck by each other and conquered the summit :D
camwhored with each other :))
owned the KFC
ate milo powder and dry maggi mee
drank river water and purified swimming-pool-like water
got ourselves in life threatening situations
survived mt ophir : D

thanks (in random order) :

to xinhang for being so macho and helping us cook all the meals :DD
to qihui for being so naggy and caring for all of us and .. just being yourself xD
to jasmine for being thr with me for evrything (and i mean evrything) :)
to liyan for letting me hug you when i was cold =)
to hb for being a .. uhm a source of entertainment? o.o
to yitong for being resilient and strong despite your concussions, sore eyes and flu :)
to xinran for caring :)
to zixi and hongru for laughing at zhuyi and "pissie" whatever and waking everyone on the bus with your laughter xD
to val for being strong :)
to chiamiang for asking evryone to wake up at 3 to watch a firefly HAHA xD
to charlie girls for being thr for me and evryone else : DD
to all who helped me when climbing

i <3 charlie man, w/o them i rly cannot carry on le =) this mt ophir expedition rly provided me with a lot of experience yeah haha. and i slept for 12 hrs straight just now from 9 to 9 hees.

im sick and i have approximately ONE day till snr spec and TWO days till mt ophir. wow. i feel so ill. goddamned bloody f-ing ill.

teachers' day today, and we(3L) bought a black forest cake to give to all of our teachers. but i couldn't find jaina tan so i ate her share =p yeahh and the concert was not bad, and mr tong played the guitar omg. i was so touched la for dont know what reason. he was just singing down there with that guitar and i was so guilty for hating him last year and for saying all those stuff about him. considering this is his REAL last year.. =(

and mr soh sang ! : D we were so supportive we shouted "mr soh, 3L loves you" i like mr soh a lot a lot why does he think that 3L hates him? we dont lehh .. we like him a lot , at least for me la haha :)

yeah after that it was chaos for a while, and the staff room was totally CROWDED. everyone squeezed in that small area and i see alr also sian haha. aft that me meixi thiam jiamin minghao and dx we went back to fuhua to meet the others haha. waited for a hell long time for the rest to come, saw mrs chay, and went to je to eat. eat alr went to play laserquest (i didn't want to at first, but i was forced to go by valerie) one game only and my score and ranking sucked =(

okay dont feel like blogging anymore. feel so unwell D: hope i get well soon. and there's flag day tmr; full no 3 ><

gdbyee~

fine, whatever.

i hate it when people think too much about what i say to them. what i say is for your own information and not for you to judge me, can?

whatever la im so bleeding tired now i want to slp le gdnite.

this is utterly crazy. the weirdo that has been sending me the nonsensical messages at around midnight is MY OWN BROTHER . i am traumatised. i am f-ing traumatised. -.- he was the last person i'd expect to do this kind of thing la ! i thought it was some curse or something, with all the lines of chinese character OMG. and it made me SO bloody scared -.- i dont know what to say. I FEEL SO STUPID ! *cries*

i found out cos today when i went out to have steamboat i showed my brother the weird smses. it was a wonder he managed to keep a straight face, really. then he say he dunno, maybe is his best friend. then after that i went onto the car and i realised that i didn't have my brother's handphone number, and then i asked him for it. THEN HE ADMITTED THAT IT WAS HIM, and i was so shocked that i went crazy momentarily ad i began to hit him and i slapped him across the face once. boy, was that good. i think he is mental and should be sent to IMH. today he was saying,"one bird kills two birds" then i had just woken up from my nap in the car and i was like "throw one stone kill your own bird" o.o oops. never mind that is irrelevant.

ANYWAY, now that the mystery of the 'weirdo' has been solved i can talk about my CT results.

i rly lose hope in chinese le. no motivation anymore le i dont want to study for it anymore. i admit my chinese is lousy la. i never passed before lor i dont want to do it anymore la it's so tiring all my determination all gone le. can you imagine doing the kumon worksheets for the past few weeks and not jave even a slight improvement? can you imagine going for every sort of tuition there is, just to make me pass my chinese? i just can't write a decent compo, i can't tikam the chinese zong he tian kong (i got 6 out of 20), i can't do chinese compre, I CANT DO SUMMARY. just give up on me, cos i've already given up on myself.

never mind. i am going to "pa2 shan1" alr and i dont want to care about anything in the world. : ) mt ophir, here i come. im gna conquer you ! :D but before that i have yellow ribb proj and snr spec =\ i forgot everything abt mutual le, please spare me =x

i am so bloody disappointed.

wah damn unexpected leh so many ppl say my hair v ke ai. LOL =p i thought i would get laughed at or something. heh but no la huh. keep playing with my fringe >< wah lao. haha.

i want to go on star cruise with charlie girls =] or any other country also can haha but i think parents wun allow de =( sigh. i shall stop here. gdnite :)

i got my hair screwed up by the hairdresser in malaysia and im utterly pissed. i get a shock whenever i look at myself in the mirror. I LOOK LIKE A BLOODY GUY ! and not only do i look like a guy, which is bad enough, I LOOK LIKE A RETARDED GUY -.- HELP ME ! does anyone have cream for fast growing of hair ?!

that hairdresser cut off my fringe =(( o, my lovely and beloved fringe ! my eyes feel naked now. =x i want to slap myself for not stopping her while she was cutting my fringe into nothingness. and for that i have to blame myself because i was half-asleep and was only partly aware that she was commiting that heinous crime.

I AM SOOO PISSED =(( i should never have gone to cut my hair today. WHYYY : ( of all days ! and there's school tomorrow and im going to get laughed at =( sigh. i shall think on the bright side; my hair will grow back anyway : D

note: i can't link any of you cos when i click the [web/adress] thing below your tag i dont see anything, so you have to type your url in your tag and not in the small box for url. refer to aileens tag : )

elin: he seems to be, according to what you have told me. i shall reprimand him LOL
shaun: you're not the only one who has suggested that i use taekwondo on her.. =p
janice: heh ty for your concern : )
MIFFY: =D so you finally admit that you are MIFFY HAHAHAH !! yeah we all have to move on : )

i have no life lor. i wasted one WHOLE saturday afternoon doing a blogskin which is ugly so im not going to use it. my gosh. im beginning to hate weekends la. nothing to do and i end up glued to the computer. and the worst thing is, there's homework =(

sigh.

im so utterly bored. at least go school still got things to do lor. makes me long for camps. camps whole day got things to do, got schedule need to follow one. at school? i just do whatever i like. I WANT TO GO FOR SSC NOW. =(

i today so many "=("s. today early in the morning pia finish my kumon, walk all the way there, took my test and im not level D2. another 10 more levels till i get to quit. =(

my mum never spare a thought for me one lor. pls la like kumon is for little kids who have all the time in the world to do the stupid worksheets but i dont, okay? they dont have cca they dont have common tests they dont have remedial whatever. i got common tests, one whole week never do my kumon acceptable what right. NO ! she force me to go for kumon because she is convinced that it works. gullible woman. at the end of the day, she is just throwing her money away.

every sunday, when everyone is still in dreamland, i wake up at seven in the (bloody) morning and prepare for piano. WHR GOT PPL PIANO LESSON IN MALAYSIA ONE. i shall not elaborate further.

every friday i have to go for taekwondo at 830, even though im exhausted after a whole day of school and cca afterward. not that i dont enjoy tkd, but she forces us to go. we have no choice but to go. just because she isn't the one who is going through all these and even goes for facial every saturday doesn't give her to right to force me to do things i dont like.

i feel as if i rly have no life lor. why am i doing things that i dont like to do? all my mum knows is to scream at us all day and wallow in self-pity that she gave birth to such "useless children". she called me a "lan4 san1 ba1" leh. always screaming about how we dont have self-control and no discipline at all.

why must i give priority to kumon, just because she wants me to? why should i go for tkd just because she wants me to? why should i go to her room to brush teeth, just because she wants me to? what right does she have? i prioritise what i like, i do whatever that i feel like doing, and she can't stop me. if i run away from home it's all her fault. no wonder my dad called her a stupid bitch. screaming so much that i can't even STAND being around her for a few minutes.

i live in a tv drama.

i'm opening my blog to everyone again :) no blog i feel so sian lor, one less thing to do everytime i go online . and there are a lot of stuff i want to rant about so who cares about who is monitoring my blog yeah?

it's one of these days when i feel totally tired (my eyes, in particular) and lethargic. i want to do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING at all. i hate cloudy saturdays; they should be banned. it's so depressing when you look outside and see no sun. saturday leh, let people feel happy a bit can or not ? =((

many things happened in the short hiatus ; i shan't bother to talk about them anymore. (i can't really remember actually, hehehe. stm is kicking in again) currently im feeling screwed up cos of the weather =x hence my new blog url haha.

things i need to do:

• pract piano and guitar
• study for physics test
• do my homework
• watch anime (haven't watched for a long time, thanks to common tests)
• make a new blogskin image; im tired of this one

i shall proceed to do the last thing stated on the list above. will blog again soon, maybe ard evening.

HE DID NOT CLUMSILY TRIP AND FALL DOWN.

HE DID NOT "SLIP ON A PUDDLE OF WATER".

HIS FRONT TEETH IS NOT A TOPIC TO BE BROADCASTED TO THE WHOLE SCHOOL AND SHAME HIM ON THE PRETEXT OF WARNING STUDENTS NOT TO "WALK WALK WALK AND FALL DOWN" AND TO "HOLD THE RAILING".

wah lao. how would you feel if you fainted, very very unfortunately lost your front teeth, and three days later this news is broadcasted to the whole school? how would you feel if everyone around you is either laughing at you, overly concerned or paying you more attention than you feel comfortable with? or maybe come ppl just kaypo?

f la i dunno what to say. he's just a small kid lor. can like dont embarrass him or not ah. just because ncc doesn't win awards for the school and doesn't bring glory to the school doesn't mean you can mistreat us by TALKING ABOUT OUT CADET LIKE HE IS TRASH. you dont give us a room, you dont give us a PROPER place to train, you dont care about uniformed groups at all; well, fine. fine if you dont give us our own room, fine if there is no parade square. but do NOT insult and shame our cadet in front of so many people.

-.-

super dudiao.

CAN ANYONE PLEASE RECOMMEND ME A GOOD RPG ? : (

we changed le. we're no longer the same anymore. ever since we take over the feeling's not there anymore. we dont feel like spending time with each other, we start to form cliques. it seems like everyone has to rush home after cca for some reason unknown. it seems like no one has time for each other anymore.

whenever someone suggests that we go out to eat, some people say they need to rush home then leave the others sitting on the fence. after the bus ride everyone pangseh and left only some of us. it's so demoralising that even those who go jec to eat have no mood to eat anymore.

it has become really sad isn't it. that none of us have time for each other anymore except for during cca. why isn't anyone making an effort to go out to eat , have a good tcs and take neos ?

it's been a long, long time. why can't we go back to those times? why? someone please tell me ..

today is 'lets be optimistic day' :) jiahui is super pessi lor can. want to go clementi mac see somebody but dunno whether to go or not. JUST GO LA aiyo . =0 yes and i brought my guitar to school just for the english project ! wow. miss tan better give us more marks cos bringing the guitar damn troublesome la =x

i dont know what to blog about. i just went to jiahui's blog and saw that sluttish whore that commented on her entry. a bit late la but i really quite pissed la, so i shall dedicate this entry to humiliating that b* then !

"HAHAH YES PEOPLE LIKE US WERE LAUGHING AT YOU, FUG" - laugh then laugh lor. she very funny and humorous , on her behalf i shall thank you : )

"SADLY, GLARING AT PPL DOES NOT MAKE YOU ANY PRETTIER. TRY SMTHN CONSTRUCTIVE: GO PLASTIC" - plastic arh ? her face is pretty enough la, no need go plastic also got guys want to jio . i shall advise her on not to glare so much so as not to incur the wrath of some neighbourhood school bimbo who has no brains or guts to fight jiahui in the open :)

"YOU WANA GO ZOUK? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA PPL WILL LAUGH THEIR ASS OFF THE DANCE FLOOR IF THEY SEE YOU." - haiyo, people want to go zouk enjoy themselves cannot ah ? ppl ugly cannot go zouk meh ? even ugly people deserve to have sex, so what is zouk? NOTHING : )

"READ HEADLINES: FUGLY GIRL SPOTTED AT CLUB-ZOUK" - must be you right : )

"Life is good. I seriously think u should try and get one."- do your opinions matter ? HAHAHA : D

jiahui dont say i never help to defend you hor, though really a bit late la : )

anyway.
hello paul (whoever that is) in my tagboard :)
day: i like the soft toy in happy meal haha.
eunice: ahems is so interesting lor, when you take that pic one ?
jasmine: ya then i paste all over my body HAHA free wax : o
janice: uh haha
alan: yea im an optimistic girl xD

I AM A HAPPY GIRL.
- because i finally sat for the physics test and now i can throw away all my physics notes :D
- because i sprained my ankle, and as a result i got my VERY OWN PACK OF SALONPAS ! :DD
- because i ate at kobayashi just now :)
- because i didn't lose my new phone today :)
- because it rained today.
- because yitong sat beside me today during physics test.
- because tong and val and me all took the test together.
- because jasmine waited one hour for all of us.
- because i had a bad hair day today :)
- because the bus came as soon as i reached the bus stop so i didn't have to stand for so long.
- because i sprained my ankle near to the bus stop, so i didn't have to limp for so far.
- because i am appreciative and love everyone around me.
- because i love salonpas and i have my very own pack of it :D
- because i didn't get scolded by lkc for not doing my chinese homework.
- because huiyi bluetooth-ed me nice songs.
- because eunice bluetooth-ed me AHEM digging his nose LOL !
- because i have my charlie girls :)
- because i love all my friends and family.
- because last but not least, I HAVE MY OWN PACK OF SALONPAS ! (did i mention it already?)

sometimes little things that people around you do are just so .. interesting, if you think about them. many of these things are actually taken for granted cos, you know, they're small. but if you open your eyes big big, fill yourself with optimism, and look around you, you'll find that the world is filled with beautiful things :)

and i need to go now,
because i need to do my maths homework :)

I SO LONG NEVER BLOG LIAO, SO SORRY ><

wah my tagboard so many ppl sia. who is flint ! my ma'am ah ? o.o

val: hee too late im addicted to bleach
zhixin: i lazy to relink >< and ichigo is hotter man ahaha
alan: i'm the most enthu right? hahaha
lq + shereen : tyty flint: hello :]
elin: yeah i'll stay forever faithful to you ! LOL
jasmine: why you say disgusting =x
junqi: hehe you see this post should be happy already wahahaha

shall update a bit on what's going on now, hmm. i lost my phone, that one same as jiahui that one. my heart broke. fuck the bastard who stole it. i dont care whether his family is starving or he is jobless. it's WRONG to take other people's handphones :( and also i sprained my ankle on friday, and liyan was like laughing at me la -.- evil git she laugh when ppl sprain ankle. *rawr*

and i got my new phone on SATURDAY : D my dad bought it off, second-hand, off this Raymond guy who suffers from compulsive buying. he bought the handphone like, on friday and he didn't want it for some reason and sold it to my dad on SATURDAY. FRIDAY -> SATURDAY = NOT EVEN 24 HOURS ! so can be considered as brand new one lah :D so happy man im in love with my new phone . it's a 3230 :

it has got everything i wanted AND more ; sharp camera, one hour + of vid, RADIO, big big screen, this realplayer thingy, BLUETOOTH, and best of all, A LOT A LOT OF MEMORY : D turns out that raymond guy also bought this memory card and it has like 495 MB of memory, not including my phone mem ! wahahaha im a happy girl right now, i really am :D

but some things too good to be true la, i really really very paranoid ltr i lose this phone again i'll cry my heart out really :'(

okay so i need to go and sleep now cos huiyi says she wants to go to school early and if i can't wake up i'll have to go to school by myself : ( gdnite guys and thank you for tuning in to darkness dot blogspot : )

i finally took a break off watching bleach to do my matrices assignment which i thought i had done but actually i didn't.

today officially took over, i guess the feeling was alright :] part bs weren't as bad as i'd expected them to be. but there's room for improvement la haha. marched them around the track once; expedition sia : )

all of us wore no4 home cos there was not much time left for us to change after mr ong's talk.



i am very tired i want to go and sleep gdnite everyone

my bleach episodes are not loading T.T *cries*

hmm okay im taking a break from bleach cos my episodes aren't loading very fast. my sister is sobbing and wailing like some ***** and i really can't stand it -.-

okay so school has reopened once again and we're all trying to get back into the "absorbing-info-like-a-sponge-mode" but i seriously dont think im ready for school yet. i haven't done my holiday homework, geez.

yeah and we took over (sort of) today. i took part A with jasmine zixi xinran and qihui. it was okay la, just talking and setting goals and stuff.

things i'll never say ; definitely not to you

i survived spec course :]

anyw my blog shall be dead for a while because i am currently addicted to bleach , bloody nice sia . will have no time for blogging , except in between when my episodes are refusing to load ( like now ) yeah. cya : )

i fucking hate rashes !! im god-save-me-guan-yin-ma-please-bless-me-ingly terrified of them i shudder and i get goosebumps when i see them . if there's one thing im afraid of it's rashes. win hands down. im so horrified by the way they spread throughout my whole body omfg . i want to scold vulgarities but it's not very healthy so never mind . this is a short post as you can see.

I'M BACK ~

: D

okay lah . i think it's more of a character building camp of some sort. no internet access for eight days, no rowdy behaviour, no smsing, and definitely no vulgarities ! so many little kids, i scold i teach them bad things the next week nobody come to the centre already.

i learnt how to give pep talks ! you know, those super annoying ones your parents give to you when you do something wrong ? no screaming or yelling , just plain talking . a good and successful pep talk is one with examples and with those open ended questions and true or false questions that kind . after that the kid must listen to what you say. HAHAHA i gave a successful one to my sister !

you all better stay away from me hor, later i give you all pep talks then you all now, HAHA ;]

then i think my grandma is my unofficial doctor or something, everytime i fall sick i will go straight to her ; she always has something for me . i love her very much , throughout my stay in msia she come watch tv with me. then when i go away she sit down there all alone then i feel so bad i go back and watch with her.

anyw i just realised today is the 15th and also the first day of kayaking for the second group , jiayou jiayou people :]

theres an e lit seminar tomorrow and im having a fever, cough and blocked nose and feeling miserable. guess how i fell sick ?

i stuffed myself with snacks and didn't drink any water o.O anyway i was forced to swallow some very bitter pills from Amway that my grandma strongly recommended i should take. i hate swallowing pills, it's either i swallow it or i spit out the pill + all the water =(

it's 11 and i think i should go and sleep now if not huiyi will have to go to the elit seminar alone (i heard beixin also having fever) gdnite ~

okay im back . im still alive after one week's worth of work (actually only four days) at hdcc - fyi it's happy days care centre.

i realised that oatmeal plus honey in the morning is sickeningly sweet, that many kids in the same computer room fighting for a chance at the computer can be very, very noisy, teaching three kids english can be infuriating and you might resort to underhand means to teach them and so on.

i wont say i enjoyed myself but it wasn't that bad either, seriously. except for the fact that i couldn't get any hands on any form of internet access AT ALL.

i slept better while i was there, i ate better (and i am also going to grow fatter). every morning i was to wake up at 8, then creep out of bed and eat my breakfast, then go to the centre to babysit all the kids and finally go home at 8 + . hey, that's twelve hours of work ! but i only get like, ten bucks a day. *grumble grumble grumble*

usually i just play with the kids and teach them. it's quite easy lah, except sometimes i cannot mark their chinese, too hard liao ( my chinese that lousy meh =\ ). i always steal the children's food during teabreak and i just lost my tempter today at the kids. i was yelling like a deranged madwoman. okay lah maybe not that bad but they were making so much moise so i just shouted at them. they kept quiet for a while and then started making noise again, bloody kids. (:

today was wanjun's birthday and her mum ordered a 2kg chocolate cake to be delivered over to the centre, but before that weikang had to go and hit her on the back and make her cry, so she looked quite miserable in the pictures that i took of her. but she was back to her lively self after that, which was good.

i hate msia. the custom officers have attitude problems.

okay so im back from exile and slightly sick. after two days of living on scraps of bread and dishwater AND sleeping on a straw mat im back, alive and kicking.

so i stupidly knocked myself silly in the bathroom on the first day. >< very painful, still hurts. the kids at the childcare are okay except some that like to stick to me.

going on a hiatus so this blog wont be updated regularly till 18th. sorry for the inconvenience.

had double remedial today ; history and physics. me and huiyi arrived at school at 7+ by my dad's car, which is unbelievably early, but we had to compromise if not we would be stuck on the mrt. i rather be chauffeured there x] was doing my history assg, which i didn't hand up so it's kinda pointless lah.

after physics i waited for yitong then we went to westmall/lot 1 to meet liyan and val to buy sandals for kayaking tmr and they cost $29.95 i very xintong =\ but they're pretty, i like =)

never mind enough about the sandals im sososo excited about tomorrow can =D

i feel so xing4 fu2 (fortunate, in case you dont know). just now after i finished practising the piano i fell asleep on the sofa, 70% due to sheer exhaustion and 30% because i've been so engrossed in my book that my eyes were dying on me. my little sister thought i was having a fever and when i woke up at 2000 , she went to wrap ice cubes in her little towel and started to .. uh should i say wipe me haha. including arms legs face and neck.

i was so touched, seeing her being so sensible and all. it's a wonder how even little kids can be so caring x] i <3 my mei mei heh.

i shall go to sleep now, goodnight x]

i do the most retarded things.

like taking 51 from queensway on the WRONG side of the road, and winding up at PAYA LEBAR -.- and taking one and a half hours to reach home, dammit.

i feel stupid.

never mind.

flag day was okay, though huiyi and beixin were being umm over-enthu, considering this was their first flag day. haha and no, beixin, i have more donations than you would like to admit x]

went to collect the class tee after that, realised that the surpise is actually non-existant the names aren't in gold after all =( sorry.

then me and huiyi uh did the most retarded thing we ever did in our lives -.- as mentioned above. no need to elaborate i feel like a moron enough already.

im too tired to post anymore gdnite

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in this order: bei-jas-wini-tong-val x]

hee. i blogged. okay so i didn't sleep well last night because:

i went to bed at 11

fell asleep at 12

woke up at FIVE IN THE MORNING

tossed and turned till 9 >< bag ="x">< and honestly i didn't expect myself to get marksman lah but well : ) my score is 14 =)

after the shooting i was having a stupid headache because the helmet was too small for me and the hairband kept biting into my head. we sort of 'escaped' from the ncc hq in fast march, then wound up sitting at the roadside doing nothing -.-

went to je to take neos, then ate at pizza hut. we happy happy order a lot of things, in the end the bill come up to about $97 -.- then seeing that all of us were broke me and jasmine went downstairs to borrow money =x bingyang was the only one nice enough to lend us the money lor x] thanks bingyang whee ~ and xianwen was a jerk he tell sze kiat dont lend us =x

anyway. we ate till we were stuffed, then i went home. i swear im having indigestion =[

*breathes in*




*breathes out*




*breathes in*




*breathes out*





slowly, now..













OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG !!! *tears out hair and goes bald* SHOOTING IS JUST TOMORROW AND IM SITTING HERE DOING NOTHING oh no >< everyone wish me luck !


ugh never mind. i know i ought to sleep early (being tired wont do me any good) but my hair isn't dried yet. so there.

woke up after i had 10 hours of sleep, then idled about. played the piano, completed my kumon worksheets and practised mty guitar, then prepared for maths remedial (1400-1630 hrs, weird timing isn't it).

after maths remedial i hurried to guitar (i was late for 15 mins -.-) then went to jp with huangbei to eat icecream at Scoops. honestly the ice cream sucks. wayyyy below standard. but the only good thing is that you get lots of samples. and the aunty is nice, but that doesn't change the fact that the ice cream sucks. the banana flavour tastes like it was made with banana PLUS skin, and it was so disgusting that i decided to throw it away. thoroughly gross.

okay i need to prepare for tomorrow. wish me luck, once again. gdnite (:

i swear the journey from taman rendang (my aunt's house) back home is too short for me to get any decent sleep.

today there was no piano lesson (goodness knows why) and so i went to read my book. title is 'Dear Prince Charming'.

went to my aunt's house and ate lunch, and played with my cousins. weile was jumping around screaming and dancing and i filmed it down. when i showed it to him later he was reduced to a fit of hysterical giggles. then weikang wanted to contruct a tent, and so i did it, SINGLEHANDEDLY : D got sense of achievement afterwards you know ;) happy happy.

fell asleep on a table, fell asleep on the journey home, and i threw myself straight into bed after i reached home. slept till about 8+. this is what happens when i only get 6 hours of sleep the night before.

there's maths remedial tomorrow and i have no idea on where to go after that. the timing is weird, i should say. 2 to 430 ? lets just say it's smack in the middle of everything. =x can't do anything before or after that. sigh.

stella is kAwAii nEhhxX :)

sighh my life is boring.

and so my lovely saturday went by with me wasting away at home reading the da vinci code and attempting to complete some homework.

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can
Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

(: beixin qing3 zhu4 yi4, once i perfected the chords i shall play with you hee.

andd ii've cOme tO realiise thatt biitchh typee ishh superr duperr kawaii nehhx ! maybe i should experiment typing one post in bitch type and see how you guys take it HAHA.

feei: hello (: will link you soon
huiyi: i think the show all the men in the 9oclock show will die out eventually, leaving the women to fend for themselves, accentuating how important women are in modern society. LOL
lizhu: LOL you're so stupid. haha i'll change your link soon (:
beixin: take care hehe. a bit too late le hor haha.
day: okay you're a refined and cultured lady uh =)
stellala: :D *wrinkles nose) LOL
jasmine: ohmyguanyinma xD i think my schedule more packed lor, heh
cheryl: i had no idea you decided to blog again you never told me : ( will link you

ii sWeAr sTeLLa l0oks superr kawaii wOrrs, wHenns sHe wriinkles up herr noseeyy =)

im not speaking much nowadays. prefer to keep quiet. nothing much to talk about anyway. if this goes on im going to sink into depression.

im burying myself in the 'da vinci code' book again. im re-reading it fyi.

i think the thing that makes this book so addictive is all the suspense and the trepidation of the main characters as they run away from the police. i also realised that the book likes to feed us with a lot of facts. if there was no storyline it would've become a non-fiction book of some sort.

there's one last day, and one last ncc activity before the june hols officially start. holidays are good. i need to recuperate. as you know im not getting enough sleep.

schedule for the june hols:
29th may : maths remedial
30th may : live shoot (omgym someone help me)
31th may : flag day
1st june : hist remedial
2nd + 7th june : kayaking course
4th - 18th june : malaysia
16th june : elit unseen poetry
19th - 22nd june : spec course

sigh.

im being very weird. previously i used to be so happy now i dont know whr i've gone. =( can somebody please go out high-ing with me ? i've forgotten what exhilaration feels like.

i'm just not interested in anything anymore.

we got back our report books today. im hopeless. my l1r5 is hopeless.

chrislyn and stella and i were going around to see everyone's sec one photo and laughing like crazy. ya i know i look like ms ek =x stop laughing ! and chrislyn was taking photos of 'before' and 'after' ; whole lot of fun : )

after school went to queensway with hy jh and leena to buy socks because mine are seriously in tatters o.O and also to check out the class tee thing. we'll be collecting on 31st may yeah. i hope all goes well : D

ate at macdonalds' (my favourite apple pie) then went to ikea to buy the swedish meatballs ! my verdict ? i think they taste normal just the sauce that makes them rly superb. the cranberries shouldn't be added into the container because sweet, sour and salty dont rly go together and makes my tastebuds go all haywire. the potatoes are tasteless, maybe that explains the presence of the cranberries. i'd give them 7/10. didn't get no 'wow' feeling.

i went home and slept WITH MY CONTACTS ON. mental note to self, do NOT, never, ever, sleep with contacts on again. even if fucking tired also must drag myself out of bed to the toilet. when i woke up and took them out there was this red circle around my pupil where my contact was a moment ago. omg so scary.

went skipping. live shoot is coming im scared ><

i think _ talks like an old hag o.O

we had pe, which was rugby again. i dont like rugby. it excites me. rugby makes me feel very tensed up. jiahui infuriates me by throwing the ball to thin air ;)

chinese was compo writing. elit was boring. no one came to class for history today so we didn't do much. maths was boring. i hate matrices. i hate maths. the whole day we were singing,"1000 legged worm" and "itsy bitsy teeny weeny bikini". sorry if you think i have no childhood to look back on cos i rly dont. heh.

we played captain's ball today (: and i hate qihui because she's so hiong and chiamiang cos she made me fall down lol. had a 'lame joke' session =x im lame i need a wheelchair

kayaking course on 2nd and 7th. =)


something is wrong with me.

i hate people who get in my way when i walk at full speed.

as you know i have long legs and walk very fast. and when i am walking at the maximum speed it's very, very infuriating to have someone in front of you, blocking your way, or even possibly the entire pathway. such inconsiderate people ought to be shot. people who walk slowly ought to be shot two times. people who walk slowly AND are oblivious that they are blocking the whole pathway ought to be shot three times, brutally cut into many pieces then thrown into the sea.

the place where i really cannot stand is the way from the boonlay mrt station to jurong point WTF. over there everyone walks like snails and you can hardly weave your way through the throngs of people. it's like a human traffic jam. stupid humans, block my way. i wish i had wings so i could get from one destination to another with a bat of an eyelid. then i can wake up at 7 in the morning and still not be late because i can fly to school, remember ? (my and my wishful thinking)

call me a bitch, cause i think i own the whole pathway that i walk on (:

i forgot to watch my 9 o clock show -.- and i dont know how to do my physics worksheet and chem assg so im just gna die tmr =)

future

i wonder why all parents are so worried over their children's futures leh.

dont you realise parents are all like going,"you better study hard, this is singapore, if you fail your exams you wont have any qualifications, then nobody want to hire you and you wont have any future" and stuff along that line. they nag and force their children to study just cause they wna make sure their children have a good life when they grow up.

wont i make a lot of money if one day i formulate something that can guarantee that a kid will have a bright future, forcefeed someone with it and then when my "experimental" kid grows up and becomes the president or something then i'll start making big bucks : D

but come to think of it, if everyone consumes that thing i create, then wont everyone have a bright future, and who will do the dirty work like the road sweepers or toilet cleaners ? not saying they very low class but everyone would prefer to stay in the office, under the aircon instead of the streets, under the hot sun, right ?

it's not gna work =x but i would love to rid myself of my mum's naggings, just breeze through school life because i know everything is alright and my future is already settled for me that kinda thing. but nothing is certain lah. impossible de, unless im the daughter of some tycoon, then my future will be more or less like, taking over the company or something.

never mind me. i'm going to do homework already :) toodles

SENTOSA OUTING : D

OMG I have sosososo much to blog about today. SENTOSA OUTING TODAY WITH CHARLIEGIRLS : D

Okay so I woke up at 8 + today and struggling to decide what to wear and decided on something quite revealing cos I wanted to get a more even tan =x Then I got my dad to drive me to JEC where I couldn't contact Hongru and Zixi and thought they were playing tricks on me -.- Turns out they were the earliest and were eating "TRADITIONAL" breakfast at Kopitiam 0.0 I however prefer Macdonalds' anyday : )

ZIXI WENT TO MY HOUSE while Huangbei and Hongru waited for the rest to borrow a bareback from me so she could suntan too, and so I went back home with her =\ after that we took to mrt to he to find the others again . shall not elaborate on the travelling stuff it's pretty redundant, but turns out HR bought a spiky bouncy ball and a frisbee from HB's mum's provision shop, including four bubble blowing things that we later used to irritate people by blowing bubbles into their faces =x

Once we reached Sentosa we dumped our stuff under a stone and proceeded to bathe ourselves in tanning oil and then we went to play :) we buried HR in a sand tomb, dug a canal in the shape of the letters "CHARLIE" and stuff like that =)

Went for lunch at 7-Eleven where we all ate instant noodles and big gulps : ) ate till our stomachs were bloated, then spent some time camwhoring in the.. uhh, toilet LOL.

THE LUGE WAS UP NEXT and OMG it was like "!!!!!!" 10/10 it's like wow. the 'adrenaline rush' (quoted from jasmine) is awesome : D The skyride was a bit scary though, me and jas were holding on damn tightly to the bar =x

--- lazy to post anymore --- if there is anything you guys want me to post pls tag my blog (:

It's already 10:48pm. But I still want to post this out. going to type real differently.

why everyone feeling so suicidal nowadays?

stress?
homework?
exams?
heartbreak?

whatever.

whether you just say say only or you really mean it pls think about it.

you really bear to leave everything behind you meh? your possessions, your family your friends, everyone. you really wna leave them ah? i rly dont see the logic. just because of some stupid problems that can be solved you end your life like that ?

maybe you think there's nothing worth living for on earth. die already no need to worry about anything else le. go the other world like paradise like that, can enjoy. i dunno lah.

it's not true. think about all the people who will miss you. they'll all be so heartbroken lah. and you have your whole life ahead of you so why dont you treasure every day you have?

you see, everything in this world is uncertain. anytime you might get into an accident (get killed by a flower pot etc) so why die because of your own actions ?

think of all the people suffering out there. those people in third world countries? they're suffering from malnutrition and struggling to live. they WANT to live on though they do NOT have the means to. what about those people with terminal diseases? those people with full-blown AIDS ? they are suffering and in great pain and if they want to end their lives i understand but we teenagers are fit and healthy so why end our lives when others out there who have lesser chances of surviving plough on , fighting to lengthen their lifespan, whereas we who are young and are generally immune to many diseases yearn to end our lives? it doesn't make sense. we dont have the right to commit suicide, i should say. we'll be letting them down.

anything and every problem can be solved. running away from the problem or dying isn't going to help at all.

"..there is so much injustice in this world, you've simply got to learn to live with it ..." -Mrs Stockmann, The Enemy of the People.


here i am preaching. wait me myself die tomorrow kena knocked down by car or car accident. cheers everyone. dont do anything silly, okay.

p.s im sorry im so harsh in this post, please forgive me if my language has been very offending. i dont mean it and im not usually like that but this is what i really feel, yeah?

Today morning when me and Huiyi came to school we were shocked to see the lights in the classrooms on the third floor and fourth floor not turned on, and people standing at the second floor corridor. The aunty never come lah, and it was announced over the PA system later that there was a "shortage of manpower" LOL.

After school there was oral, which I'm sure I flunked because I only got 6 marks for my yue4 du2. But Li Jie Min very very nice : D before I sat down she asked me whether she had seen me somewhere before and whether she got scold me before =x she smiled at me and was very encouraging throughout the oral when I was busy making a complete fool of myself, but I'm glad the oral is finally over : D

I went to Queensway with Lengs to sttle the class tee thing, and I also very happy that that's finally settled too : D There's one alteration that the guy at Graffiti Imprint offered to make for us, and I guarantee plus chop 3Limelighters will love it : D If you guys are reading this please rejoice ! LOL.

I became the wide-eyed kid when we went to Ikea afterwards where we ate at the Swedish Food Market (I love it man it rocks) and went to buy my hangers THERE WAS SO MUCH FURNITURE ! And best of all the furniture look like art OMG. >< I bought the hangers that I wanted for very long and I'm veryvery happy : DD

I took the bus 147 and I FELL ASLEEP ON IT o.O when I finally reached Clementi Int the bus driver was shouting at me to get down OMG. Traumatising experience ><

My L1R5 is 25 D'= it's the end of the world

I SCREWED MY MUTUAL =
Jasmine still complain her mutual board very ugly turn out mine even uglier, hows that ?

Anyway I know I shouldn't pin the blame on other stuff and I should bear all responsibility yada yada yada BUT I JUST CANNOT STAND IT LA . Wah lao what sort of topic is observation and listening post never even learn before. If I didn't take the manual from Kah Sing I would never have gotten all the information lor wth spec course cd also no have. WAH LAO .

Anyway I'm pinning the blame 70% on the topic and the other 30% on myself la for making the board so ugly. People no talent for art not people de fault mah =x Liyan is blaming the person who gave the info to her ( which happens to be Kahsing LOL )

Never mind it's over anyway I shall forget about it.

I think I'm like becoming a total bitch or something everyone hates me or dislikes me in one way or another why am so pathetic? I'm nonchalant and apathetic I nowadays heck a lot of things. Dont know why I just dont give a damn anymore i dont know i dont know can someone please tell me

It's so unfair I dont like it why must some of us be picked out of the spec course ? I read hb's blog and jas's blog and I rly agree with them lah it's like we're all working towards a common goal then as we go along some people get excluded and I think that breaks our platoon up. We thought we would all be sergeants at the end of two years , but no, that isn't the case. Why everything must happen to our batch ah? RVIP, renovation blah blah we dont get anything good.

At least we're all going to Mt Ophir together.

I promise I will put in all my effort to do ncc proud wont let you guys down.

I hate my very stubborn mum, who refuses to take me out of Kumon and chinese tuition.

And I hate stencils because I am going to have to pay with my life for it =x

IT'S MOTHERS' DAY TOMORROW : D

Happy happy Mothers' Day to all ! Though I doubt any mothers would read this but hey. Remember to give your dearest parent a big hug of appreciation ! ( Yeah right, I'm not intending to have any form of physical contact with my mum, ever )

I am cooking spaghetti tomorrow, and Bryan and Valerie swear it's going to be a disaster but hey it's the thought that counts .. right ? =x They keep saying that my whole family going to kena food poisoning ><

So I'm going to like, make spaghetti, plus the sauce and all. Garlic bread as appetizers, clam chowder for the soup ( cost me $6++ for two cans, okay ?! ) and FRUIT KEBABS for dessert ! :D Omg I'm so excited.

What are YOU going to do on Mothers' Day ?

RGS choir concert

On Thursday I waited for Zhixin and Beixin after school for their oral to finish, but in the end went home with Carmen, Eunice and Kaiting etc. I didn't know what to wear, so I just put on a top and a skirt ( Valerie possessed me, I swear ).

Went to the 7-Eleven near ACS to have our very measly dinner which consisted of instant noodles and in Jevon's case, instant noodles PLUS ready to eat egg LOL ! You all should try it, it is packed in a vacuum packet thing and has juice oozing out from it, it tastes like rubber and best of all, IT CAN BOUNCE ! : D It costs just 70 cents, so hurry now and get yours today at any 7-Eleven stores!

We headed off to the school where we bought flowers from the Prefects-In-Training, selling one stalk of sunflower for $2. In the end there were a lot left over, and they started yelling,"3 for $5", "5 for $5" and we were entertaining ourselves listening to the prices drop as time went by.

The concert was okay I guess. The songs were okay but the busking groups were a bit off o.O and the dance by RJC was cool :)

After the concert we were joined by two of Bryan's friends from RI. It was unbearable I kept having this feeling that I was out with a bunch of jokers and I really couldn't stand it. I tried very hard to mind my own business and talked very little and just fiddled with my phone the whole time. It was a traumatising experience and I shall not elaborate further and if you want more info you can ask me.

Far east Plaza was were we spent our time waiting for Val at around 11 +. After we ate we went home by bus, and I reached home at 1 +, so tired I couldn't hardly open my eyes.

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Today was Vesak Day so my whole family went to Malaysia to visit the temple. Nothing much. Went back to my aunt's house to pig out ( i.e. sleep and eat, sleep and eat) then went home. Happy Vesak day to all buddhists.

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SCREW THE PERSON WHO INVENTED TUITION ! I hope he/she dies a terible death, because he brought such immense suffering upon us students! I HATE TUITION I HATE TUITION I HATE TUITION. School not enough meh, still need to mug after school. And I hate mothers who think that tuition will do wonders and make you the top in level in no time and wont allow you to quit until you do the above mentioned thing. Which is, coincidentally, the sort of person my mum is.

I am going to Malaysia for two whole weeks (God bless me) during the 4th to 18th of June because my maid is going back to the Philippines to see her family. I still can't believe I'm going to be exiled to THAT place for two whole weeks >< ARGH. But most likely I'll be there helping out at the childcare centre, and my aunt is paying me, therefore I will not need to find a job anymore : )

I'm so tired I shall go to sleep now. Cya ~

A lot of things to blog about today ! Okay.. Where should I start?

I was supposed to meet Huiyi today at the Westmere gate at 830 so we could go meet the others together but I woke up late. It was only when she called me at 835 that I woke up -_- I always oversleep sry sry.

Anyway after I got ready we headed off to the Mac at Westmall. Zhixin , Beixin and Chyiwei were already waiting =x Then we bought breakfast and went to Chyiwei's house to watch a movie ! We tried to hail a cab at the main road, and we got one but the stupid f-ed up driver said, " Five people overload liao, cannot." Like wth la how heavy can five teenagers weigh la. Anyway the bus came (opposite side of the road) just at that moment and we rushed to the bus and caught it : )

We went to Chyi Wei's house and watched 13 going on 30, which was damn hilarious and nice la >< then we went to the bus stop where Chyi Wei pangseh-ed us cos she say go Orchard no point she only can walk an hour or so then need to go home liao.

Hmm then from there we went to Far East first, walked a damn lot and bought lots of things. Beixin first bought her pair of sunglasses for her mum, and Dayanna came. We explored the building from top to bottom and I tell you it's damn tiring okay ><

My first purchase of the day was a pair of earrings, and from then on my money was like practically flying out of my wallet la. Like Huiyi said," Once you start buying you wont be able to stop," which I totally agree with LOL.

Took a break and went to Sweet Talk for a drink, and then we proceeded to explore the basment. Bought slippers from Hula and Co that cost a $15.90 ( say 'wow' ), but I guess it's okay since I haven't been going shopping recently at all.

Dayanna wanted to take neos so she dragged all of us to take with her but she couldn't remember where the shop was LOL. I remembered she said,"I confirm plus chop is here," and it turned out to be the floor below -.- silly Day.

Went to Cine after that to have our lunch at Pastamania, and my pasta plus garlic bread only cost $7 + ! When I looked at the receipt I was damn shocked la, then I found out that it was because of a 30% students' discount : D which made me very happy cos I only spent $7+ on a Pastamania meal :)

Went to Subway to buy the giant cookie after that. Me Day and Huiyi each ordered one, and the stupid person put everything into one bag. I tell him separate then he say not enough paper bags -.-

Proceeded to the Heeren and there wasn't much there la really. One thing I remember was this shop where the shopkeepr was damn guailan, she actually FORCED you to try out the clothes and picked the clothes out for you -.- She told Day to try out this skirt which she at first said was $19.90 but turned out to be like, $46 ? Very nice of the aunty -_-

Yeah went to Bugis to look at bags. We went to Mac to rest our very tired feet and to have a quick drink before moving off again. We sat down and before we could go to the counter to order one of the Mac staff came to us, holding her PDA and asked us for orders. Wah lao I was danm pissed la cos firstly she charged me $2.20 for my iced lemon tea which was actually only $1.95. And when we said we wanted to cancel our order she say she 'send already' and we had to pay her in cash. I didn't HAVE any cash so she took my ezlink card. What attitude! I hate her. Macdonald's leh ! -.- Beware of old staff who cheat your money and think they're actually earning money for the company.

Shall end the post here I need to run off for the concert -_-

I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I'm sorta like in some grey area where no emotions can reach me. Anything that happens doesn't really affect me anymore. I'm like in a daze of some sort. And nowadays like I can't really express my thoughts fully, they're just fragments and I can't find arguments to support them. My language ! cmi bah .. I think it's the after effects of the midyears, all my brain cells have died and I need time for my brain to produce more. =x

Today we played rugby again for PE, which I declare the most boring/scariest game on earth. It's like you start the ball then everyone comes running towards you.. My natural instinct would be to drop the ball and run away or freak out or something. Ugh =x

Didn't do lit, and when Mrs Woon asked who did the homework no one raised their hands and she looked like she was really close to tears. I failed my a maths, how's that? I owe my tutor a treat liao..Fell asleep during last lesson for 10 minutes I guess I just dozed off.

EVERYONE'S GOING MOUNT OPHIR :DD whee ~ and we're having a kayaking course too oh yay.

Mr Ong says I should post nice stuff in my blog so I shall LOL. I LOVE RV I LOVE ALL TEACHERS ESP THE TEACHERS WHO PROWL THE PARADE SQUARE DURING ASSEMBLY TO CHECK THE STUDENT'S ATTIRE :)

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Wah. Jasmine, Bei Xin, Huang Bei, Zhi Xin, Dayanna, Wanleng, Chrislyn, Stella =)

I kena by Shaun Chng uh . LOL .

Anyway today's assembly was about the SC campaigns or something. Was quite skeptical about the whole thing, think it's just something for people to humiliate themselves. Got one guy very interesting leh, when he said he go on MSN everyday I cheered for him LOL xD

Returned a lot of papers today and realised that I failed my chinese once again, and my history was very, VERY disappointing. I was staring at my marks and thinking,"This is the end of the world.." Chemistry even worse, I get back first paper, 21. Get back second paper, 21. Very happy, then last one fail. WAH LAO ><>

it's the end of the world

random stuff

I'm going to the RGS concert on Thursday, but Valerie says it's bad =( Stupid I shouldn't have agreed. =S and she wants flowers, but me and Bryan plan to boycott her, shhh dont tell anyone LOL.

My neck has been in agony for the past few days you know. ><>

Listen to MrBrown's The Persistently Non-Political podcast! LOL it's so funny : D was laughing like a hyena omg o.O

Ke Ai by Yang Cheng Ling very nice :)

I want to quit chinese tuition.

I feel so confused. I just dont understand where I've gone wrong.

I mean, you're surrounded by so many people who love you, and I love you too, just that you've got me all wrong. I'm not treating him as more important than you, or even charlie. Tell me, since when have I pangseh-ed charlie for a guy?

Maybe we seem like we're drifting apart because we haven't really been having any outings recently, but it's all because of the exams. After activity we hardly go out as a platoon, too. People have to rush home and all. In the end it's just a few of us who go out and have dinner. Last week we had midyears and we've been going home after school with our classmates instead of the platoon.

We're hardly to blame as well, right? We've all been busy, face it, and it's really hard to have a proper platoon outing because not everyone makes an effort to go, or is not free on that day. I think we should tell the platoon the plans in advance, and if the whole platoon makes an effort to go I should think that we'll have a successful outing soon.

"When a team falls out, its not one person, but rather the whole team's fault. Even if one person drifts away, and the team falls apart, its still the team's fault for turning away." -zhixin

If we make an effort we'll be like last year again. Anyone up to go to Huangbei's house next Friday? I'm on.

THIS IS MY 101TH POST ! *applauds myself*

I had over two hundred posts in the old blog, but this 'new one' has hit 101 =]

We watched The Crucible again with the other lit students on Friday again. I think there's a common hatred for Abigail the stupid bitch who tries to make everyone the scapegoat, including John Proctor (the poor thing) and his wife just so she could save her own life >< The ending was horrible because John refused to tell a lie and betray his soul to save himself and he said," I have given you my soul, leave me my name!" in a very dramatic sort of way.

I think the last part was supposed to be quite meaningful in a sense. But nowadays you can just migrate to another country, get a passport and change your name as and when you like. Oh well.. I wished John didn't have to die anyway.

The majority isn't always right because people can be manipulated and be made to believe in a certain thing that isn't always the truth. And when the majority believes in an illusion, it takes a damn lot of courage to be able to stand up to all of them and proclaim that you are right while they aren't. In this play, the truth didn't prevail because John died in the end, but honourably, because he didn't betray his conscience and soul. He refused to tell a lie to save his skin because he saw it as something lowdown and wanted his pride. Though he hanged, but in the end the majority was still on his side, so well.

I think Danforth is retarded =x

I find out that I actually like to view stuff from other people's POV. I dont know why, sometimes I just drift off and end up looking at the same situation in many different pairs of shows. Here comes another 'visualization' ..

FICTION. WHATEVER THAT IS SAID BELOW IS TOTALLY FICTION. fictionfictionfictionfiction. okay?

It's always been something like silent communication for us. Take for example, during dinnertime (she rarely came home for lunch) I would cook the normal meals, then wait for her to finish her food, after which she would return her plate to the kitchen. I would immediately go to the kitchen to check it out. If it was empty(usually when I cook curry), I would smile inwardly and take it that I'd cooked a good meal. If it was left untouched I would get the hint.

I know she and her siblings loved prawn crackers, so one day I bought a packet from the supermarket, hoping it'll please her. What I wasn't aware of was that the crackers from the supermarket didn't taste nice at all, and I found the half eaten packet in the fridge the next morning, very un-crispy.

Every morning she would go to school, and wake me up to help her find various articles of clothing, and then she would pester me to help her oepn the bloody door even though she and I are very aware that she has her own set of keys and opening the door would take less than a minute for her.

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guessguessguess from whose POV did I write this from? : D quite easy actually.

Sorry for the lack of updates. I was away.

Anyway I am waiting for the pictures that I took of Penang. My dad STILL hasn't given them to me and I think that I wont be getting them anywhere in the near future so I can forget about posting about the trip.

I have been traumatised by many things recently. Like how come some people are in such a hurry to grow up?

My point of view is that we should act our age, and not try to be overly adult-like because that would result in you being deprived of 'childhood memories' as I call them. Why wear mature clothes, why indulge activities that only the 18 or 19 year olds do? It doesn't make sense. There's a time for everything and when it's the time for you to behave like a teenager, act like one and not give people the impression that you're rushing into adulthood.

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I really have no mood to blog anymore, sorry. All thanks to my f-ed up brother who once again deprived me of cotton candy, the little bastard. I really hope he dies and rots in hell. Okay that sounds cliche but please give me a break.

From now onwards my post shall turn into angsty one, be warned.

My english is getting from bad to worse and if you can't stand it you can just go away or something. I'm sorry if my language cannot be compared to yours. I'm plain STUPID, alright? I have zero brains while you have two.

Ignore me please.

Yes, and today's a maths paper officially marks the end of the midyears, which makes me very, very happy. You dont know how happy it makes me. You dont know how happy I will be when I get back my papers, all with red crosses and zero upon whatever number. [:

Okay anyway after the a maths paper I went to the Malaysian Hi Com to make my passport, which lasted till 1245 or something, then went home to speed change and then rushed off to ice skate woot : D

I long long long time never ice skate le, and I think I was irritating people by exclaiming,"I dont know how to ice skate liao!" ahahaha. It was damn shiok and damn cool when you're going real fast and your face is like wah. xD And my feet cramped up like three times cos this time I wasn't occupied with teaching anyone so I just skated for three hours straight all by myself except occasionally when I was holding hands with Elin or Yuge or Liyan. And I had cup noodles and my favourite ice milo float ! : D I'm a happy girl whee ~ poor Huiyi couldn't go.. =x She had band =( let's all observe a minute of silence for her LOL =x

After which me, Wanleng, Chrislyn and Marian went to take neos = ] turned out rly spastic cos we planned to pose like drama queens and stuff, but the machine was too fast and we didn't have time to think so yeah HAHA. Then we went to the arcade where me and Wanleng tried out the DDR machine and OHMYGOD I'm like so addicted to that la. I kept getting mixed up and making a big fuss and acting like a bimbo -_- Wanleng is pro lah, she everytime get higher grade than me.

Then after that we went to the library, just the four of us and we sat down in a cosy corner and got comfy and then started a gossip session xD LOL I very long never gossip liao, now got new stuff le : D

After that went home got changed (again) and went for taekwondo. I was like half dead the whole time. The same old stuff again and black belts had to stay back as usual. Knife sparring and we could go home.

I'm addicted to DDR I'm going tomorrow =) whee ~ I'm tired but happy heh : D


shereen: hellos (:
huiyi: LOL okay it was beixin heh. yeah it was about HER =x
day: you're a silly girl, dunno how to use your scanner HAHA xD
jasmine: I WANT TO SEE YOUR HAIR !
beixin: lol yeah you're spongebob HAHA
junqi: thankyou you ! but it was just a short para i made up lah : D

Ellie was a shy girl.

Really, she was. It's very obviously plastered over her face, her expression pleading, as if to say,"Please dont mess with me, I'm too fragile to take it" just like a library book. When you said "Hi" to her she would answer back in this really soft voice, barely heard even when your surroundings are relatively quiet. She was the low-profile type, and needless to say no one one bothered to talk about her, except for an occasional inquiry to her classmate,"Who is that girl?". She didn't mind, really. She disliked people to talk about her.

Yeah okay. I was just thinking that a character like that .. what if she committed suicide one day and then everyone noticed her for the first time and pointed at her and talked about her. Then wont her soul rest in peace? =x lol

=)

Tomorrow's the last paper ! WHEE =) Which is A Maths but I really can't be bothered anymore.

Today's physics was average. The MCQ was damn hard la, and the paper 2 wasn't any better. Lit was o.O cos they gave us the extract of Dr and Mrs Stockmann quarreling in the last scene and asked us how Miller made it dramatic and I just came up with a load of crap, and the second part I wrote crap as well. For Section B I did (b) but seems like no one did the same as me except for Eunice and Zhi Xin can't remember.

After that me the platy, Huiyi the Hello kitty/Patrick, Junqi the Miffy, Leena the Gary, Dayanna the Spongebob and Beixin the... the ... YES TWEETY ! went to JEC to eat ahaha. I was broke >< I have no money till Saturday. Anyway we went to gossip about a certain someone, and then we took some very spastic neoprints LOL ! And Dayanna has a scanner but she refuses to learn how to use it HAHA.

I'm so tired and there's still chinese tuition later URGH.


it's hard to believe once you've been lied to again and again
sorry girlfriend
can't trust you anymore