Saturday, August 19, 2006

i have no life lor. i wasted one WHOLE saturday afternoon doing a blogskin which is ugly so im not going to use it. my gosh. im beginning to hate weekends la. nothing to do and i end up glued to the computer. and the worst thing is, there's homework =(

sigh.

im so utterly bored. at least go school still got things to do lor. makes me long for camps. camps whole day got things to do, got schedule need to follow one. at school? i just do whatever i like. I WANT TO GO FOR SSC NOW. =(

i today so many "=("s. today early in the morning pia finish my kumon, walk all the way there, took my test and im not level D2. another 10 more levels till i get to quit. =(

my mum never spare a thought for me one lor. pls la like kumon is for little kids who have all the time in the world to do the stupid worksheets but i dont, okay? they dont have cca they dont have common tests they dont have remedial whatever. i got common tests, one whole week never do my kumon acceptable what right. NO ! she force me to go for kumon because she is convinced that it works. gullible woman. at the end of the day, she is just throwing her money away.

every sunday, when everyone is still in dreamland, i wake up at seven in the (bloody) morning and prepare for piano. WHR GOT PPL PIANO LESSON IN MALAYSIA ONE. i shall not elaborate further.

every friday i have to go for taekwondo at 830, even though im exhausted after a whole day of school and cca afterward. not that i dont enjoy tkd, but she forces us to go. we have no choice but to go. just because she isn't the one who is going through all these and even goes for facial every saturday doesn't give her to right to force me to do things i dont like.

i feel as if i rly have no life lor. why am i doing things that i dont like to do? all my mum knows is to scream at us all day and wallow in self-pity that she gave birth to such "useless children". she called me a "lan4 san1 ba1" leh. always screaming about how we dont have self-control and no discipline at all.

why must i give priority to kumon, just because she wants me to? why should i go for tkd just because she wants me to? why should i go to her room to brush teeth, just because she wants me to? what right does she have? i prioritise what i like, i do whatever that i feel like doing, and she can't stop me. if i run away from home it's all her fault. no wonder my dad called her a stupid bitch. screaming so much that i can't even STAND being around her for a few minutes.

i live in a tv drama.

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