this sucks :[ eoys are making everyone so f-ed up. and i lost my handphone lah. F. there's a thief around in school. i think it's stupid why someone would wanna take my handphone lor. why take things that dont belong to you? it's MINE. sai, better return or i rly kick someone's ****s alr. all my stuff inside lah kns RETURN LAR. >:[ miss my hp so much. :[

anyw. this is for you.

actually i also dunno what to say abt you. i hv no problem with your hypocritical (i apologize for the harsh word used. my vocabulary is limited) ways, but the thing is that they're making me damn confused. dont know whether you really mean what you say. can't trust you anymore.

all the stuff i see you do, it's like im watching it from across the street. like, 3rd person pov. we just.. drifted apart. maybe it's cos of the stuff that the people ard me say abt you. but i DID try to clear things up with you. i heard you out &stuff. i was convinced you were a nice person again. never did i think that you wld lie to me.

i think our friendship 3/4 gone liao. or maybe everything gone liao. i also dunno lah. but i dont rly think it's worth salvaging anymore. it's nt the same you anymore. and you do have _. whether you wanna admit it or not. it's just the way you look at things lah. &the comments you make abt them.

never mind. this isn't worth my time.

th time now is 8:59. i am giving myself a 5 mins break, so i shall go back to ploughing through merger and separation at 9:04. merger and separation is such a long chapter. it'll take forever to finish it. i am sad.

okay fine i sound like a boring hag. sadly i have not been productive at all for th last few hours, and i think im going to fail my humanities, pure, sub and ss. this sucks :[ there's no time to study anymore. i want to cry.

my eyes are killing me. it is 9:03. i shall go back to my notes and continue staring at them for as long as i can keep awake.

today was an eventful day.

went to accompany juniors to the orienteering comp, partly because i wanted to miss kumon, and partly because i knew that if i didn't go, i would be too worried to sit down and do worksheets anyway. and so i decided to go, and it was damn paiseh cos i didn't sew my rank yet, and everybody was asking me,"eh winifred, you still 2sg ar?" first time i didn't feel good in my uniform :x

anyw zhiler went to do some saikang, leaving me, yitong, and the two reserves, fengye and cheelin, (who wanted to take curry puffs for his plt mates just because sgt kahsing told them that the curry puffs very nice o.o) to stay at our old tree :) cheelin is damn cute, he likes to smile a lot and he shows a lot of teeth :D

so anyway, i was worrying the hell out of myself, and i think yitong was too, but she tried to look relaxed so as nt to make me worry even more =x thx tong (: th girls came back within 1hr 16 mins, and got 0/3 correct, & th guys came back within 1 hr and 2 mins and got 5/6 cps correct. so that's it for th results. disappointed lah, but i think they're feeling worse, so i shan't say le yah. if you all reading this, just wna tell you all to work harder, you all can definitely improve de :) jiayou. i believe in you people. what's done is done, don't feel so bad.

anyway after that we had the operation smokebomb, and left before the results were announced. i felt like a criminal, a loser, a sore sore loser. i have a problem with the lack of integrity that we displayed. it sucks, honestly.

and by the way, i haven't started studying (cept for chem) and i bet everyone is mugging his/her ass off right now, so im feeling damn guilty, and i shall end here :[ gdnite everyone, gdluck for eoys :))

winifred
2009hrs

knn gekpoh so many chico it's flooded with them i think i need to protect myself in future l i shall wear armour

i hate eoys =( and i hv absolutely zero motivation to mug.

eoys are coming, and i want to die cos i haven't started studying yet and it's just ard the corner, RAWR.

hello mr soh : )

anyw to 3L de if you all are reading this (i hope you are) please listen up.

i think we're all affected by mrs tay's outburst, whether it's on a big scale or it's just bugging you at the back of your mind. this blog post nt meant to scold you all lah, but just reflect on ourselves ba.

since when have we ever paid her ample attention for her to really get through to us?

since when have we done her homework dutifully, and handed in her assignments without fail? "mrs tay assginment ar, no need do one lah" - i hear this everytime.

since when have we ever been quiet during her lesson? every few seconds she'll have to tell us to shut up, and i think if i were in her shoes i'd feel very, very sad. what is the point of standing in front of a class that doesn't even listen to you, and doesn't even respect you just because you're NICE?

yes i know that she's nice she's friendly she jokes with us a lot. in case you guys dont know, she treats us much, much better than any of her other classes. go ask the people from 3H if you dont believe me.

anyway, my point is, we dont appreciate her at all. just because she is slack with us we really shouldn't just trample all over her like a doormat, you get what i mean? and the thing is, after her outburst, we just continued talking after a few minutes like nobody's business. i quote mrs tay,"what kind of a damn rotten attitude is this?" it's like she doesn't matter at all. i mean, yah lah, she's slack, but she is still a teacher right? where is her due respect? we're nt giving her any.

the talking thing doesn't apply to only mrs tay. not-so-fierce teachers like mr soh, paul lim and mrs woon also face this problem. why can't we just pay more attention to them? and even if you dont respect the teacher and you just simply want to talk, cant you please spare a thought for those people who REALLY want to listen and get the most out of the lesson? it isn't very fair for the rest, because talking when the teacher is teaching is F-ING distracting. how would you feel if you were presenting in front of the class and nobody is talking to you?

think about it, put yourself in mrs tay's shoes. how frustrated she must feel when we dont listen to her, how disappointed she must be when we dont do the questions that she tells us to do, how hurt she must have been when she was close to tears, and we were STILL talking.

and there's also this toilet problem. how come just before paul lim's lesson, three quarters of the class go out to relieve themselves? why is it always paul lim's lesson? why dont i see the same thing happening when we have mrs ong's lesson, or lkc's lesson? why must we always bully the (i shan't use the word 'slack') not-so-strict teachers? do we have to get taught by very very fierce teachers before we can pull up our socks?

i admit that im also guilty about some of the stuff that i brought up here; im contributing to the toilet problem =x but if we all make an effort to give more respect to our teachers, maybe 3L's reputation will improve?

i dont know what to say anymore, th rest is up to you all to reflect ba, there's only so much i can say. this post is nt intended to offend yeah so please dont take it to heart; i just want you all to reflect on yourselves la yeah.

cheers.

why is msn down =(

i dont wanna know just wna heck evrything yea dont wanna bother abt it anymore just go away leave me alone please

im back from oph ! : D with charlie :]

we :
trekked a hell lot
slept in a smelly AND wet AND dark AND cold tent
ate maggi mee for all meals for two days
stuck by each other and conquered the summit :D
camwhored with each other :))
owned the KFC
ate milo powder and dry maggi mee
drank river water and purified swimming-pool-like water
got ourselves in life threatening situations
survived mt ophir : D

thanks (in random order) :

to xinhang for being so macho and helping us cook all the meals :DD
to qihui for being so naggy and caring for all of us and .. just being yourself xD
to jasmine for being thr with me for evrything (and i mean evrything) :)
to liyan for letting me hug you when i was cold =)
to hb for being a .. uhm a source of entertainment? o.o
to yitong for being resilient and strong despite your concussions, sore eyes and flu :)
to xinran for caring :)
to zixi and hongru for laughing at zhuyi and "pissie" whatever and waking everyone on the bus with your laughter xD
to val for being strong :)
to chiamiang for asking evryone to wake up at 3 to watch a firefly HAHA xD
to charlie girls for being thr for me and evryone else : DD
to all who helped me when climbing

i <3 charlie man, w/o them i rly cannot carry on le =) this mt ophir expedition rly provided me with a lot of experience yeah haha. and i slept for 12 hrs straight just now from 9 to 9 hees.