i do the most retarded things.

like taking 51 from queensway on the WRONG side of the road, and winding up at PAYA LEBAR -.- and taking one and a half hours to reach home, dammit.

i feel stupid.

never mind.

flag day was okay, though huiyi and beixin were being umm over-enthu, considering this was their first flag day. haha and no, beixin, i have more donations than you would like to admit x]

went to collect the class tee after that, realised that the surpise is actually non-existant the names aren't in gold after all =( sorry.

then me and huiyi uh did the most retarded thing we ever did in our lives -.- as mentioned above. no need to elaborate i feel like a moron enough already.

im too tired to post anymore gdnite

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in this order: bei-jas-wini-tong-val x]

hee. i blogged. okay so i didn't sleep well last night because:

i went to bed at 11

fell asleep at 12

woke up at FIVE IN THE MORNING

tossed and turned till 9 >< bag ="x">< and honestly i didn't expect myself to get marksman lah but well : ) my score is 14 =)

after the shooting i was having a stupid headache because the helmet was too small for me and the hairband kept biting into my head. we sort of 'escaped' from the ncc hq in fast march, then wound up sitting at the roadside doing nothing -.-

went to je to take neos, then ate at pizza hut. we happy happy order a lot of things, in the end the bill come up to about $97 -.- then seeing that all of us were broke me and jasmine went downstairs to borrow money =x bingyang was the only one nice enough to lend us the money lor x] thanks bingyang whee ~ and xianwen was a jerk he tell sze kiat dont lend us =x

anyway. we ate till we were stuffed, then i went home. i swear im having indigestion =[

*breathes in*




*breathes out*




*breathes in*




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slowly, now..













OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG !!! *tears out hair and goes bald* SHOOTING IS JUST TOMORROW AND IM SITTING HERE DOING NOTHING oh no >< everyone wish me luck !


ugh never mind. i know i ought to sleep early (being tired wont do me any good) but my hair isn't dried yet. so there.

woke up after i had 10 hours of sleep, then idled about. played the piano, completed my kumon worksheets and practised mty guitar, then prepared for maths remedial (1400-1630 hrs, weird timing isn't it).

after maths remedial i hurried to guitar (i was late for 15 mins -.-) then went to jp with huangbei to eat icecream at Scoops. honestly the ice cream sucks. wayyyy below standard. but the only good thing is that you get lots of samples. and the aunty is nice, but that doesn't change the fact that the ice cream sucks. the banana flavour tastes like it was made with banana PLUS skin, and it was so disgusting that i decided to throw it away. thoroughly gross.

okay i need to prepare for tomorrow. wish me luck, once again. gdnite (:

i swear the journey from taman rendang (my aunt's house) back home is too short for me to get any decent sleep.

today there was no piano lesson (goodness knows why) and so i went to read my book. title is 'Dear Prince Charming'.

went to my aunt's house and ate lunch, and played with my cousins. weile was jumping around screaming and dancing and i filmed it down. when i showed it to him later he was reduced to a fit of hysterical giggles. then weikang wanted to contruct a tent, and so i did it, SINGLEHANDEDLY : D got sense of achievement afterwards you know ;) happy happy.

fell asleep on a table, fell asleep on the journey home, and i threw myself straight into bed after i reached home. slept till about 8+. this is what happens when i only get 6 hours of sleep the night before.

there's maths remedial tomorrow and i have no idea on where to go after that. the timing is weird, i should say. 2 to 430 ? lets just say it's smack in the middle of everything. =x can't do anything before or after that. sigh.

stella is kAwAii nEhhxX :)

sighh my life is boring.

and so my lovely saturday went by with me wasting away at home reading the da vinci code and attempting to complete some homework.

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can
Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

(: beixin qing3 zhu4 yi4, once i perfected the chords i shall play with you hee.

andd ii've cOme tO realiise thatt biitchh typee ishh superr duperr kawaii nehhx ! maybe i should experiment typing one post in bitch type and see how you guys take it HAHA.

feei: hello (: will link you soon
huiyi: i think the show all the men in the 9oclock show will die out eventually, leaving the women to fend for themselves, accentuating how important women are in modern society. LOL
lizhu: LOL you're so stupid. haha i'll change your link soon (:
beixin: take care hehe. a bit too late le hor haha.
day: okay you're a refined and cultured lady uh =)
stellala: :D *wrinkles nose) LOL
jasmine: ohmyguanyinma xD i think my schedule more packed lor, heh
cheryl: i had no idea you decided to blog again you never told me : ( will link you

ii sWeAr sTeLLa l0oks superr kawaii wOrrs, wHenns sHe wriinkles up herr noseeyy =)

im not speaking much nowadays. prefer to keep quiet. nothing much to talk about anyway. if this goes on im going to sink into depression.

im burying myself in the 'da vinci code' book again. im re-reading it fyi.

i think the thing that makes this book so addictive is all the suspense and the trepidation of the main characters as they run away from the police. i also realised that the book likes to feed us with a lot of facts. if there was no storyline it would've become a non-fiction book of some sort.

there's one last day, and one last ncc activity before the june hols officially start. holidays are good. i need to recuperate. as you know im not getting enough sleep.

schedule for the june hols:
29th may : maths remedial
30th may : live shoot (omgym someone help me)
31th may : flag day
1st june : hist remedial
2nd + 7th june : kayaking course
4th - 18th june : malaysia
16th june : elit unseen poetry
19th - 22nd june : spec course

sigh.

im being very weird. previously i used to be so happy now i dont know whr i've gone. =( can somebody please go out high-ing with me ? i've forgotten what exhilaration feels like.

i'm just not interested in anything anymore.

we got back our report books today. im hopeless. my l1r5 is hopeless.

chrislyn and stella and i were going around to see everyone's sec one photo and laughing like crazy. ya i know i look like ms ek =x stop laughing ! and chrislyn was taking photos of 'before' and 'after' ; whole lot of fun : )

after school went to queensway with hy jh and leena to buy socks because mine are seriously in tatters o.O and also to check out the class tee thing. we'll be collecting on 31st may yeah. i hope all goes well : D

ate at macdonalds' (my favourite apple pie) then went to ikea to buy the swedish meatballs ! my verdict ? i think they taste normal just the sauce that makes them rly superb. the cranberries shouldn't be added into the container because sweet, sour and salty dont rly go together and makes my tastebuds go all haywire. the potatoes are tasteless, maybe that explains the presence of the cranberries. i'd give them 7/10. didn't get no 'wow' feeling.

i went home and slept WITH MY CONTACTS ON. mental note to self, do NOT, never, ever, sleep with contacts on again. even if fucking tired also must drag myself out of bed to the toilet. when i woke up and took them out there was this red circle around my pupil where my contact was a moment ago. omg so scary.

went skipping. live shoot is coming im scared ><

i think _ talks like an old hag o.O

we had pe, which was rugby again. i dont like rugby. it excites me. rugby makes me feel very tensed up. jiahui infuriates me by throwing the ball to thin air ;)

chinese was compo writing. elit was boring. no one came to class for history today so we didn't do much. maths was boring. i hate matrices. i hate maths. the whole day we were singing,"1000 legged worm" and "itsy bitsy teeny weeny bikini". sorry if you think i have no childhood to look back on cos i rly dont. heh.

we played captain's ball today (: and i hate qihui because she's so hiong and chiamiang cos she made me fall down lol. had a 'lame joke' session =x im lame i need a wheelchair

kayaking course on 2nd and 7th. =)


something is wrong with me.

i hate people who get in my way when i walk at full speed.

as you know i have long legs and walk very fast. and when i am walking at the maximum speed it's very, very infuriating to have someone in front of you, blocking your way, or even possibly the entire pathway. such inconsiderate people ought to be shot. people who walk slowly ought to be shot two times. people who walk slowly AND are oblivious that they are blocking the whole pathway ought to be shot three times, brutally cut into many pieces then thrown into the sea.

the place where i really cannot stand is the way from the boonlay mrt station to jurong point WTF. over there everyone walks like snails and you can hardly weave your way through the throngs of people. it's like a human traffic jam. stupid humans, block my way. i wish i had wings so i could get from one destination to another with a bat of an eyelid. then i can wake up at 7 in the morning and still not be late because i can fly to school, remember ? (my and my wishful thinking)

call me a bitch, cause i think i own the whole pathway that i walk on (:

i forgot to watch my 9 o clock show -.- and i dont know how to do my physics worksheet and chem assg so im just gna die tmr =)

future

i wonder why all parents are so worried over their children's futures leh.

dont you realise parents are all like going,"you better study hard, this is singapore, if you fail your exams you wont have any qualifications, then nobody want to hire you and you wont have any future" and stuff along that line. they nag and force their children to study just cause they wna make sure their children have a good life when they grow up.

wont i make a lot of money if one day i formulate something that can guarantee that a kid will have a bright future, forcefeed someone with it and then when my "experimental" kid grows up and becomes the president or something then i'll start making big bucks : D

but come to think of it, if everyone consumes that thing i create, then wont everyone have a bright future, and who will do the dirty work like the road sweepers or toilet cleaners ? not saying they very low class but everyone would prefer to stay in the office, under the aircon instead of the streets, under the hot sun, right ?

it's not gna work =x but i would love to rid myself of my mum's naggings, just breeze through school life because i know everything is alright and my future is already settled for me that kinda thing. but nothing is certain lah. impossible de, unless im the daughter of some tycoon, then my future will be more or less like, taking over the company or something.

never mind me. i'm going to do homework already :) toodles

SENTOSA OUTING : D

OMG I have sosososo much to blog about today. SENTOSA OUTING TODAY WITH CHARLIEGIRLS : D

Okay so I woke up at 8 + today and struggling to decide what to wear and decided on something quite revealing cos I wanted to get a more even tan =x Then I got my dad to drive me to JEC where I couldn't contact Hongru and Zixi and thought they were playing tricks on me -.- Turns out they were the earliest and were eating "TRADITIONAL" breakfast at Kopitiam 0.0 I however prefer Macdonalds' anyday : )

ZIXI WENT TO MY HOUSE while Huangbei and Hongru waited for the rest to borrow a bareback from me so she could suntan too, and so I went back home with her =\ after that we took to mrt to he to find the others again . shall not elaborate on the travelling stuff it's pretty redundant, but turns out HR bought a spiky bouncy ball and a frisbee from HB's mum's provision shop, including four bubble blowing things that we later used to irritate people by blowing bubbles into their faces =x

Once we reached Sentosa we dumped our stuff under a stone and proceeded to bathe ourselves in tanning oil and then we went to play :) we buried HR in a sand tomb, dug a canal in the shape of the letters "CHARLIE" and stuff like that =)

Went for lunch at 7-Eleven where we all ate instant noodles and big gulps : ) ate till our stomachs were bloated, then spent some time camwhoring in the.. uhh, toilet LOL.

THE LUGE WAS UP NEXT and OMG it was like "!!!!!!" 10/10 it's like wow. the 'adrenaline rush' (quoted from jasmine) is awesome : D The skyride was a bit scary though, me and jas were holding on damn tightly to the bar =x

--- lazy to post anymore --- if there is anything you guys want me to post pls tag my blog (:

It's already 10:48pm. But I still want to post this out. going to type real differently.

why everyone feeling so suicidal nowadays?

stress?
homework?
exams?
heartbreak?

whatever.

whether you just say say only or you really mean it pls think about it.

you really bear to leave everything behind you meh? your possessions, your family your friends, everyone. you really wna leave them ah? i rly dont see the logic. just because of some stupid problems that can be solved you end your life like that ?

maybe you think there's nothing worth living for on earth. die already no need to worry about anything else le. go the other world like paradise like that, can enjoy. i dunno lah.

it's not true. think about all the people who will miss you. they'll all be so heartbroken lah. and you have your whole life ahead of you so why dont you treasure every day you have?

you see, everything in this world is uncertain. anytime you might get into an accident (get killed by a flower pot etc) so why die because of your own actions ?

think of all the people suffering out there. those people in third world countries? they're suffering from malnutrition and struggling to live. they WANT to live on though they do NOT have the means to. what about those people with terminal diseases? those people with full-blown AIDS ? they are suffering and in great pain and if they want to end their lives i understand but we teenagers are fit and healthy so why end our lives when others out there who have lesser chances of surviving plough on , fighting to lengthen their lifespan, whereas we who are young and are generally immune to many diseases yearn to end our lives? it doesn't make sense. we dont have the right to commit suicide, i should say. we'll be letting them down.

anything and every problem can be solved. running away from the problem or dying isn't going to help at all.

"..there is so much injustice in this world, you've simply got to learn to live with it ..." -Mrs Stockmann, The Enemy of the People.


here i am preaching. wait me myself die tomorrow kena knocked down by car or car accident. cheers everyone. dont do anything silly, okay.

p.s im sorry im so harsh in this post, please forgive me if my language has been very offending. i dont mean it and im not usually like that but this is what i really feel, yeah?

Today morning when me and Huiyi came to school we were shocked to see the lights in the classrooms on the third floor and fourth floor not turned on, and people standing at the second floor corridor. The aunty never come lah, and it was announced over the PA system later that there was a "shortage of manpower" LOL.

After school there was oral, which I'm sure I flunked because I only got 6 marks for my yue4 du2. But Li Jie Min very very nice : D before I sat down she asked me whether she had seen me somewhere before and whether she got scold me before =x she smiled at me and was very encouraging throughout the oral when I was busy making a complete fool of myself, but I'm glad the oral is finally over : D

I went to Queensway with Lengs to sttle the class tee thing, and I also very happy that that's finally settled too : D There's one alteration that the guy at Graffiti Imprint offered to make for us, and I guarantee plus chop 3Limelighters will love it : D If you guys are reading this please rejoice ! LOL.

I became the wide-eyed kid when we went to Ikea afterwards where we ate at the Swedish Food Market (I love it man it rocks) and went to buy my hangers THERE WAS SO MUCH FURNITURE ! And best of all the furniture look like art OMG. >< I bought the hangers that I wanted for very long and I'm veryvery happy : DD

I took the bus 147 and I FELL ASLEEP ON IT o.O when I finally reached Clementi Int the bus driver was shouting at me to get down OMG. Traumatising experience ><

My L1R5 is 25 D'= it's the end of the world

I SCREWED MY MUTUAL =
Jasmine still complain her mutual board very ugly turn out mine even uglier, hows that ?

Anyway I know I shouldn't pin the blame on other stuff and I should bear all responsibility yada yada yada BUT I JUST CANNOT STAND IT LA . Wah lao what sort of topic is observation and listening post never even learn before. If I didn't take the manual from Kah Sing I would never have gotten all the information lor wth spec course cd also no have. WAH LAO .

Anyway I'm pinning the blame 70% on the topic and the other 30% on myself la for making the board so ugly. People no talent for art not people de fault mah =x Liyan is blaming the person who gave the info to her ( which happens to be Kahsing LOL )

Never mind it's over anyway I shall forget about it.

I think I'm like becoming a total bitch or something everyone hates me or dislikes me in one way or another why am so pathetic? I'm nonchalant and apathetic I nowadays heck a lot of things. Dont know why I just dont give a damn anymore i dont know i dont know can someone please tell me

It's so unfair I dont like it why must some of us be picked out of the spec course ? I read hb's blog and jas's blog and I rly agree with them lah it's like we're all working towards a common goal then as we go along some people get excluded and I think that breaks our platoon up. We thought we would all be sergeants at the end of two years , but no, that isn't the case. Why everything must happen to our batch ah? RVIP, renovation blah blah we dont get anything good.

At least we're all going to Mt Ophir together.

I promise I will put in all my effort to do ncc proud wont let you guys down.

I hate my very stubborn mum, who refuses to take me out of Kumon and chinese tuition.

And I hate stencils because I am going to have to pay with my life for it =x

IT'S MOTHERS' DAY TOMORROW : D

Happy happy Mothers' Day to all ! Though I doubt any mothers would read this but hey. Remember to give your dearest parent a big hug of appreciation ! ( Yeah right, I'm not intending to have any form of physical contact with my mum, ever )

I am cooking spaghetti tomorrow, and Bryan and Valerie swear it's going to be a disaster but hey it's the thought that counts .. right ? =x They keep saying that my whole family going to kena food poisoning ><

So I'm going to like, make spaghetti, plus the sauce and all. Garlic bread as appetizers, clam chowder for the soup ( cost me $6++ for two cans, okay ?! ) and FRUIT KEBABS for dessert ! :D Omg I'm so excited.

What are YOU going to do on Mothers' Day ?

RGS choir concert

On Thursday I waited for Zhixin and Beixin after school for their oral to finish, but in the end went home with Carmen, Eunice and Kaiting etc. I didn't know what to wear, so I just put on a top and a skirt ( Valerie possessed me, I swear ).

Went to the 7-Eleven near ACS to have our very measly dinner which consisted of instant noodles and in Jevon's case, instant noodles PLUS ready to eat egg LOL ! You all should try it, it is packed in a vacuum packet thing and has juice oozing out from it, it tastes like rubber and best of all, IT CAN BOUNCE ! : D It costs just 70 cents, so hurry now and get yours today at any 7-Eleven stores!

We headed off to the school where we bought flowers from the Prefects-In-Training, selling one stalk of sunflower for $2. In the end there were a lot left over, and they started yelling,"3 for $5", "5 for $5" and we were entertaining ourselves listening to the prices drop as time went by.

The concert was okay I guess. The songs were okay but the busking groups were a bit off o.O and the dance by RJC was cool :)

After the concert we were joined by two of Bryan's friends from RI. It was unbearable I kept having this feeling that I was out with a bunch of jokers and I really couldn't stand it. I tried very hard to mind my own business and talked very little and just fiddled with my phone the whole time. It was a traumatising experience and I shall not elaborate further and if you want more info you can ask me.

Far east Plaza was were we spent our time waiting for Val at around 11 +. After we ate we went home by bus, and I reached home at 1 +, so tired I couldn't hardly open my eyes.

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Today was Vesak Day so my whole family went to Malaysia to visit the temple. Nothing much. Went back to my aunt's house to pig out ( i.e. sleep and eat, sleep and eat) then went home. Happy Vesak day to all buddhists.

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SCREW THE PERSON WHO INVENTED TUITION ! I hope he/she dies a terible death, because he brought such immense suffering upon us students! I HATE TUITION I HATE TUITION I HATE TUITION. School not enough meh, still need to mug after school. And I hate mothers who think that tuition will do wonders and make you the top in level in no time and wont allow you to quit until you do the above mentioned thing. Which is, coincidentally, the sort of person my mum is.

I am going to Malaysia for two whole weeks (God bless me) during the 4th to 18th of June because my maid is going back to the Philippines to see her family. I still can't believe I'm going to be exiled to THAT place for two whole weeks >< ARGH. But most likely I'll be there helping out at the childcare centre, and my aunt is paying me, therefore I will not need to find a job anymore : )

I'm so tired I shall go to sleep now. Cya ~

A lot of things to blog about today ! Okay.. Where should I start?

I was supposed to meet Huiyi today at the Westmere gate at 830 so we could go meet the others together but I woke up late. It was only when she called me at 835 that I woke up -_- I always oversleep sry sry.

Anyway after I got ready we headed off to the Mac at Westmall. Zhixin , Beixin and Chyiwei were already waiting =x Then we bought breakfast and went to Chyiwei's house to watch a movie ! We tried to hail a cab at the main road, and we got one but the stupid f-ed up driver said, " Five people overload liao, cannot." Like wth la how heavy can five teenagers weigh la. Anyway the bus came (opposite side of the road) just at that moment and we rushed to the bus and caught it : )

We went to Chyi Wei's house and watched 13 going on 30, which was damn hilarious and nice la >< then we went to the bus stop where Chyi Wei pangseh-ed us cos she say go Orchard no point she only can walk an hour or so then need to go home liao.

Hmm then from there we went to Far East first, walked a damn lot and bought lots of things. Beixin first bought her pair of sunglasses for her mum, and Dayanna came. We explored the building from top to bottom and I tell you it's damn tiring okay ><

My first purchase of the day was a pair of earrings, and from then on my money was like practically flying out of my wallet la. Like Huiyi said," Once you start buying you wont be able to stop," which I totally agree with LOL.

Took a break and went to Sweet Talk for a drink, and then we proceeded to explore the basment. Bought slippers from Hula and Co that cost a $15.90 ( say 'wow' ), but I guess it's okay since I haven't been going shopping recently at all.

Dayanna wanted to take neos so she dragged all of us to take with her but she couldn't remember where the shop was LOL. I remembered she said,"I confirm plus chop is here," and it turned out to be the floor below -.- silly Day.

Went to Cine after that to have our lunch at Pastamania, and my pasta plus garlic bread only cost $7 + ! When I looked at the receipt I was damn shocked la, then I found out that it was because of a 30% students' discount : D which made me very happy cos I only spent $7+ on a Pastamania meal :)

Went to Subway to buy the giant cookie after that. Me Day and Huiyi each ordered one, and the stupid person put everything into one bag. I tell him separate then he say not enough paper bags -.-

Proceeded to the Heeren and there wasn't much there la really. One thing I remember was this shop where the shopkeepr was damn guailan, she actually FORCED you to try out the clothes and picked the clothes out for you -.- She told Day to try out this skirt which she at first said was $19.90 but turned out to be like, $46 ? Very nice of the aunty -_-

Yeah went to Bugis to look at bags. We went to Mac to rest our very tired feet and to have a quick drink before moving off again. We sat down and before we could go to the counter to order one of the Mac staff came to us, holding her PDA and asked us for orders. Wah lao I was danm pissed la cos firstly she charged me $2.20 for my iced lemon tea which was actually only $1.95. And when we said we wanted to cancel our order she say she 'send already' and we had to pay her in cash. I didn't HAVE any cash so she took my ezlink card. What attitude! I hate her. Macdonald's leh ! -.- Beware of old staff who cheat your money and think they're actually earning money for the company.

Shall end the post here I need to run off for the concert -_-

I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I'm sorta like in some grey area where no emotions can reach me. Anything that happens doesn't really affect me anymore. I'm like in a daze of some sort. And nowadays like I can't really express my thoughts fully, they're just fragments and I can't find arguments to support them. My language ! cmi bah .. I think it's the after effects of the midyears, all my brain cells have died and I need time for my brain to produce more. =x

Today we played rugby again for PE, which I declare the most boring/scariest game on earth. It's like you start the ball then everyone comes running towards you.. My natural instinct would be to drop the ball and run away or freak out or something. Ugh =x

Didn't do lit, and when Mrs Woon asked who did the homework no one raised their hands and she looked like she was really close to tears. I failed my a maths, how's that? I owe my tutor a treat liao..Fell asleep during last lesson for 10 minutes I guess I just dozed off.

EVERYONE'S GOING MOUNT OPHIR :DD whee ~ and we're having a kayaking course too oh yay.

Mr Ong says I should post nice stuff in my blog so I shall LOL. I LOVE RV I LOVE ALL TEACHERS ESP THE TEACHERS WHO PROWL THE PARADE SQUARE DURING ASSEMBLY TO CHECK THE STUDENT'S ATTIRE :)

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Wah. Jasmine, Bei Xin, Huang Bei, Zhi Xin, Dayanna, Wanleng, Chrislyn, Stella =)

I kena by Shaun Chng uh . LOL .

Anyway today's assembly was about the SC campaigns or something. Was quite skeptical about the whole thing, think it's just something for people to humiliate themselves. Got one guy very interesting leh, when he said he go on MSN everyday I cheered for him LOL xD

Returned a lot of papers today and realised that I failed my chinese once again, and my history was very, VERY disappointing. I was staring at my marks and thinking,"This is the end of the world.." Chemistry even worse, I get back first paper, 21. Get back second paper, 21. Very happy, then last one fail. WAH LAO ><>

it's the end of the world

random stuff

I'm going to the RGS concert on Thursday, but Valerie says it's bad =( Stupid I shouldn't have agreed. =S and she wants flowers, but me and Bryan plan to boycott her, shhh dont tell anyone LOL.

My neck has been in agony for the past few days you know. ><>

Listen to MrBrown's The Persistently Non-Political podcast! LOL it's so funny : D was laughing like a hyena omg o.O

Ke Ai by Yang Cheng Ling very nice :)

I want to quit chinese tuition.

I feel so confused. I just dont understand where I've gone wrong.

I mean, you're surrounded by so many people who love you, and I love you too, just that you've got me all wrong. I'm not treating him as more important than you, or even charlie. Tell me, since when have I pangseh-ed charlie for a guy?

Maybe we seem like we're drifting apart because we haven't really been having any outings recently, but it's all because of the exams. After activity we hardly go out as a platoon, too. People have to rush home and all. In the end it's just a few of us who go out and have dinner. Last week we had midyears and we've been going home after school with our classmates instead of the platoon.

We're hardly to blame as well, right? We've all been busy, face it, and it's really hard to have a proper platoon outing because not everyone makes an effort to go, or is not free on that day. I think we should tell the platoon the plans in advance, and if the whole platoon makes an effort to go I should think that we'll have a successful outing soon.

"When a team falls out, its not one person, but rather the whole team's fault. Even if one person drifts away, and the team falls apart, its still the team's fault for turning away." -zhixin

If we make an effort we'll be like last year again. Anyone up to go to Huangbei's house next Friday? I'm on.

THIS IS MY 101TH POST ! *applauds myself*

I had over two hundred posts in the old blog, but this 'new one' has hit 101 =]

We watched The Crucible again with the other lit students on Friday again. I think there's a common hatred for Abigail the stupid bitch who tries to make everyone the scapegoat, including John Proctor (the poor thing) and his wife just so she could save her own life >< The ending was horrible because John refused to tell a lie and betray his soul to save himself and he said," I have given you my soul, leave me my name!" in a very dramatic sort of way.

I think the last part was supposed to be quite meaningful in a sense. But nowadays you can just migrate to another country, get a passport and change your name as and when you like. Oh well.. I wished John didn't have to die anyway.

The majority isn't always right because people can be manipulated and be made to believe in a certain thing that isn't always the truth. And when the majority believes in an illusion, it takes a damn lot of courage to be able to stand up to all of them and proclaim that you are right while they aren't. In this play, the truth didn't prevail because John died in the end, but honourably, because he didn't betray his conscience and soul. He refused to tell a lie to save his skin because he saw it as something lowdown and wanted his pride. Though he hanged, but in the end the majority was still on his side, so well.

I think Danforth is retarded =x

I find out that I actually like to view stuff from other people's POV. I dont know why, sometimes I just drift off and end up looking at the same situation in many different pairs of shows. Here comes another 'visualization' ..

FICTION. WHATEVER THAT IS SAID BELOW IS TOTALLY FICTION. fictionfictionfictionfiction. okay?

It's always been something like silent communication for us. Take for example, during dinnertime (she rarely came home for lunch) I would cook the normal meals, then wait for her to finish her food, after which she would return her plate to the kitchen. I would immediately go to the kitchen to check it out. If it was empty(usually when I cook curry), I would smile inwardly and take it that I'd cooked a good meal. If it was left untouched I would get the hint.

I know she and her siblings loved prawn crackers, so one day I bought a packet from the supermarket, hoping it'll please her. What I wasn't aware of was that the crackers from the supermarket didn't taste nice at all, and I found the half eaten packet in the fridge the next morning, very un-crispy.

Every morning she would go to school, and wake me up to help her find various articles of clothing, and then she would pester me to help her oepn the bloody door even though she and I are very aware that she has her own set of keys and opening the door would take less than a minute for her.

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guessguessguess from whose POV did I write this from? : D quite easy actually.

Sorry for the lack of updates. I was away.

Anyway I am waiting for the pictures that I took of Penang. My dad STILL hasn't given them to me and I think that I wont be getting them anywhere in the near future so I can forget about posting about the trip.

I have been traumatised by many things recently. Like how come some people are in such a hurry to grow up?

My point of view is that we should act our age, and not try to be overly adult-like because that would result in you being deprived of 'childhood memories' as I call them. Why wear mature clothes, why indulge activities that only the 18 or 19 year olds do? It doesn't make sense. There's a time for everything and when it's the time for you to behave like a teenager, act like one and not give people the impression that you're rushing into adulthood.

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I really have no mood to blog anymore, sorry. All thanks to my f-ed up brother who once again deprived me of cotton candy, the little bastard. I really hope he dies and rots in hell. Okay that sounds cliche but please give me a break.

From now onwards my post shall turn into angsty one, be warned.

My english is getting from bad to worse and if you can't stand it you can just go away or something. I'm sorry if my language cannot be compared to yours. I'm plain STUPID, alright? I have zero brains while you have two.

Ignore me please.