it's bittersweet for you isn't it

we collide; that's all there is to it. 'i love you' - you say you mean it, but do you really?

All i wanted was to enjoy myself. Isn't that what a relationship should be about? But recently it's just rocky and when we quarrel you just give in cos 'you're always right' when you just couldn't be bothered to quarrel anymore.

All the times you told me to understand your insecurity you were just telling me to control myself and not socialise too much. but it's not like i can help it; I'm just being me.

You take me too seriously when I'm just joking &disheartenment sets in when i see the look on your face and it just kills the happiness in me.

Our priorities don't tally; I want to spend more time doing the things I'm supposed to do right now.

Besides, we're only 17. There's still a long way to go.

Shopping today with Yi Tong was fruitful :D

We were on a really really tight budget, me with $38 :( and Yi Tong with $50 (part of it to buy a blazer with) I totally looked like a reporter cos I was busy jotting down the names of the nice shops that we visited. We're going back for more after I get my $600!

Anyway we went to Far East and we were mainly looking at the nice T-shirts. Which is not really advisable in a sense.. Cos T-shirts are.. Casual? Aiyah but I think me and Yi Tong are quite T-shirty so.

Was in desperate need for shoes so I bought a pair that looks quite nice but it's more for formal occasions. And I bought this shirt that I fell for at first sight :P which I regretted afterwards, cos it's too small for me.

But then I thought, if people can wear interesting clothes like ill-fitting jeans that put their buttcracks on public exhibition, or create fashion trends like wearing a cap when not actually WEARING it (if you get when I mean) then I most definitely can wear a tight shirt.

Free size is a lousy excuse for shops that only bother to sell the size that the average person wears. Damn.

& I love Gelare (sheet I can't get the 'e' to have that funny thing on top) waffles on Tuesdays :D


[edit] Huiyi said I'm bimbotic so I removed a certain part of my entry :p

this is friggin' frustrating
why am i swinging like a pendulum















and i know - only i can clear up this mess

late nights and rashes
deep cuts and gashes
eyeliner and lashes
dwindling fire and ashes

Lol random. ANYWAY FYI PPL I did not have only 75cents in my wallet omg >< I had notes in my wallet; just didn't wanna spend them LOL.

Hey to all the weirdos who tagged :D I've read your tags :)

LKY: Uhms LOL
cong: Sigh a lot on my mind recently but nvm i see you happy already happy girl :D yes everyone should clean their room :D
Aiden: Yes I'll cheer up I promise :D
Sheena: Haha yeah I'll do just that :D take care sweetie
hongru: LAM HONG RU you run away to poly never talk to me anymore I miss you you're so coming for Restless right! :)
vic: I'M NOT POORRRRRR
elise: Hey :)
jasmine: impossible lah, when girls go JC they upgrade LOL you're so camwhoring with me k :D when you want your bday present :P

Okay replied :D

My mum just told me that me doing CIP at the Singapore Science Center is pointless :( but aiya only three days. I really wanna go fly kites with children for CIP :( GAHHHH. I just want to do something meaningful for the holidays but I think I'll have no time anyways :( I'm not even going for Spec Course alr sorry juniors :(

It's 12 AM omg gdnite people

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my mum is a very price elastic consumer.

Nowadays there are a lot of horrid mosquitoes that bite all over my legs and leave a stupid mark :( Like making me scratch like crazy is not enough; they still have to uglify me!!!!!

When the holidays start I'll have a 'Get-my-life/room/homework/everything-in-order day' where I will go into a massive cleaning and rubbish throwing frenzy and nobody will be able t stop me!! HAHAHA. Seriously man, my room is in disarray. I'm living in a pigsty :( Everyone should clean up their room during the holidays! Because during Chinese New Year everyone will be so excited buying new clothes and collecting angpows no one will be in the mood for spring cleaning D: so please clean up during the holidays!

Ivory Heights is having a resident flea market :x wonder who will drop by.

My wardrobe is... forget it. I'm so going for retail therapy. Who's willing to come with me? :(

I have 75 cents in my wallet. Somebody asked me for 80cents that day and I was very depressed cos I saw a 50c coin and 20c coin + another small random coin. I thought it was a 10c coin.but it turned out to be a 5c coin. :( Today I went to photocopy my piano scores. It cost 80c. Then I felt sad again cos I only had 75c.


Yay Vesak Day :D

feel like i'm lost in a maze of some sort.

going either route might totally ruin my chances of going to the other maybe if i apply economics it'll make more sense to me, you know, marginal cost, but seriously i don't even know which is the better option,

and what should i do with my time, it's so hard to schedule everything.

y'know when something is poisoned you gotta find the antidote it's common sense yes but then i ask myself do i really wanna do that?

and it's no use talking to different people i just find myself oscillating between the two unknowns; two annoying mystery bags that are just waiting to drop the bomb on me

i can't think properly now i'm just stammering and blunderbussing my way through this whether or not i trample on a few pretty wildflowers. can't face this, and there's nothing anyone can do about it so don't bother trying

happy birthday jasmine my bestie who has forgotten me

Rocky season
would you rather have rocks or rain?
either way
storm's overhead
and i've got no umbrella

i'm stepping in all the wrong places
reactions don't feed me
there's something on my face that isn't there

malaise looms

the weather will be better tomorrow
but for now
i'm sheltered by an umbrella indoors

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That was cryptic :)

I feel fat and sickly ughh