I had so much on my mind before I came to this screen, but now my mind is totally blank.

I feel like Wemmick from Great Ex. London hardens me and I harden myself in response to London. But I'll survive. I'm just glad I'm meeting some normal people tomorrow :)

There's just so many things to do and think about and remember sometimes, and it's quite liberating to just drop everything and not think about anything (thank goodness I have short term memory)

I've been reflecting lately on myself and as you know reflection is hardly positive because usually you focus on the negative stuff and think of how to improve. So I've been thinking negatively about myself. But I can't remember it long enough for me to type it here so.

I'm going for soccer tomorrow, but just in case my maniacal yelling can't be heard; all the best guys. :)

:(

We were this close to making it.






but sometimes what's not yours, isn't yours.

Thanks for all the support, it was really overwhelming and I'm really touched. Thanks so much for CCAAB (you guys are a godsend), for coming up with the sports updates form so quickly. It was really, really efficient of you guys. The sports board was good, and moving it from that discreet corner in the walkway to the candeck got many people to notice it, though perhaps moving it a little earlier would have benefited us a bit more because our season was just very slightly earlier than the rest. Thanks for announcing the end of the season like you said you would. Thanks for respecting us and understanding that shooting isn't as easy as you think it is. Thanks for not insinuating that we merely stand there and shoot and therefore shooters are 'unfit'. Thanks for giving us a voice and enough attention so at least we feel like we're given credit for working so hard. Thanks for treating us amazingly well. :)

Thanks, (to a certain teacher) for doing such a great job of our training schedule that we could start effectively start training a few months before our actual competition, instead of a whole year.

Perhaps a bit too late for thanksgiving, but thanks anyway. And thanks so much.

So. I'm feeling the withdrawal symptoms of having too much time on my hands but I don't feel like I ever want to touch my gun again because of mental trauma. Not anytime soon, definitely. I've been a wreck for the past week; I really need a break.

Debrief tomorrow, not sure about the turnout but still I am hopeful.

I will not go on Facebook now.

I will not go to other blogs.

I will not go to the Shooting results page of singaporesports.sg to find out what happened yesterday.

I will not scratch my hives. (it's taking a lot out of me)

I will sleep early today.

I will not be late tomorrow.

I will try my best to 'break the world record' (quote courtesy of Coach Ho) :D

Here I am, the day before shooting nats, sitting at home being highly miserable because of the attack of the Hives. I can't even go to school on April Fools' :( I hope the freeze was successful :P

Anyway people, wish May, Shuyan, Cheryl and I good luck for tomorrow :) We've been training like mad (for a year) for this one day (or rather one hour and 15 mins) so oh well. Won't be expecting many supporters; #1 it's in the morning #2 the start of our season wasn't announced. We don't care. :) Hope all goes well for us :)