Friday, January 27, 2006

oh just go away

What in the fucking hell is wrong with you ? You didn't use to be like that. You've changed so much . Go away. I don't know you anymore.

Or maybe it's just that you were always like that. And i merely neglected the fact that you were always such a person.

You were kidnapped and thrown into the rubbish bin with your butt outside of the rubbish bin. Now you're floating facedown in the Pacific Ocean. From now on I shall have nothing more to do with you.


Sorry. I shall stop talking about depressing stuff. Had chinese new year celebrations today with the rest of the school. Saw a very cute sec2 from Wushu ; do you remember the one who was playing the drum for the lion dance? She's uber cute !

After school I went to watch 'I Not Stupid 2' with the rest of 2G people . Very very touching, especially the Jerry part. I shall not include any spoilers lest you people curse me.

And why is the world filled with those 'hey-im-having-a-crush-on-a-stupid-ugly-and-jerkish-guy' girls ? Some people have a warped impression of what is chio and what is not. They think Furong JieJie is actually sexy.

Sorry. Im in a bad mood as you can see. I don't care if i insult anyone right now.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Why desperate fucks will rule the world one day

Zhixin asked me a very good question today; Why will desperate fucks rule the world one day ? Then i realised that i haven't thought it the reason why . After much thinking, i present to you; the solution ! xD

Why will desperate fucks rule the world one day ?
-Because, due to the overwhelming amount of them , they'll soon learn to make do with one another and despo around together. Equation : Despos + Despos = Despo square .

-Then, they will marry and give birth to kids, who will in turn marry despos all over again, and some may even marry the "innocents"(those who are not despo) . The kids they give birth to will be MIXED BLOOD. Meaning, they'll be half despo half innocent. This goes on and on and on until everyone in the world has a tiny bit of despo-ness in them(oh the horror).

-The earth will then be thrown into a terrible crisis because they can no longer find pure bloods (innocents) to take over as president etc etc. Therefore they will have to get the despos to take over the high ranking positions. And soon the whole world will be filled with despos.

Oh how terrible that would be. Remind me never to marry a despo.

Weird..

What is the world coming to ?

I used to have a mei . But he's missing now ... Wonder where he went . Could you help me find him ? He's gone now .. Hope he'll come back soon .

Why deny your identity ? It just doesn't make sense. If you're from a country that everyone hates or finds disgusting then DO SOMETHING TO MAKE PEOPLE THINK OF YOUR COUNTRY OTHERWISE. Why tell people that you're not from China when you are , just because your friends are prejudiced against people from China ? I don't get it. Maybe I just can't feel the peer pressure .

And im scared of you.

...

I'm gonna die of exhaustion soon.

just had my chinese tuition. fuck man, my chinese etacher obviously knew i was tired yet she ust kept yakking away never let me sleep. then now I NOT TIRED ANYMORE knnbccbtmdfhk.

knn she robbed me of my beauty sleep and my mum has to PAY for it. knn !

Monday, January 23, 2006

Desperate fucks

I just can't understand why some girls stick to guys like super glue.


The way they act is like SO totally disgusting -_- the way they flirt, the way they treat guys better than girls, the way they act all pretty and sluttish.. it's grossing me out. like they're simply THROWING themselves at guys. and the guys that they throw themselves at are as gross as those girls. * makes a slutty noise *

whatever. they can throw themselves at guys for all they want ; it's none of my business anyway. so long as they dont make me puke =)

Friday, January 20, 2006

Hospital visit in Ipoh turned funeral

ohmygod there's SOSOSO much to blog about i dont know how to start .

basically i got (very reluctantly) forced outta my house on a saturday morning because my dad had just received a called from my uncle that my grandma's condition was really very serious and we had to go see her right away . yeah . causing me to miss my CONCERT which i paid 25 BUCKS for AND the parade on monday . and i WENT FOR EVERY SINGLE F***ED up rehearsal . how fair is that ? well . that's besides the point .

Saturday, 14th January
6 long hours on the car . then straight to the hospital . i hate the hospital , it's very .. lc . no air con , and about 10 beds on a ward . very lowclass . hospitals in ipoh ..

anyway . first time i saw someone on her deathbed . my grandma was on life support , and it was really terrible . artificifial breathing , can you believe it ? yeah and i got a little upset . then we left for the hotel 'cos it was getting late . i didn't sleep well that night . the aircon was too cold .

Sunday, 15th January
breakfast at the Syuen , then we went to my grandma's house to sit around for a while . there were cobwebs on my grandpa's altar with the clock stopped at 6:06:43 . had a fun time looking at the photo albums ; there were full of my aunt's photos . and i discovered that my dad was a prefect and came in first for a lot of races when he was still studying in ipoh . oh well . makes me feel very pathetic . and my parents' too ! my mum wore this very disgusting pair of glasses when she was young hehe . but that's besides the point .

then we went to the hospital to visit my grandma again . this time most of my relatives were there and my aunts were quite upset . they were crying and my smallest aunt cried the most . she made me cry as well . though she was talking in hakka ( which i dont understand though im a hakka ) but she was holding this gold bracelet and crying like it was the end of the world . very touching .. she was asking my grandma to respond and stuff . though my uncles and my dad didn't cry , i could see that they were very stressed . men can't cry ! very sissy . but then again , that's besides the point .

Monday, 16th January
Breakfast at the Syuen, then set off for Singapore . we had already reached Bidor when my dad received two phone calls ; one was to inform him that my grandma's condition was deteriorating and the second to inform him that she had died . kinda shocking .. it was like we were eating wanton noodles at a coffee shop and suddenly my dad hung up and said,

" Ah por si liao. " ( which means "Grandma died already " )

i stared at him for a while to fully digest what he said . he said it in a very calm tone , like it was nothing . made me even more confused . drove back to Ipoh and my dad teared a bit when he saw my grandma's dead body being carted into the house . very sad ..

the first day we just repeated 'amitabha' again and again , over and over . made my legs ache like shit .

Tuesday , 17th January
basically it was just going back to my grandma's house , wasting the whole afternoon away , then 'nian jing' . very irritating . recited SIXTY PAGES OF STUFF . my throat was feeling very sore after that .

my mum heard that if we didn't cut our hair tomorrow , we would have to wait for three weeks to cut it again . she was shocked and decided to force us to cut our hair the next day .

Wednesday, 18th January
I GOT MY HAIR CUT BY A FUCKING TRANSVESTITE . set off to look for a hair salon and we found one that looked high class so we went in . it's called F.I.R . -_- again , that's besides the point .

so we went in ( did i just say that ? ) and saw a group of people sitting at a table near the door . my mum asked how much it would cost to cut our hair , and a MAN/WOMAN stood up . i put ' MAN/WOMAN' because initially i thought he/she was a WOMAN . but when he/she spoke it was in a GUY'S VOICE . i was like STUNNED lah . didn't know how to react . then i was the first to get my hair cut by him/her ( shit i don't know whether to say him or her . i shall regard him as a woman then , since he's so keen on being a freaking WOMAN . ) she proceeded to guide me to a chair and i sat down . she kept talking to me and i didn't know what to say . kept calling me a leng lui , and i didn't know what that meant until she expained that it actually meant chiobu . then i was like -_- and i gave her a lot of forced smiles because she was acting all shu nu and talking so goddamned softly that i couldnt hear anything . finally she couldn't stand it anymore and told me,

"eh ni bu yao yi zhi gei wo na zhong ying chou de xiao" ( which means " hey stop giving me that kind of face " )

LMAO ! then i gave her a smile that lasted longer than my previous ones . when she was done with my hair i got a shock of my life ; my fringe !!! oh my precious lovely fringe had all been cut away ! was sosososo short ! i got scared just looking at myself haha . then went back to my grandma's house , SIXTY PAGES again , then went back to the hotel to sleep . the next day my grandma would 'move house' , which means get buried lah .

Thursday, 19th January
breakfast at the Syuen ( it's been like that for the whole week , so fucking sian i tell you ) then went to my grandma's house to do some rites . collected a lot of stuff ; a plastic bag , red string to tie around our right wrist , a cloth to wipe our sweat away and stuff like that . after that we followed the coffin van to the junction (sun was very hot , i swear i've gotten tanner ) , then boarded the bus to the burial place ( was about five minutes by bus ) and the people put the coffin into the hole . we had to grab a handful of soil and throw it at the coffin , wiping our hands on your PANTS and not on your other hand . then had to step over the fire then it was over . back to the house to eat and change .

Friday, 20th January
breakfast at the Syuen AGAIN , then BACK TO SINGAPORE ! woots . i missed everyone like crazy ! platoon mates , classmates , everyone ! i missed everyone until i practically jumped whenever i received an sms . -hugs everyone i know-

redundant facts :
1) i noticed a certain Restoran Ka Lok . Enough said .
2) im related to a certain 'Fong Yee' heh .
3) my brothers Kumon teacher said that in NS you get to PITCH TENTS . it sounds sosososo weird ! almost .. cute . oh my . my brother will have a warped impression of NS from now on .
4) I dreamt about ZIXI ! she helped us to develop some photos of our platoon . don't know what it means ..
5) played with my cousins .. soft toys . they threw soft toys and plastic bags up so the fan and tried to get them down again . childish stuff but i played along . oh well .
6) my mum says im over confident , that i think everyone likes me , that im childish . to cut it short im IRRITATING . i hate people who think im irritating . hey i go a bit overboard on the 'noise creation' side but i am NOT FUCKING IRRITATING . if im irritating just get AWAY from me , loser . i like making noise , so what ? it livens up the atmosphere . grr .

can't remember anymore . oh well . i shall change my template ! hehe . to something nicer . i see got what lah . im receiving complaints already .

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Dont you wish ..

Looking up from downstairs

Lets go up the stairs ..

Oommph ! Dont run around like that !

Finally on the second floor .. looking down

isn't the chandelier pretty?

The second floor ! two TVs in the house !

Guest room on the second floor ( where i stay )

... that you had a three storey semi-detached house like my aunt's ?


No pictures of the third storey though , there are TWO flat screen computers there ! -hugs the house -

Sales

Sales are a great way to view kiasu-ness at its worst possible manifestation .

Well, the OP sale I went to today wasn't THAT bad , but I heard from Valerie that there was this 50% Mango sale and everyone was snatching like crazy and some people didn't even queue up for the changing room ; they changed OUTSIDE . Ugh , now THAT's disgusting .

Anyway it was raining , though not cats and dogs but still quite bad . There was nothing at the sale , just walked around , sniggered at the kiasu aunties and went off . Then we went to the U2 sale , though it wasn't considered a sale at all . Variety of brands , including Paddington Bear, Spongebob Squarepants ( LMAO ! ) and they weren't cheap anyway ! The aircon was far too cold so i didn't really enjoy myself there . Then was the journey home .

Monday, January 09, 2006

So many things to post , so little time

so man things happened recently and ive been coming home at unearthly hours , too late for me to post anything . yeah , but today i came home straight ! there's plenty of time for me to post , hehe ..

i spent my weekend at my aunts house again ! this time it was the whole weekend , because my mother had this seminar and she decided to drag the whole family along with her . so we went . i like my aunts house , it's really cool lah . three storeys leh ! summore this time i spent a lot of time on the third floor playing Navy Seals : Sea Air Land ( a shooting game which i found quite entertaining ) . so that meant that i had to run up and down THREE storeys all the time ! yeah . but i really like the house .. it's so cool and big . wish i had a house like that !

on sunday had my piano lesson , then slacked around somemore and went home .

today we started lessons proper . first up was golden pig . i hate to admit it but she's actually quite a nice person , but maybe it's just due to the fact that we're her co form class . she talked a lot , and she's not as scary as she seems , really . but theres this feeling thats nagging away : she's not going to be like THAT when she starts teaching . oh well . she spent the whole lesson talking , can you believe it ? that's sorta cool . no proper chinese lessons , YET . then she went on to talk about this poor family in china who only had $400 to survive on ! and the daughter of the household had to bring 130 biscuits to school everyday .

second was jaina tan . nothing much to comment about .. let me present to you a little maths equation .

Full stomach + boring lesson after break = drowsy feeling for rest of the day

yeah . extremely lethal . because after break was leong mei yeong and everyone was on the verge of falling asleep . then was paul lim ! LMAO . he's in love with golden pig i swear .. he spoke about the same story about the $400 monthly salary thing ! then everyone was like laughing . at least the atmosphere not that sleepy anymore lah .

after that was melissa ch'ng , our chem teacher till the end of may . well she was quite okay . no comments again .

and my maid just struck 4D , treating us to kfc yay . but im going to grow fat if i eat too much .. elise says im fat . ahh well . sorry for the boring post .

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

I'm sensitive and I'm not

second day of school . mostly was teambuilding games so not much of normal lessons . screamed like hell for the cheers ! and had a great time bombing each other in the canteen omg . the atmosphere was damn good for getting high lah . i foresee a sore throat coming ..

after that we learnt the sundance ( i've forgotten three quarters of it ) in the hall . then we went back to class and uh heh . i forgot to bring my report book AGAIN . =x oops . will..remember..to..bring..

then cca started at 320 but in the end the rehearsal was cancelled because it was raining . so much for the professional sound system .. why cant the school just buy it ?

yeah . maybe im sensitive or whatever . but i dont like people to put me down or tell me to shut up . i mean , you wouldn't like it too right ? dont know lah just leave me alone and i'll be myself .

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

First Day of School .

not bad though i had a hard time finding 3L . nothing much to say yeah . will blog next time .

Sunday, January 01, 2006

I don't know what to say

i am SO fucking pissed at my dear darling mother . I dont know whats her fucking problem . She's ALWAYS ranting away , screaming like a banshee and nagging and nagging and nagging ! Yknow , i think i'd actually die of her rantings . Maybe being exposed to such " elements " will cause me to have some severe health problems . I'm totally serious . And when nothing goes according to plan she breaks down and cries . it's what she's doing right now .

i dont know what's her problem lah . maybe you might say that all parents nag , but seriously you really need to be ME to see what extremes she goes to . she's mental . really .

i really dont understand her lah . she was begging and pleading my brother to do his Kumon worksheets and half crying and banging stuff . then she turns to me with tears in her eyes . " please ah winnie ah please do your kumon worksheets ah please ah take it that im begging you ah " * tears hair OUT * OMFG I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE . makes me wanna :

1) comfort her
2) scream at her and tell her to shut up
3) tear out my hair
4) ignore her

cannot stand it anymore lah fuck . to date i have four chinese essays and a maths assignment to complete . but fuck , who gives a damn anyway . if you try to force homework on me when i'm in a mood like this , you can forget it . i'll probably gleefully burn my homework up . will post later about my experience with almond cookies today . maybe with pictures . so long .