this is utterly crazy. the weirdo that has been sending me the nonsensical messages at around midnight is MY OWN BROTHER . i am traumatised. i am f-ing traumatised. -.- he was the last person i'd expect to do this kind of thing la ! i thought it was some curse or something, with all the lines of chinese character OMG. and it made me SO bloody scared -.- i dont know what to say. I FEEL SO STUPID ! *cries*

i found out cos today when i went out to have steamboat i showed my brother the weird smses. it was a wonder he managed to keep a straight face, really. then he say he dunno, maybe is his best friend. then after that i went onto the car and i realised that i didn't have my brother's handphone number, and then i asked him for it. THEN HE ADMITTED THAT IT WAS HIM, and i was so shocked that i went crazy momentarily ad i began to hit him and i slapped him across the face once. boy, was that good. i think he is mental and should be sent to IMH. today he was saying,"one bird kills two birds" then i had just woken up from my nap in the car and i was like "throw one stone kill your own bird" o.o oops. never mind that is irrelevant.

ANYWAY, now that the mystery of the 'weirdo' has been solved i can talk about my CT results.

i rly lose hope in chinese le. no motivation anymore le i dont want to study for it anymore. i admit my chinese is lousy la. i never passed before lor i dont want to do it anymore la it's so tiring all my determination all gone le. can you imagine doing the kumon worksheets for the past few weeks and not jave even a slight improvement? can you imagine going for every sort of tuition there is, just to make me pass my chinese? i just can't write a decent compo, i can't tikam the chinese zong he tian kong (i got 6 out of 20), i can't do chinese compre, I CANT DO SUMMARY. just give up on me, cos i've already given up on myself.

never mind. i am going to "pa2 shan1" alr and i dont want to care about anything in the world. : ) mt ophir, here i come. im gna conquer you ! :D but before that i have yellow ribb proj and snr spec =\ i forgot everything abt mutual le, please spare me =x