Friday, September 29, 2006

this sucks :[ eoys are making everyone so f-ed up. and i lost my handphone lah. F. there's a thief around in school. i think it's stupid why someone would wanna take my handphone lor. why take things that dont belong to you? it's MINE. sai, better return or i rly kick someone's ****s alr. all my stuff inside lah kns RETURN LAR. >:[ miss my hp so much. :[

anyw. this is for you.

actually i also dunno what to say abt you. i hv no problem with your hypocritical (i apologize for the harsh word used. my vocabulary is limited) ways, but the thing is that they're making me damn confused. dont know whether you really mean what you say. can't trust you anymore.

all the stuff i see you do, it's like im watching it from across the street. like, 3rd person pov. we just.. drifted apart. maybe it's cos of the stuff that the people ard me say abt you. but i DID try to clear things up with you. i heard you out &stuff. i was convinced you were a nice person again. never did i think that you wld lie to me.

i think our friendship 3/4 gone liao. or maybe everything gone liao. i also dunno lah. but i dont rly think it's worth salvaging anymore. it's nt the same you anymore. and you do have _. whether you wanna admit it or not. it's just the way you look at things lah. &the comments you make abt them.

never mind. this isn't worth my time.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

th time now is 8:59. i am giving myself a 5 mins break, so i shall go back to ploughing through merger and separation at 9:04. merger and separation is such a long chapter. it'll take forever to finish it. i am sad.

okay fine i sound like a boring hag. sadly i have not been productive at all for th last few hours, and i think im going to fail my humanities, pure, sub and ss. this sucks :[ there's no time to study anymore. i want to cry.

my eyes are killing me. it is 9:03. i shall go back to my notes and continue staring at them for as long as i can keep awake.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

today was an eventful day.

went to accompany juniors to the orienteering comp, partly because i wanted to miss kumon, and partly because i knew that if i didn't go, i would be too worried to sit down and do worksheets anyway. and so i decided to go, and it was damn paiseh cos i didn't sew my rank yet, and everybody was asking me,"eh winifred, you still 2sg ar?" first time i didn't feel good in my uniform :x

anyw zhiler went to do some saikang, leaving me, yitong, and the two reserves, fengye and cheelin, (who wanted to take curry puffs for his plt mates just because sgt kahsing told them that the curry puffs very nice o.o) to stay at our old tree :) cheelin is damn cute, he likes to smile a lot and he shows a lot of teeth :D

so anyway, i was worrying the hell out of myself, and i think yitong was too, but she tried to look relaxed so as nt to make me worry even more =x thx tong (: th girls came back within 1hr 16 mins, and got 0/3 correct, & th guys came back within 1 hr and 2 mins and got 5/6 cps correct. so that's it for th results. disappointed lah, but i think they're feeling worse, so i shan't say le yah. if you all reading this, just wna tell you all to work harder, you all can definitely improve de :) jiayou. i believe in you people. what's done is done, don't feel so bad.

anyway after that we had the operation smokebomb, and left before the results were announced. i felt like a criminal, a loser, a sore sore loser. i have a problem with the lack of integrity that we displayed. it sucks, honestly.

and by the way, i haven't started studying (cept for chem) and i bet everyone is mugging his/her ass off right now, so im feeling damn guilty, and i shall end here :[ gdnite everyone, gdluck for eoys :))

winifred
2009hrs

Monday, September 18, 2006

knn gekpoh so many chico it's flooded with them i think i need to protect myself in future l i shall wear armour

Sunday, September 17, 2006

i hate eoys =( and i hv absolutely zero motivation to mug.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

eoys are coming, and i want to die cos i haven't started studying yet and it's just ard the corner, RAWR.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

hello mr soh : )

anyw to 3L de if you all are reading this (i hope you are) please listen up.

i think we're all affected by mrs tay's outburst, whether it's on a big scale or it's just bugging you at the back of your mind. this blog post nt meant to scold you all lah, but just reflect on ourselves ba.

since when have we ever paid her ample attention for her to really get through to us?

since when have we done her homework dutifully, and handed in her assignments without fail? "mrs tay assginment ar, no need do one lah" - i hear this everytime.

since when have we ever been quiet during her lesson? every few seconds she'll have to tell us to shut up, and i think if i were in her shoes i'd feel very, very sad. what is the point of standing in front of a class that doesn't even listen to you, and doesn't even respect you just because you're NICE?

yes i know that she's nice she's friendly she jokes with us a lot. in case you guys dont know, she treats us much, much better than any of her other classes. go ask the people from 3H if you dont believe me.

anyway, my point is, we dont appreciate her at all. just because she is slack with us we really shouldn't just trample all over her like a doormat, you get what i mean? and the thing is, after her outburst, we just continued talking after a few minutes like nobody's business. i quote mrs tay,"what kind of a damn rotten attitude is this?" it's like she doesn't matter at all. i mean, yah lah, she's slack, but she is still a teacher right? where is her due respect? we're nt giving her any.

the talking thing doesn't apply to only mrs tay. not-so-fierce teachers like mr soh, paul lim and mrs woon also face this problem. why can't we just pay more attention to them? and even if you dont respect the teacher and you just simply want to talk, cant you please spare a thought for those people who REALLY want to listen and get the most out of the lesson? it isn't very fair for the rest, because talking when the teacher is teaching is F-ING distracting. how would you feel if you were presenting in front of the class and nobody is talking to you?

think about it, put yourself in mrs tay's shoes. how frustrated she must feel when we dont listen to her, how disappointed she must be when we dont do the questions that she tells us to do, how hurt she must have been when she was close to tears, and we were STILL talking.

and there's also this toilet problem. how come just before paul lim's lesson, three quarters of the class go out to relieve themselves? why is it always paul lim's lesson? why dont i see the same thing happening when we have mrs ong's lesson, or lkc's lesson? why must we always bully the (i shan't use the word 'slack') not-so-strict teachers? do we have to get taught by very very fierce teachers before we can pull up our socks?

i admit that im also guilty about some of the stuff that i brought up here; im contributing to the toilet problem =x but if we all make an effort to give more respect to our teachers, maybe 3L's reputation will improve?

i dont know what to say anymore, th rest is up to you all to reflect ba, there's only so much i can say. this post is nt intended to offend yeah so please dont take it to heart; i just want you all to reflect on yourselves la yeah.

cheers.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

i dont wanna know just wna heck evrything yea dont wanna bother abt it anymore just go away leave me alone please

Thursday, September 07, 2006

im back from oph ! : D with charlie :]

we :
trekked a hell lot
slept in a smelly AND wet AND dark AND cold tent
ate maggi mee for all meals for two days
stuck by each other and conquered the summit :D
camwhored with each other :))
owned the KFC
ate milo powder and dry maggi mee
drank river water and purified swimming-pool-like water
got ourselves in life threatening situations
survived mt ophir : D

thanks (in random order) :

to xinhang for being so macho and helping us cook all the meals :DD
to qihui for being so naggy and caring for all of us and .. just being yourself xD
to jasmine for being thr with me for evrything (and i mean evrything) :)
to liyan for letting me hug you when i was cold =)
to hb for being a .. uhm a source of entertainment? o.o
to yitong for being resilient and strong despite your concussions, sore eyes and flu :)
to xinran for caring :)
to zixi and hongru for laughing at zhuyi and "pissie" whatever and waking everyone on the bus with your laughter xD
to val for being strong :)
to chiamiang for asking evryone to wake up at 3 to watch a firefly HAHA xD
to charlie girls for being thr for me and evryone else : DD
to all who helped me when climbing

i <3 charlie man, w/o them i rly cannot carry on le =) this mt ophir expedition rly provided me with a lot of experience yeah haha. and i slept for 12 hrs straight just now from 9 to 9 hees.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

im sick and i have approximately ONE day till snr spec and TWO days till mt ophir. wow. i feel so ill. goddamned bloody f-ing ill.

teachers' day today, and we(3L) bought a black forest cake to give to all of our teachers. but i couldn't find jaina tan so i ate her share =p yeahh and the concert was not bad, and mr tong played the guitar omg. i was so touched la for dont know what reason. he was just singing down there with that guitar and i was so guilty for hating him last year and for saying all those stuff about him. considering this is his REAL last year.. =(

and mr soh sang ! : D we were so supportive we shouted "mr soh, 3L loves you" i like mr soh a lot a lot why does he think that 3L hates him? we dont lehh .. we like him a lot , at least for me la haha :)

yeah after that it was chaos for a while, and the staff room was totally CROWDED. everyone squeezed in that small area and i see alr also sian haha. aft that me meixi thiam jiamin minghao and dx we went back to fuhua to meet the others haha. waited for a hell long time for the rest to come, saw mrs chay, and went to je to eat. eat alr went to play laserquest (i didn't want to at first, but i was forced to go by valerie) one game only and my score and ranking sucked =(

okay dont feel like blogging anymore. feel so unwell D: hope i get well soon. and there's flag day tmr; full no 3 ><

gdbyee~

Monday, August 28, 2006

fine, whatever.

i hate it when people think too much about what i say to them. what i say is for your own information and not for you to judge me, can?

whatever la im so bleeding tired now i want to slp le gdnite.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

this is utterly crazy. the weirdo that has been sending me the nonsensical messages at around midnight is MY OWN BROTHER . i am traumatised. i am f-ing traumatised. -.- he was the last person i'd expect to do this kind of thing la ! i thought it was some curse or something, with all the lines of chinese character OMG. and it made me SO bloody scared -.- i dont know what to say. I FEEL SO STUPID ! *cries*

i found out cos today when i went out to have steamboat i showed my brother the weird smses. it was a wonder he managed to keep a straight face, really. then he say he dunno, maybe is his best friend. then after that i went onto the car and i realised that i didn't have my brother's handphone number, and then i asked him for it. THEN HE ADMITTED THAT IT WAS HIM, and i was so shocked that i went crazy momentarily ad i began to hit him and i slapped him across the face once. boy, was that good. i think he is mental and should be sent to IMH. today he was saying,"one bird kills two birds" then i had just woken up from my nap in the car and i was like "throw one stone kill your own bird" o.o oops. never mind that is irrelevant.

ANYWAY, now that the mystery of the 'weirdo' has been solved i can talk about my CT results.

i rly lose hope in chinese le. no motivation anymore le i dont want to study for it anymore. i admit my chinese is lousy la. i never passed before lor i dont want to do it anymore la it's so tiring all my determination all gone le. can you imagine doing the kumon worksheets for the past few weeks and not jave even a slight improvement? can you imagine going for every sort of tuition there is, just to make me pass my chinese? i just can't write a decent compo, i can't tikam the chinese zong he tian kong (i got 6 out of 20), i can't do chinese compre, I CANT DO SUMMARY. just give up on me, cos i've already given up on myself.

never mind. i am going to "pa2 shan1" alr and i dont want to care about anything in the world. : ) mt ophir, here i come. im gna conquer you ! :D but before that i have yellow ribb proj and snr spec =\ i forgot everything abt mutual le, please spare me =x

Thursday, August 24, 2006

wah damn unexpected leh so many ppl say my hair v ke ai. LOL =p i thought i would get laughed at or something. heh but no la huh. keep playing with my fringe >< wah lao. haha.

i want to go on star cruise with charlie girls =] or any other country also can haha but i think parents wun allow de =( sigh. i shall stop here. gdnite :)

Sunday, August 20, 2006

i got my hair screwed up by the hairdresser in malaysia and im utterly pissed. i get a shock whenever i look at myself in the mirror. I LOOK LIKE A BLOODY GUY ! and not only do i look like a guy, which is bad enough, I LOOK LIKE A RETARDED GUY -.- HELP ME ! does anyone have cream for fast growing of hair ?!

that hairdresser cut off my fringe =(( o, my lovely and beloved fringe ! my eyes feel naked now. =x i want to slap myself for not stopping her while she was cutting my fringe into nothingness. and for that i have to blame myself because i was half-asleep and was only partly aware that she was commiting that heinous crime.

I AM SOOO PISSED =(( i should never have gone to cut my hair today. WHYYY : ( of all days ! and there's school tomorrow and im going to get laughed at =( sigh. i shall think on the bright side; my hair will grow back anyway : D

note: i can't link any of you cos when i click the [web/adress] thing below your tag i dont see anything, so you have to type your url in your tag and not in the small box for url. refer to aileens tag : )

elin: he seems to be, according to what you have told me. i shall reprimand him LOL
shaun: you're not the only one who has suggested that i use taekwondo on her.. =p
janice: heh ty for your concern : )
MIFFY: =D so you finally admit that you are MIFFY HAHAHAH !! yeah we all have to move on : )

Saturday, August 19, 2006

i have no life lor. i wasted one WHOLE saturday afternoon doing a blogskin which is ugly so im not going to use it. my gosh. im beginning to hate weekends la. nothing to do and i end up glued to the computer. and the worst thing is, there's homework =(

sigh.

im so utterly bored. at least go school still got things to do lor. makes me long for camps. camps whole day got things to do, got schedule need to follow one. at school? i just do whatever i like. I WANT TO GO FOR SSC NOW. =(

i today so many "=("s. today early in the morning pia finish my kumon, walk all the way there, took my test and im not level D2. another 10 more levels till i get to quit. =(

my mum never spare a thought for me one lor. pls la like kumon is for little kids who have all the time in the world to do the stupid worksheets but i dont, okay? they dont have cca they dont have common tests they dont have remedial whatever. i got common tests, one whole week never do my kumon acceptable what right. NO ! she force me to go for kumon because she is convinced that it works. gullible woman. at the end of the day, she is just throwing her money away.

every sunday, when everyone is still in dreamland, i wake up at seven in the (bloody) morning and prepare for piano. WHR GOT PPL PIANO LESSON IN MALAYSIA ONE. i shall not elaborate further.

every friday i have to go for taekwondo at 830, even though im exhausted after a whole day of school and cca afterward. not that i dont enjoy tkd, but she forces us to go. we have no choice but to go. just because she isn't the one who is going through all these and even goes for facial every saturday doesn't give her to right to force me to do things i dont like.

i feel as if i rly have no life lor. why am i doing things that i dont like to do? all my mum knows is to scream at us all day and wallow in self-pity that she gave birth to such "useless children". she called me a "lan4 san1 ba1" leh. always screaming about how we dont have self-control and no discipline at all.

why must i give priority to kumon, just because she wants me to? why should i go for tkd just because she wants me to? why should i go to her room to brush teeth, just because she wants me to? what right does she have? i prioritise what i like, i do whatever that i feel like doing, and she can't stop me. if i run away from home it's all her fault. no wonder my dad called her a stupid bitch. screaming so much that i can't even STAND being around her for a few minutes.

i live in a tv drama.
i'm opening my blog to everyone again :) no blog i feel so sian lor, one less thing to do everytime i go online . and there are a lot of stuff i want to rant about so who cares about who is monitoring my blog yeah?

it's one of these days when i feel totally tired (my eyes, in particular) and lethargic. i want to do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING at all. i hate cloudy saturdays; they should be banned. it's so depressing when you look outside and see no sun. saturday leh, let people feel happy a bit can or not ? =((

many things happened in the short hiatus ; i shan't bother to talk about them anymore. (i can't really remember actually, hehehe. stm is kicking in again) currently im feeling screwed up cos of the weather =x hence my new blog url haha.

things i need to do:
  • pract piano and guitar
  • study for physics test
  • do my homework
  • watch anime (haven't watched for a long time, thanks to common tests)
  • make a new blogskin image; im tired of this one
i shall proceed to do the last thing stated on the list above. will blog again soon, maybe ard evening.

Friday, August 18, 2006

HE DID NOT CLUMSILY TRIP AND FALL DOWN.

HE DID NOT "SLIP ON A PUDDLE OF WATER".

HIS FRONT TEETH IS NOT A TOPIC TO BE BROADCASTED TO THE WHOLE SCHOOL AND SHAME HIM ON THE PRETEXT OF WARNING STUDENTS NOT TO "WALK WALK WALK AND FALL DOWN" AND TO "HOLD THE RAILING".

wah lao. how would you feel if you fainted, very very unfortunately lost your front teeth, and three days later this news is broadcasted to the whole school? how would you feel if everyone around you is either laughing at you, overly concerned or paying you more attention than you feel comfortable with? or maybe come ppl just kaypo?

f la i dunno what to say. he's just a small kid lor. can like dont embarrass him or not ah. just because ncc doesn't win awards for the school and doesn't bring glory to the school doesn't mean you can mistreat us by TALKING ABOUT OUT CADET LIKE HE IS TRASH. you dont give us a room, you dont give us a PROPER place to train, you dont care about uniformed groups at all; well, fine. fine if you dont give us our own room, fine if there is no parade square. but do NOT insult and shame our cadet in front of so many people.