hello.

nobody comes to my blog anymore : (

i shouldn't blog anymore. what a waste of braincells.


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okay fine. ahah. i dont care if you all read or not im still gna blog lol.

more often than not i feel like thr's 90% of worries in my head and 10% free memory space. maybe that's why my memory sucks so much. can't help it lah. i worry too much. i worry about stuff in the near future, the future, and the future future. i should really learn to heck care. therefore im hiring anybody to help loosen me up, to make me worry about things less. haha. no wages. the payment is my company. anyone?

is it possible for somebody to be so successful in inculcating THEIR thinking and THEIR values into you, so you become somebody like him/her? is it possible to trust someone wholeheartedly and so strongly to the extent that you believe everything that person says it right, and you no longer have your own will to challenge their opinion, even though you believe it is wrong? is it possible to listen blindly to that one person, and get so caught up in their ideals that you no longer have a life of your own?

yes, it's possible.


whatislove.
idontknow.
have i become so skeptical &cynical of love that i cannot look at it like normal people do?
what is my definition of love, exactly?
have the people around me destroyed my hope in love by saying there's a time to date and there's a time not to?
and have i put my wholehearted trust in them, and has it turned into my belief?
have i, because of my worries, made things difficult for somebody?
am i being unfair to somebody?
why do i look at mushy stuff and frown, when i am more or less in the same situation?
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY FREAKING BLOODY QUESTIONS THAT I CANNOT ANSWER?

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it's currently 1:03AM. end of my wait for somebody's call.
goodnight.