i think im becoming a workaholic. not exactly one, but i like to have something to do, something to occupy myself with. everyone does. &i like to have an aim on where im going, what im doing. hence i do not like to go out and walk aimlessly. window shopping is okay. but only if i have something in mind.

im sorry lah : ( paranoia's taking over and i really dont like going out; i feel so restricted it's suffocating me. im worried about this im worried about that. im not happy. :( really im not. i can't let down my guard.

this is going to drive me nuts one day. &im sorry it's causing ya distress. but please understand.

maybe im just not suitable for you.