im sick and i have approximately ONE day till snr spec and TWO days till mt ophir. wow. i feel so ill. goddamned bloody f-ing ill.

teachers' day today, and we(3L) bought a black forest cake to give to all of our teachers. but i couldn't find jaina tan so i ate her share =p yeahh and the concert was not bad, and mr tong played the guitar omg. i was so touched la for dont know what reason. he was just singing down there with that guitar and i was so guilty for hating him last year and for saying all those stuff about him. considering this is his REAL last year.. =(

and mr soh sang ! : D we were so supportive we shouted "mr soh, 3L loves you" i like mr soh a lot a lot why does he think that 3L hates him? we dont lehh .. we like him a lot , at least for me la haha :)

yeah after that it was chaos for a while, and the staff room was totally CROWDED. everyone squeezed in that small area and i see alr also sian haha. aft that me meixi thiam jiamin minghao and dx we went back to fuhua to meet the others haha. waited for a hell long time for the rest to come, saw mrs chay, and went to je to eat. eat alr went to play laserquest (i didn't want to at first, but i was forced to go by valerie) one game only and my score and ranking sucked =(

okay dont feel like blogging anymore. feel so unwell D: hope i get well soon. and there's flag day tmr; full no 3 ><

gdbyee~

fine, whatever.

i hate it when people think too much about what i say to them. what i say is for your own information and not for you to judge me, can?

whatever la im so bleeding tired now i want to slp le gdnite.

this is utterly crazy. the weirdo that has been sending me the nonsensical messages at around midnight is MY OWN BROTHER . i am traumatised. i am f-ing traumatised. -.- he was the last person i'd expect to do this kind of thing la ! i thought it was some curse or something, with all the lines of chinese character OMG. and it made me SO bloody scared -.- i dont know what to say. I FEEL SO STUPID ! *cries*

i found out cos today when i went out to have steamboat i showed my brother the weird smses. it was a wonder he managed to keep a straight face, really. then he say he dunno, maybe is his best friend. then after that i went onto the car and i realised that i didn't have my brother's handphone number, and then i asked him for it. THEN HE ADMITTED THAT IT WAS HIM, and i was so shocked that i went crazy momentarily ad i began to hit him and i slapped him across the face once. boy, was that good. i think he is mental and should be sent to IMH. today he was saying,"one bird kills two birds" then i had just woken up from my nap in the car and i was like "throw one stone kill your own bird" o.o oops. never mind that is irrelevant.

ANYWAY, now that the mystery of the 'weirdo' has been solved i can talk about my CT results.

i rly lose hope in chinese le. no motivation anymore le i dont want to study for it anymore. i admit my chinese is lousy la. i never passed before lor i dont want to do it anymore la it's so tiring all my determination all gone le. can you imagine doing the kumon worksheets for the past few weeks and not jave even a slight improvement? can you imagine going for every sort of tuition there is, just to make me pass my chinese? i just can't write a decent compo, i can't tikam the chinese zong he tian kong (i got 6 out of 20), i can't do chinese compre, I CANT DO SUMMARY. just give up on me, cos i've already given up on myself.

never mind. i am going to "pa2 shan1" alr and i dont want to care about anything in the world. : ) mt ophir, here i come. im gna conquer you ! :D but before that i have yellow ribb proj and snr spec =\ i forgot everything abt mutual le, please spare me =x

i am so bloody disappointed.

wah damn unexpected leh so many ppl say my hair v ke ai. LOL =p i thought i would get laughed at or something. heh but no la huh. keep playing with my fringe >< wah lao. haha.

i want to go on star cruise with charlie girls =] or any other country also can haha but i think parents wun allow de =( sigh. i shall stop here. gdnite :)

i got my hair screwed up by the hairdresser in malaysia and im utterly pissed. i get a shock whenever i look at myself in the mirror. I LOOK LIKE A BLOODY GUY ! and not only do i look like a guy, which is bad enough, I LOOK LIKE A RETARDED GUY -.- HELP ME ! does anyone have cream for fast growing of hair ?!

that hairdresser cut off my fringe =(( o, my lovely and beloved fringe ! my eyes feel naked now. =x i want to slap myself for not stopping her while she was cutting my fringe into nothingness. and for that i have to blame myself because i was half-asleep and was only partly aware that she was commiting that heinous crime.

I AM SOOO PISSED =(( i should never have gone to cut my hair today. WHYYY : ( of all days ! and there's school tomorrow and im going to get laughed at =( sigh. i shall think on the bright side; my hair will grow back anyway : D

note: i can't link any of you cos when i click the [web/adress] thing below your tag i dont see anything, so you have to type your url in your tag and not in the small box for url. refer to aileens tag : )

elin: he seems to be, according to what you have told me. i shall reprimand him LOL
shaun: you're not the only one who has suggested that i use taekwondo on her.. =p
janice: heh ty for your concern : )
MIFFY: =D so you finally admit that you are MIFFY HAHAHAH !! yeah we all have to move on : )

i have no life lor. i wasted one WHOLE saturday afternoon doing a blogskin which is ugly so im not going to use it. my gosh. im beginning to hate weekends la. nothing to do and i end up glued to the computer. and the worst thing is, there's homework =(

sigh.

im so utterly bored. at least go school still got things to do lor. makes me long for camps. camps whole day got things to do, got schedule need to follow one. at school? i just do whatever i like. I WANT TO GO FOR SSC NOW. =(

i today so many "=("s. today early in the morning pia finish my kumon, walk all the way there, took my test and im not level D2. another 10 more levels till i get to quit. =(

my mum never spare a thought for me one lor. pls la like kumon is for little kids who have all the time in the world to do the stupid worksheets but i dont, okay? they dont have cca they dont have common tests they dont have remedial whatever. i got common tests, one whole week never do my kumon acceptable what right. NO ! she force me to go for kumon because she is convinced that it works. gullible woman. at the end of the day, she is just throwing her money away.

every sunday, when everyone is still in dreamland, i wake up at seven in the (bloody) morning and prepare for piano. WHR GOT PPL PIANO LESSON IN MALAYSIA ONE. i shall not elaborate further.

every friday i have to go for taekwondo at 830, even though im exhausted after a whole day of school and cca afterward. not that i dont enjoy tkd, but she forces us to go. we have no choice but to go. just because she isn't the one who is going through all these and even goes for facial every saturday doesn't give her to right to force me to do things i dont like.

i feel as if i rly have no life lor. why am i doing things that i dont like to do? all my mum knows is to scream at us all day and wallow in self-pity that she gave birth to such "useless children". she called me a "lan4 san1 ba1" leh. always screaming about how we dont have self-control and no discipline at all.

why must i give priority to kumon, just because she wants me to? why should i go for tkd just because she wants me to? why should i go to her room to brush teeth, just because she wants me to? what right does she have? i prioritise what i like, i do whatever that i feel like doing, and she can't stop me. if i run away from home it's all her fault. no wonder my dad called her a stupid bitch. screaming so much that i can't even STAND being around her for a few minutes.

i live in a tv drama.

i'm opening my blog to everyone again :) no blog i feel so sian lor, one less thing to do everytime i go online . and there are a lot of stuff i want to rant about so who cares about who is monitoring my blog yeah?

it's one of these days when i feel totally tired (my eyes, in particular) and lethargic. i want to do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING at all. i hate cloudy saturdays; they should be banned. it's so depressing when you look outside and see no sun. saturday leh, let people feel happy a bit can or not ? =((

many things happened in the short hiatus ; i shan't bother to talk about them anymore. (i can't really remember actually, hehehe. stm is kicking in again) currently im feeling screwed up cos of the weather =x hence my new blog url haha.

things i need to do:

• pract piano and guitar
• study for physics test
• do my homework
• watch anime (haven't watched for a long time, thanks to common tests)
• make a new blogskin image; im tired of this one

i shall proceed to do the last thing stated on the list above. will blog again soon, maybe ard evening.

HE DID NOT CLUMSILY TRIP AND FALL DOWN.

HE DID NOT "SLIP ON A PUDDLE OF WATER".

HIS FRONT TEETH IS NOT A TOPIC TO BE BROADCASTED TO THE WHOLE SCHOOL AND SHAME HIM ON THE PRETEXT OF WARNING STUDENTS NOT TO "WALK WALK WALK AND FALL DOWN" AND TO "HOLD THE RAILING".

wah lao. how would you feel if you fainted, very very unfortunately lost your front teeth, and three days later this news is broadcasted to the whole school? how would you feel if everyone around you is either laughing at you, overly concerned or paying you more attention than you feel comfortable with? or maybe come ppl just kaypo?

f la i dunno what to say. he's just a small kid lor. can like dont embarrass him or not ah. just because ncc doesn't win awards for the school and doesn't bring glory to the school doesn't mean you can mistreat us by TALKING ABOUT OUT CADET LIKE HE IS TRASH. you dont give us a room, you dont give us a PROPER place to train, you dont care about uniformed groups at all; well, fine. fine if you dont give us our own room, fine if there is no parade square. but do NOT insult and shame our cadet in front of so many people.