Yes, and today's a maths paper officially marks the end of the midyears, which makes me very, very happy. You dont know how happy it makes me. You dont know how happy I will be when I get back my papers, all with red crosses and zero upon whatever number. [:

Okay anyway after the a maths paper I went to the Malaysian Hi Com to make my passport, which lasted till 1245 or something, then went home to speed change and then rushed off to ice skate woot : D

I long long long time never ice skate le, and I think I was irritating people by exclaiming,"I dont know how to ice skate liao!" ahahaha. It was damn shiok and damn cool when you're going real fast and your face is like wah. xD And my feet cramped up like three times cos this time I wasn't occupied with teaching anyone so I just skated for three hours straight all by myself except occasionally when I was holding hands with Elin or Yuge or Liyan. And I had cup noodles and my favourite ice milo float ! : D I'm a happy girl whee ~ poor Huiyi couldn't go.. =x She had band =( let's all observe a minute of silence for her LOL =x

After which me, Wanleng, Chrislyn and Marian went to take neos = ] turned out rly spastic cos we planned to pose like drama queens and stuff, but the machine was too fast and we didn't have time to think so yeah HAHA. Then we went to the arcade where me and Wanleng tried out the DDR machine and OHMYGOD I'm like so addicted to that la. I kept getting mixed up and making a big fuss and acting like a bimbo -_- Wanleng is pro lah, she everytime get higher grade than me.

Then after that we went to the library, just the four of us and we sat down in a cosy corner and got comfy and then started a gossip session xD LOL I very long never gossip liao, now got new stuff le : D

After that went home got changed (again) and went for taekwondo. I was like half dead the whole time. The same old stuff again and black belts had to stay back as usual. Knife sparring and we could go home.

I'm addicted to DDR I'm going tomorrow =) whee ~ I'm tired but happy heh : D


shereen: hellos (:
huiyi: LOL okay it was beixin heh. yeah it was about HER =x
day: you're a silly girl, dunno how to use your scanner HAHA xD
jasmine: I WANT TO SEE YOUR HAIR !
beixin: lol yeah you're spongebob HAHA
junqi: thankyou you ! but it was just a short para i made up lah : D

Ellie was a shy girl.

Really, she was. It's very obviously plastered over her face, her expression pleading, as if to say,"Please dont mess with me, I'm too fragile to take it" just like a library book. When you said "Hi" to her she would answer back in this really soft voice, barely heard even when your surroundings are relatively quiet. She was the low-profile type, and needless to say no one one bothered to talk about her, except for an occasional inquiry to her classmate,"Who is that girl?". She didn't mind, really. She disliked people to talk about her.

Yeah okay. I was just thinking that a character like that .. what if she committed suicide one day and then everyone noticed her for the first time and pointed at her and talked about her. Then wont her soul rest in peace? =x lol

=)

Tomorrow's the last paper ! WHEE =) Which is A Maths but I really can't be bothered anymore.

Today's physics was average. The MCQ was damn hard la, and the paper 2 wasn't any better. Lit was o.O cos they gave us the extract of Dr and Mrs Stockmann quarreling in the last scene and asked us how Miller made it dramatic and I just came up with a load of crap, and the second part I wrote crap as well. For Section B I did (b) but seems like no one did the same as me except for Eunice and Zhi Xin can't remember.

After that me the platy, Huiyi the Hello kitty/Patrick, Junqi the Miffy, Leena the Gary, Dayanna the Spongebob and Beixin the... the ... YES TWEETY ! went to JEC to eat ahaha. I was broke >< I have no money till Saturday. Anyway we went to gossip about a certain someone, and then we took some very spastic neoprints LOL ! And Dayanna has a scanner but she refuses to learn how to use it HAHA.

I'm so tired and there's still chinese tuition later URGH.


it's hard to believe once you've been lied to again and again
sorry girlfriend
can't trust you anymore

I promise myself that I will not have any more stress or panic attacks anymore. For my own good and for me myself only. (:

Yeah I think I've been screwing up all my papers so far; I really have no confidence in any one of them, but well who gives a damn anyway. I dont.

There's physics AND lit tomorrow and I think I'm just gonna do the physics TYS and leave my lit to die. I'm always failing lit anyway, proud achiever of 2 D's for both the essays Woon gave us. Yay =]

I dont know why I'm in such a good mood leh, later I good mood now then after the exams on Friday I no feeling liao. o.O okay what crap am I talking. ._.

omg

Omg I cant fucking concentrate I think I'm gonna blow up now. Right now.

*explodes*

Bye everyone =(

I have just been alerted to the unfortunate and very sad fact that the very delicious apple pies I binge on from Macdonalds' are actually FATTENING : (

From now on I shan't eat so many already, lest I get fat.

Oh yes, yesterday Mr Lee was damn funny la, he was trying to explain percentage perfection to all of us and gave us an example:

"Let's say you rate your boyfriend.."

Me and Wanleng heard it as RAPE your boyfriend, and I was like laughing so damn hard I think I looked like a nutcase.

Today's chinese compo was totally screwed up; firstly I thought the dian4 tai1 was actually TELEVISION, and wrote a hell lot of crap about how the actors were fake when acting, tasteless clothes and boring storyline. -.- I am going to fail my compo, I'm sure of it.

After the chinese exam we went around telling everyone to jiayou for geog paper and also informing them we didn't take geog LOL ! Went to Holland V with Wanleng Zhixin and Beixin, then to Clementi. Wanleng went to thread her eyebrows and it was really very scary la, the part where she plucked off the hair was red and swollen and I think it's bloody painful so I'm not gonna try that in the near future.

Chrislyn Stella Dayanna Huimin Chyi Wei joined us soon and we went around, just walking. Then we went home!

I spent a lot on food ='( sobs. I need someone to remind me to not eat so much or I'm really going to grow fat la ><+

goodluck to all for midyears ! now is mugging time so you people better go studystudystudy jiayou for all papers yeah ? =]

ONE APPLE PIE A DAY KEEPS THE DOCTOR AWAY : D

I went without my apple pie today and ended up craving for it even more. Ugh.

Anyway today was the english paper thing, and I wrote a highly boring composition about the Sec 3 adventure camp .

Tomorrow is chinese paper 1 and I'm freaking out in a nice way, as in I'm just worrying about whether I can write anything that makes sense tomorrow on my paper and not breaking down or anything. Never mind, I shall have more confidence in myself and tell myself I CAN DO IT ! =)

I made a pact with myself not to disturb the geog students so I didn't but I wound up being quite lonely. Poor geog students. But I'm gonna have my lit paper together with physics the next time, so it isn't going to be any better.

hi derek, hi CHUN CHEE ( LOL ! ), hi hannah, hi stella, hi beixin =)

TODAY IS BIMBO DAY

Today is BIMBO DAY ! LMAO ! I don't know why I declared today as 'Bimbo Day' but I just did. HAHA ! I sound really like a bimbo now, with no brains whatsoever, but WHATEVER ! xD

Anyway there was physics on the morning and basically just went through the midyear paper that llm forced us to do. It feels so nice to have Mr Soh back, not the VERY VERY NICE teacher that stormed into our class not long ago.

Assembly quite okay la, I think Natalie is cute though heh. Then was PUB's lesson and it was more interesting than usual cos she gave out this handout that showcased a very boring compo VS a much better one and the examiners thoughts and everyone was reading away.

Okay here comes the very interesting part !! LMAO ! Me and some other Limelighters went to the mac near our school and ate lunch. And we being very boliao people we started playing Truth or Dare. Then I kena with Dayanna and Chrislyn la, so we all set off to do our dares.

Chrislyn had to approach this guy and ask for his number, then delete it in front of him wth ! She succeeded HAHAHA . She's an ultimate snubber ! LMAO.

Next was Dayanna, who got snubbed instead of being the snubber 0.O She asked like dunno how many guys and they all refused wth. She even asked this lau ah pek lah -_-

Then my turn la, I was supposed to shout," Hey people I wanna play soccer" at a group of guys that was playing soccer in the tennis court, and exclaim that Song Bo Yuan is "Ooh, SEXY ! " -.- HAHA . But it was damn funny la. So yeah.

My 3Limelighters rock =D

I'm exhausted. I just slept from 8+ to 10 and woke up to the racket my mum was making, telling me to go to her room to brush my teeth.

2.4 was ..very wasted la, my timing was 14:21 and for A the timing is 14:20 -_- what the hell is wrong with me ? One more seond only .. I'm going to go running with Ivan.

Anyway after that Huiyi and Beixin had to run the 2.4 all alone by themselves so I ran with huiyi from her second round all the way to the end, so counted as I ran 2.4km + 2.0km = 4.4km continuously leh ! Even longer than the cross country distance. So proud of myself.

But now I think I'm suffering from more side effects than the other people nia, I'm aching like hell, for one. Argh !

Okay back to today's lessons. I fell asleep during chinese because I was so tired and secondly my jacket was so comfortable and I just drifted off. Shiok, I tell you. Sleep is shiok, anyway. The rest of the lessons was a blur I can't remember anything I was too tired. But llm didn't come in today, much to our relief.

After school we had to stay back for chemistry supplementary, which Wei Quan skipped because Xian Wen/Yenchai/some stupid bastard made him cry and he left the classroom in tears and Zhixin, Beixin, and me couldn't stop him ; we were too shocked.

Mr Lee came in 15 minutes late and let us watch a video, make targets and discussed chemical bonding. Then I asked him this question that stumped him for a very long time and eventually he gave up, still not answering my question but I think my question is still valid ! What if they give you two elements then the valence electrons are 5 and 4 then how the hell do you draw the dot and cross diagram for THAT ? Anyone knows ? Please tag my tagboard or tell me the answer !

It was raining heavily by the time he ended the lesson and I was reduced to sitting at the canteen waiting for the rain to stop with Jia Hui and eating lor mai kai ._. Then when Huiyi came down I went home with her and the ultra cute Geraldine xD They very poor thing, the band top is white and they go in the rain it became transparent HAHA . Then Huiyi was damn scared of Geraldine ogling at her so she kept her dust cover to her chest HAHAH .

I think Geraldine is cuter than Huiyi, those who agree please raise your hands. = ]

We ate, gossiped and did a bit of revision at JE Mac and then we went home.

Tomorrow is the slackest day of the week, but I really have no mood to wake up in the morning.

NAPFA =S

Today me, Huiyi, Junqi and Jiahui had our 5 items mainly cos we missed our slot with the class last week. it was pretty okay except for the fact that I can't do inclined pullups, which is very sucky, but I still got 23 for my five items though. 2.4 is tomorrow, and I'm having knots in my tummy ><

I feeling very pressurized to maintain my history mark standard leh. It's like everytime come back the marks I also shocked at myself, then I scared midyears cannot perform then die liao. My physics is hopeless as usual so I shall just hope for a pass la. And um. Recently my english has been deteriorating leh. The whatever white water rafting compre was a killer la, only got 27. I want to jump off a building or something.

I swear, after midyears I'm gonna go like, totally wild. Suntanning at Sentosa/shopping/ice-skating, anyone ? : D

NEW BLOGSKIN ! HAPPY OR NOT ? =)

" Double Date " ._.

Me, Darren, Xianghui and Zixi went on the ' double date ' today ! HAHA . At Westmall.

Actually nothing much lah, just do homework and study a bit. And Darren was damn patient with me ! Thanks hor. I know I'm a bad student =x

Until about 4 o clock we studied and then we went to JP cos it was raining very heavily and there was no shelter from Westmall mac to Westmall ._. JP so nothing to walk one, but we went there anyway.

Went to the arcade for two times and I kept scaring myself by watching people play House of the Dead. And it's quite hard to walk around la, girls like to window shop guys dont. After that we walked around for a while then ate, and walked around somemore, and Darren and Zixi went home first. Me and xhui go JEC sit down and talk cock. Then went home. Heh I like talking cock =]

Yeah I accomplshed quite a lot today, though we only studied for like three hours but I completed like, my chem ws and yeah. A bit of physics but I stopped halfway cos I came to a point where I see the paper I also bad mood liao so yeah . Sian. My physics is hopeless liao..

A-hem

I swear I'm becoming more hard of hearing nowdays you know. Mr Lee lah, all his fault, everytime speak so loudly and I keep forgetting to bring my earplugs. And no, I didn't make myself deaf just by talking ; my voice loud but not THAT loud lah okay.

This post shall end abruptly here for I need my beauty sleep.

Smoking in toilets

UGH . As if smokers in general aren't disgusting enough one had the atrocity to smoke in a freaking TOILET, rendering the rest of the female population helpless as they try to hold their breath, trying not to take in the gross smoke smell. That, is well, gross. As if it's not enough that they're not polluting the fresh air around themselves and us too, they have to make us suffer even when we need to relieve ourselves ! $^%#$^ HOW FAIR IS THAT .

And I can't stand those stupid people who alight at JE Interchange, happily go through the barrier thingy, joyfully go down the escalator, gladly leave the MRT station, and THEN GLEEFULLY START SMOKING. It's SO wrong I dont know where to begin. Firstly, smokers ought to be shot so they shouldn't be walking around like that. Secondly, it's polluting the fresh morning air. Thirdly, they're exposing us innocent students (smoker haters) to the effects of second hand smoke. and fourthly, smokers ought to be shot.

Aiya just ban smoking la -_-

Sleep

I love chatting late into the night and gossiping about people. The downside is that the next day I'll find my eyebags visibly deeper and darker than before. ><

I thought a lot today. I thought about school, I thought about homework, I thought about ncc, I thought about my limelighters and almost everything. Sounds like RRI, Review, reflect and improve o.O

Anyway. One of the things I thought about was : Is life really that short ?

Come to think of it, you have 80 years or perhaps even more to enjoy life. How come people still say that life is short when it isn't? The only people who say that life is short are those who dont live life to the fullest. Sure, time flies very quickly but in the end it just boils down to how you manage your time, that's all.

What do you think?

And also, I think I had a pretty pathetic childhood.

You see, I was never made to feel special and I never felt special either. No one told me that I was a unique individual or that I actually made a difference to those around me. I just lived in my own cardboard box (my set of beliefs) and that was it. I always thought of myself as a normal primary school girl who was average and fit in with the crowd. The type of girl no one who give a second look. I never felt that I had any abilities, or felt that I was good at anything in particular. I was never given the chance to be proud of a piece of artwork that I did, or praised by my friends or teachers for a job well done. I just lived my life as a ordinary primary school girl, unable to stand out or make a difference. Kind of pathetic isn't it? I just felt too .. ordinary. Too average.

I thought it was normal to be stick thin. I thought everybody was stick thin. I thought it was okay to look like.. me. I thought everyone looked the same. I never thought I had a good figure. I thought everyone had one.

I'm still reeling from the after effects, though. I was trained to be a follower. I still remember the time I got sacked as the class monitor because I was incompetent. It was quite a huge blow. I remember thinking : Am I really that bad? Are others really better than me?

My form teacher told me to look for her before class, and we were in the canteen; me holding a pathetic pot of potted plant, and her talking sense into me because I think she could see that I was quite disappointed. All the while she was talking to me I was swimming in a pool of self doubt.

When I graduated from my primary school, you can be sure that I took nothing away, except maybe a few fond memories. I remember I liked the canteen food. -.-

But it's okay, cos I feel special now :)

I'm tired ; too tired

Actually my first notion when I first signed into Blogger was to wallow in self pity and complain about my life in this entry, but well.

Activity yesterday was okay, we actually took our own PT for the.. um considered first time. The previous one we just did the warm-ups; this time we could do the jumping jacks etc too. Um well it was average lah, first time mah then got a lot of mistakes but never mind, charlie girls are powderful so we can do it better the next time ! =D

And um yeah, I know we all have mixed feelings about taking over. It's a bit too soon and we're not really ready for it yeah? It's always nice to be the juniors and if anything happens the seniors are the ones to make the decisions and all. Then if we take over we're gonna be the ones taking care of the juniors and whatever. I dont think I'm making any sense right now but never mind.

Yeah.. Well. I think it's just a matter of time before we take over lah, sooner or later oso have to one, dont think too much into it lah. We can do it one yeah?

maybe, maybe not

EEW

You know, the more I look at you, the more I think you're disgusting and the more I hate you. I think you're seriously pathetic, like, absolutely utterly totally ultra gross. And stop tryin' to be somebody you're not cos it just doesn't fit. You're a circle. A round and nice circle with no sides. But the personality that you're forcing yourself to fit into is a square. A four sided shape that has equal sides . It just doesn't fit. Really. Cant see why you have to change so drastically.

nevermind. i miss camp. and why is everybody going so mad over Ellis? O.o I know he's ultra pretty lah but wa seh, no need so siao over him right ? I very dudiao leh.

My history is left undone yet again.. Think I'm going to chiong it tomorrow or something it's already so late. I need my sleep lor, or I'll like just die tomorrow.

there's no point anymore

CAMP =D

Oh, god, I think I need a manicure
The sun, I swear, is scorching up my gorgeous hair
Red blue yellow green
What's the colour of my teeth
I dont know, I dont care
How should I do my hair
Twenty five, sixty four
I dont care what stupid score
Go, go, fight, fight
Oof, I hope my hair is alright

I'm back from camp ! IM BACK FROM CAMP ! I. AM. BACK. FROM. CAMP =DD

Several points I would like to point out :
1) I miss the instructors and the camp already.
2) I'm sunburnt and when my mum saw me she almost couldn't recognise me.
3) I'm having muscle ache all over, thanks to belaying and kayaking.
4) I swear a sore throat is coming up. I just know it.
5) After five days of no computer my fingers no longer know how to type anymore!!
6) I miss the instructors and the camp already. ( Have I said this before? )

And anyway, since Darren has taken the trouble to post about the camp please go to his blog to read about what happened. I'm too tired to post anything already ! =x My opinions about the camp are still here though =)

I think the camp taught me a lot of things and seriously, they are lessons that cannot, I repeat, cannot be learnt in a classroom.

Uni B rocks okay ! Except HANNAH cos she says I'm cranky LMAO ! Eh joking only ah hahaha. My group very fun and cooperative, except they were a bit sian lah, but I guess it's also part of the SLs' fault cos we didn't succeed in making them high. Never mind lah, at least the activities v fun right xD

AIRASIA ! The camp was located at Changi, so everytime you'll get to see big planes =O wow. Everytime we'll have a mini guessing game of which airline the plane was from, and most of the time is was SIA lah, but I still stubbornly stuck to AirAsia cos it's so red spicy hot xD

I learnt that sometimes you just gotta be patient with your group members whenever they take their time or refuse to listen to you. The more you shout at them the more they'll rebel and it wouldnt work, would it? Mmm ya.

Perseverance.. Didn't learn much of that cos everyday it was raining WTF ? My group was DEPRIVED of the chance to do abseiling and zipline, oh, how terrible! I hate the rain lor, rain liao then we have to do under the dorms and talk cock and most of the time the group members all very sian one. Stupid sia.

Teamwork is another lesson I learnt ; As an individual, you can't achieve many things then you want to achieve, but as a group you can succeed. And moral support ! Yes, moral support is very important. It motivates you to carry on when you are on the verge of giving up and encourages you to just do it .

I miss the camp and all the ultra friendly instructors =( It's quite sad isn't it, spending five memorable days together and then saying goodbye. I miss everyone =(

I shall end my entry with this ; It's something Razi taught us and it's basically for poking fun at Po, my instructor.

I hate Po,
Po hates me,
Lets go out and kill Dipsy,
With a gunshot bang and Dipsy on the floor,
Sorry Lala, Dipsy's gone =)

I wonder where Tinky-Winky went, but whatever.