hello :)

im in no mood to blog.

hello aliens from outer space.

blogger has just morphed into somthing scary, or is it just me? o.o everything looks very... vertical.

illiteration leh. lol.

crap.

went w plt mates to cine on wed to watch spidey. was damn good lah. wah sehh. i cried k. rly v sad lor esp de harry osborne part. sehh. they say i cry damn loud lor whr got -.- its untrue okay. haha. anyw there's nothing wrong w crying. :] crying is emotional release for the soul. heh.

oh and im not sure whether you guys have noticed: there is NO toilet paper in the female toilets in river valley high school. esp towards the end of the week.

WTH? no toilet paper? eh i tell you hor. toilet paper is one of the most essential things in life okay. i mean it's the only thing you can clean your ass w rite. paper meh. v uncomfortable leh. and toilet w/o toilet paper is like chicken rice w/o chicken. if you get what i mean.

yeah so anyway there is no toilet paper, and we heard from the aunty that it's because the school wants to cut costs and to punish us for throwing wet toilet paper up on de ceiling -.- fyi girls go toilet is just, go toilet lor. toiler paper v fun to play w meh -.- lame leh. we're gg to go on strike soon hor. better give us our toilet paper. :@

THIS IS THE 200TH POST ON MY BLOG. this blog i mean. previous blog had 242 entries.

let's celebrate!

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by studying -.-

wish yitong and xinran and alan a happy birthday :) i feel so guilty for forgetting; sorry darlings. :x

there's a weekend till the killer papers really start(a maths hist and phy); so it's mugging weekend again i guess. with jiahui supposedly.

i will watch bleach. or rather watch youtube all day long.
i will go ice skating.
i will bake cakes.
i will relax and slack around like a sloth.
i will pig out till my intestines fall out from over-exertion.
i will talk on the phone all day.
i will go for taekwondo lessons regularly.

i will! after mids -.-

tata.

ugh.

i think im becoming a tad bit pedantic about grammar and vocab. it's like i can't read a sentence without noticing the jarring grammatical errors, and i'm thinking, what the heck is wrong with me? it's like this obsession with the precision of the english language is robbing me of the joy i get from reading.

cannot. stand. bad. english.

chem and lit paper today. lit and maths tmr. jiayou sec4s, we're alr halfway through. just need to pia for the rest then can relax alr. im like so going iceskating. seriously.

goodbye. off to sparknotes to read about the joy luck club.

hello.

random stuff.

i changed my nick to 'moody mondays' last monday. and today im online, and realised i didn't have to change my nick cos like, duh, it's monday. ahah so it's like been a week since i've come online. wow.

adults who stare are rude.

people who stare, in general, are rude.

end random stuff.

me and junqi have concluded that we're under tremendous stress. lol. we like sort of went nuts at the grandstand today. ahaha.

WAHLAU. come out ASEAN leh. i never study ASEAN AT ALL leh. wahlau.

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after exams im gna take a real nice breather. bake some cakes or something. haha.

going swimming tmr :D then huiyi leng leena &junqi coming over whee :D gtg bye~

people who are nice enough not to retaliate upon being thrown at with hurtful comments usually get picked on the most. and i think that i ought to learn how to stand up for myself. not that i have low self esteem, but when caught in situations like this i dont retaliate, not because i'm unable to, but because i dont want to. and i dont think people around me should take that for granted.

on a lighter note i'm currently uploading my photos from new zealand (yes, i know im very, very late) and will be posting them up in the near future.

i keep typing and deleting what i want to say. this is getting quite irritating.

argh.

i conclude that i am having writer's block and will hereby end my entry till the words come to me. till then, let the pictures speak :)

im disgusted at humanity. maybe that's why i never really understood what goes on in the minds of murderers as they make their kill.

all this while, i've had an unwavering trust in the public, in those adults that always criticise and look down on us young people. i believed them to be good and upright people who would never think of committing crimes.i believed they would return anything lost immediately to the authorities, knowing the worry &grief the owner must be going through.

but no.

i've been through this situation four times, including this time. the first time was during the part b bbq, when i lost my wallet with all the money inside. two hundred bucks. i lodged a police report, but no one gave it back. it was my first time, and utterly traumatising because i lost so much money. the second time was when my handphone dropped out of my pocket and onto the bus. i reported it to the bus interchange people, but i never saw it again. the third time was horribly unexpected. the shitbag actually stole my handphone from my bag in school. so much for security. and now this:




those circled in red, obviously, speak of great losses and trouble that i will now have to go through to replace them.

this is ridiculous. logically speaking, i shouldn't be surprised; haven't i had my share of losing items there were never "found"? but it just shows the depth of my trust.

perhaps im too naive. human beings are just selfish creatures who are so ridden with flaws that i am ashamed to be walking on this earth with them. some, actually.

students crime rate high, adult crime rate not high meh? please lah, what can we do lor. not as if we got murder ppl right. ADULTS got leh.

students litter, adults dont litter meh? everytime see those uncles walk walk walk then spit into the grass. ugh. i think students are more civilised than that.

as if adults care for the environment. everyday go ntuc see aunties and supposedly MATURE adults carrying plastic bags what. they also never use cloth bags. then ozone layer depleting, there's global warming, then come and blame us students -.- like we shop at ntuc like that. even if we dunno about the environment is also the supposedly mature adults teach one what. still criticise us. i mean, come on, this type of thing also wanna complain.

(aiya but what you expect, fann wong's hair ugly they also complain.)

why cannot just close one eye and be polite and walk off? stupid adults.

everytime got problem is secondary sch students fault. then they blame it on us going through teenage adolescence years. yah, and those adults out there with superb complaining skills never go through these years before leh! never leh!

every single time the newspapers come in on wednesday, i open the ZBnow section with a mixture of apprehension, excitement and skepticism. and as expected i feel utterly insulted before the supposedly mature adults are accusing us of things that they themselves are partially at fault for and they seem to be refusing to bear any kind of responsibility.

what are they going to talk about next? students are not doing enough to save the dying kids in africa? -.-

whatever. need to play piano. goodbye.

im so pissed la right my brother is a bitch -.-

like i haven't touched the computer in AGES, and he's like, "you haven't played the piano", "did i say you could play the computer" and all sorts of bullshit. whatever man -.-

anyw i dont like some teachers. they scold ppl scold damn loud until everyone can hear, which causes the student to feel intense humiliation. chi1 bao3 mei2 shi4 zuo4 go &anyhow kaypo check uniform check socks like -.- man, have you nothing better to do than to terrorize students -.-

unreasonable.

yeah the past two days i've been a very good girl :] lol.

my annoyance at adults in general increases by the day; they keep telling us not to do this and that, although they themselves do the same, and we get punished just because they're older. i mean come on -.- when anything happens, it's bound to be our fault.

oh whatever. some adults are nice. esp mr ang mia lee :]

out of sight, out of mind. i finally understand leh! despite having such a "pretty" fringe, as long as i dont see it, i dont freak out! lol. and i think my hair is nice okay &definitely not a "major screw up". anyw still student what, hair so nice like supermodel for what. wait grow up lah, got money to style your hair in totally absurd ways also nobody care. :)

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reading "the crow", the third book of pellinor. it's this fantasy series &i strongly recommend it, although it gets boring at times where the author describes maerad's endless journeys.

i've just realised this blogpost is utterly random. i presume this is due to the fact that i haven't blogged in ages and there's so much i wanna say.

my 3rd aunt's baby has come into the world :D another cousin :) going to see it now, yay. bye people. may never blog again =O

nah just joking.

get well soon, eye-infection-due-to-porno boy :)

oh i just rmbed that i didn't blog about dance dance haha. okay basically is this inter-school dance competition at mgs &yuli wanted us to go so yea we bought the tix :) it was on saturday.

okay it was good cos yuli organised it :D imagine organising such a BIG event! wow man. and she's the organising chairperson can. for a moment i was so proud of yuli so capable :) she even went on stage to speak! cool.

yeah okay so i met bryan at the bus stop &boarded 66. then jevon came up our bus &i was like saying "eh? how come so coincidental." then bryan was like "yea duh we coordinated it" -.- wahlau cheat my feelings.

then we went to meet the lost val LOL. yeah and we were late so we were like running. haha. okay only i was running. val refused to run -.-

the show was okay lah. the innocent boys vvvv cool. haha. the rest just okay lor. i dont rly know how to appreciate dance lah. yeah. but oh well. had qt a good time. :]

today had 2.4. quite satisfied with my timing la. yah lor.

im bored.
and im in
no mood
to blog.

"meet the robinsons" is good :D go watch it it's cool. loved the plot. shall not post anymore spoilers but it's nice really :D

dunno why some ppl dont like to watch cartoon movies, saying that it's a waste of money. i disagree leh. no ppl acting in it, means no good meh? means story cannot be good meh? means must be bad movie meh? i think some cartoon movies even nicer than movies with real people acting in it de lor. meet the robinsons is one example :]

i know, i know, i haven't been updating. at all. since eons ago. im too busy lah. today is sunday so i get a breather but IT'S MONDAY TOMORROW OMG OMG *pulls hair and runs around in circles* omg it's monday. i HATE mondays -.-

there's NAPFA test &physics test coming up, and guess what, bingo, they're both on thursday -.- &im like either going to fail my NAPFA, or beg the teacher for another chance at inclined pull-ups. i can't do one inclined pull up to save my life.

okay maybe that was a little exaggerated. but you get what i mean.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mT6EVIIcLLo - link to meet the robinsons soundtrack, rob thomas - little wonders. go listen i love it :D

is there any homework? :x

it was a maj screw up. :(

proposals not printed in time; chaos in nc room; talk with TO; camp started late.

ppl running around like headless chickens; dunno what to do; lots of calling; fall behind schedule like mad; things not done; ppl hate _&_.

ppl at the top dunno what to do next; ppl below dunno what to do is a result; nothing much done; ppl hate _&_.

food was a problem; not enough solid fuel and NO matches for field cooking; mad running around like headless chickens; no choice cadets have to starve; ate bread like siao for supper; ppl hate _&_.

ug camp consent form end time changed to 2 pm; cadets never listen; tell their parents come at 1215 anyway; parents come and kajiao kajiao say why we never let their children off punctually; TO have to cancel POP; no internal promotion; fucked up shit; ppl hate _&_.

ppl at the top BLUR, totally BLUR; never instruct ppl below what to do and how to mark for tests; ppl dunno how to teach &mark juniors; juniors all FAIL; have to do retest during normal activity; ppl hate _&_.

NO POP; no glory for best cadets; no zhuai3 ceremony to witness &to march in; parents think ncc is crap; ppl hate _&_.

NO INTERNAL PROMOTION; specialists are pissed as they initially looked forward to it; low morale; ppl hate _&_.

ppl who are slackers &are anti-almost-everything-in-the-world never do anything; never contribute; short of USEFUL manpower; ppl hate _&_.

_ and _ you all can guess who lah huh. wont say.

dont understand why some ppl must always dig out previous misdeeds to broadcast to everyone at the most inappropriate time when all of us are sick and tired and the last thing we wanna hear is that person's complaining about us. it's the march camp, it's bleeding 1 am in the fucking morning, all of us just want to go to sleep thank you very much. what about the chairs and the pellets, well fuck that you can tell me about that tomorrow morning when im in the right frame of mind to talk to you.

and hello. no pop means no pop ar. what's the meaning of this. newsflash, pop for our march camp is damn impt the glory the zhuai-ness the HONOUR. just because some parents complain to you to please hand over their kids doesn't mean you can't defend us &tell them there's something more important to do that will let your kids have a sense of accomplishment for having campleted the camp, which is far better than getting your precious babies back for two hours early. i know you miss your little darlings but come ON.

why 'one for all all for one motto' should be kept.
1) because it is the motto of OUR ncc unit and if your darling babies can't take it fine get them outta ncc and outta my sight thank you very much we dont want sissies and fragile poopies anyway.

2) because standard cannot be compromised by the changing of times &complaints by some ignorant parents. simple as that.

3) because all cadets in the ncc abide by this motto, and if you want to form an opposition party, be prepared to face some 160+ very angry people on the other side.

4) because we will not NOT abide by this motto just because you complained; what does that show of us? that we're cowards who dont have our own stand. that we are easily wavered by ill-informed outsiders who do not know a single thing and yet have the cheek to question our credibility. and if for fleeting moment you actually thought that you could abolish our motto by simply complaining that it's "pervasive", well let me tell you that's not gna work. it's in us. and you can't take it outta us.

to my school, lemme give you some advice. if you actually started caring about us students, listening more to us, not supressing us just so you could achieve your own aims, maybe we might actually be happier. think of our feelings, school. we dont exactly like year 123 but SEC 4. ostracize us until like that. you think we happy meh.

to my TO, instead of forcing us to see YOUR pov, why not have a look through ours. you dont understand our resentment, our frustration. you just do as you like and restrict us. you think we're happy?

no corporal punishment just because parents are around. why not just heck the parents and let them complain as they wish? parents are around; so FUCKING what? STOP TRYING TO MAKE FUCKING PARENTS HAPPY LAH, WAHLAU. THEY VERY BIG MEH? THEY CAN SACK YOU MEH?! not as if they can do anything about it right. ncc IS supposed to be tough, for goodness sake. JUST EXPLAIN LAH. what's the importance of UG what's the importance of this and that. if you dont waste so much breath on trying to explain to us that the fucking parents are always right, maybe you could have reserved more breath to talk to the parents.

also, i think you have a superb and unpralleled sense of judgement. just because of one misdeed, you condemn that person for eternity. previous pc &perfectly capable and competent; currently gym instructor. previous asm, best in platoon in terms of standard; currently no post. previously ulu person &because of your firm personal conviction that he is "meticulous"; currently head of unit, presently screwing up the unit real bad. what a good sense of judgement you have.

you sense resentment? HAH. high time you did.

to the idiot who is currently screwing up the unit; this march camp should shake you from dreamland &it should dawn on you that you are totally, absolutely, unquestionably, simply INCOMPETENT. and since that is so can you please do not be so selfish as to keep all the instructions &info that the TO provides to yourself and LET THE OTHERS HAVE A SAY IN DECISION MAKING, BECAUSE YOUR DECISIONS ARE CRAP AND IF YOU MAKE ANY MORE OUR WHOLE UNIT MIGHT JUST COLLAPSE THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

im losing faith.

finally a day i can practise piano in peace because i have no homework. *heaves a sigh of relief*

tomorrow's x-ctry, and i haven't ran in like three months so i have no idea how im even going to get a placing for comptitive running. im probably going to be the last or something. save me : (

wish everyone luck for xctry tmr! :D

i think im becoming a workaholic. not exactly one, but i like to have something to do, something to occupy myself with. everyone does. &i like to have an aim on where im going, what im doing. hence i do not like to go out and walk aimlessly. window shopping is okay. but only if i have something in mind.

im sorry lah : ( paranoia's taking over and i really dont like going out; i feel so restricted it's suffocating me. im worried about this im worried about that. im not happy. :( really im not. i can't let down my guard.

this is going to drive me nuts one day. &im sorry it's causing ya distress. but please understand.

maybe im just not suitable for you.

i am NOT irresponsible.

what does having a _ have to do with irresponsibility? crap.

irresponsibility means:
1. said, done, or characterized by a lack of a sense of responsibility: His refusal to work shows him to be completely irresponsible.
2. not capable of or qualified for responsibility, as due to age, circumstances, or a mental deficiency.
3. not responsible, answerable, or accountable to higher authority: irresponsible as a monarch.

just because i was wearing _ and kena sabo by some _. 'i was not responsible in upholding the _ NAME and REPUTATION'? try saying that lah. it's crap.

i repeat. i am NOT irresponsible. so dont say that i am.

and english is a fishing LANGUAGE for goodness sake. why be so inflexible? there are so many different ways of expressing the same thing. just accepting one specific answer for compre questions; does it bring out the real essence of a language?

dont use stupid jianbaos and 'bao mi hua's to try to propaganda us teenagers into thinking a certain way lah. all the jianbao all about 'qing shao nian' and 'nian qing ren'. all is stereotype one lor. like the article about cny gambling. like a lame lah this type of thing also want to write about. cny gambling, under the supervision and restrictions of parents, will most definitely not lead to obsessive and addictive gambling. this type of thing also wanna worry.

dont know why _ are so fussy about _. firstly it doesn't concern them anyway. secondly i dont believe they never _ in _ before. pls lah -.- dont so kpo can or not. mind your own business lah pls -.- some _ hor really nothing better to do one.

some girls hor. like to walk like penguin like that one. and bounce as they walk. wahlau. irritates me. just walk properly can or not -.-

i'm pms-ing so please do not take any of these to heart. but there are so many underscores and blanks i'm sure you dont understand what im trying to say anyway. im not gna explain unless you buy me an icecream. so there :)

don't ask.

i spent my Vday with ms zeng and my a maths tb.

how LOVEly :]

anyway the day before vday i was busy writing vday postcards and did not study for my lit exam (i didn't even bring the text home). no one appreciate lor, zixi even say my gift unacceptable and wont give me anything. o.o what a horrible girl. i wont write postcards in future; too time consuming. it's just like a lousy job. long hours and low pay. >:p

i gave wanleng a v nice gift! wahahah. think she liked it a lot. even if she didn't i'll MAKE her like it :p

heh. today i screwed up my a maths and physics. actually i screwed up everything. o.o

spread the love! <3

EX thunder warrior.

one word. wow.

facts about nz &people:

it's where they filmed lotr and initial D.

they have a "national icecream" - hokey pokey.

they like to eat in. that is, no hawker centres or food courts.

and they like to finish their food.

their sausages are homemade.

each house is super big, and they have almost as many cars as their family members.

the scenery is like. wow.

their food is super filling. even pigs like me can't finish a small plate of their food.

the people are super friendly; they wave to strangers. and the fact still remains that if you waved to a stranger here in singapore you'll get sent into imh.

they love their country.

haha yeah ten facts about nz.

i enjoyed myself thoroughly, and apologies for having no pictures to put up cos i dont have the cable with me right now so.. :x yeah. i'll get it asap.

stuff we did:
homestay with new zealand cadets
observe op and live firing &SA21
white water rafting
bushtrekking
performed a song WITH second defence minister :D

i dont think im doing justice to my trip if i WRITE it out cos it's kinda like, dead and all. i think i'll just talk. so yeah if you're curious just ask me :] photos will be up soon enough :x

im here in new zealand, at samantha's house (wenting's homestay) blogging :] yeah im like on the second storey and there's a pool table in the house, it's so cool.

it's already the uh, third day? and im so totally enjoying it. me and lta shahid had dessert yesrterday and it was like apple crumble with hokey-pokey icecream AND whipped cream, that really melts in your mouth. wow. i love new zealand.

there's a formal dinner tonight, and i haven't prepared my no4 yet. >< that's cos my homestay is working and her mum is out, and she didn't like the idea of me and shahid alone at home so yeah im at samantha's house. and her mum sue is coming to fetch us back so i can chiong-prepare my very crumpled uniform.

yeah and the "kiwis" (the new zealanders) are so friendly and hospitable, i feel bad i dont have anything to give to them. :( shoulda bought some souvenirs and stuff for them.

xinhang's playing pool for me now, so i gotta make this blogpost short. cya guys on the 9th yeah :]

im so disappointed in this world.

:( im tired.

there's no love in this world. why can't the world be nice :(

i think im too naive.
isn't everyone supposed to have strong moral values and know not to sabo their lvl mates?

if, for example, you see a handphone left on the bus by a previous passenger. wont you take it and turn it in to the police station or to the bus interchange or something? isn't it the right thing to do? won't your conscience prick you? won't you be afraid of being caught?

if, for example, you see an envelope containing a large amount of money on a table, will you take it? will you think, "oh, no one will know anyway, why not?" will you feel good keeping so much money with you, always on your toes, as if someone could see through you and your guilt? or maybe you have no guilt.

why is the school like that? why is there such evil? why? why will anyone in the level hate me this much? i haven't offended anyone, have i? :(

once again, i need answers.

im tired. im rly tired of this crap. give me a break.

WAHLAU. cannot stand it leh.

PEOPLE ar. you all know how to spell 'WEIRD' not?! weird as in 'strange' and the like.

is NOT 'wierd'! aiyo. is WEIRD. okay?? -.- lau eh.

wahlau. and some ppl damn kpo one lor. poke your nose here and there.. i hope some creature bites it clean off your face and eats it.

the situation is on a roll.. downhill. like a barrel that's rolling down a steep slope, perhaps leading into a dark chasm of some sorts. everytime it gets stuck somewhere on the slope i can't help but wonder whether it has hit rock bottom, or whether it'll disentangle itself and continue rolling down. so far it hasn't hit rock bottom. yet.

but i'll look on the bright side. once the barrel hits rock bottom it will roll all the way up the cliff again... right? maybe the energy lost while it is rolling down the cliff (k.e. -> heat and sound energy) then dont have enough energy to roll back up the cliff.

what cock am i talking 'bout. im sure you all dont understand le right? must be thinking,'what is this siaolala saying, what about barrels and all'. never mind.