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super dudiao.

CAN ANYONE PLEASE RECOMMEND ME A GOOD RPG ? : (

we changed le. we're no longer the same anymore. ever since we take over the feeling's not there anymore. we dont feel like spending time with each other, we start to form cliques. it seems like everyone has to rush home after cca for some reason unknown. it seems like no one has time for each other anymore.

whenever someone suggests that we go out to eat, some people say they need to rush home then leave the others sitting on the fence. after the bus ride everyone pangseh and left only some of us. it's so demoralising that even those who go jec to eat have no mood to eat anymore.

it has become really sad isn't it. that none of us have time for each other anymore except for during cca. why isn't anyone making an effort to go out to eat , have a good tcs and take neos ?

it's been a long, long time. why can't we go back to those times? why? someone please tell me ..

today is 'lets be optimistic day' :) jiahui is super pessi lor can. want to go clementi mac see somebody but dunno whether to go or not. JUST GO LA aiyo . =0 yes and i brought my guitar to school just for the english project ! wow. miss tan better give us more marks cos bringing the guitar damn troublesome la =x

i dont know what to blog about. i just went to jiahui's blog and saw that sluttish whore that commented on her entry. a bit late la but i really quite pissed la, so i shall dedicate this entry to humiliating that b* then !

"HAHAH YES PEOPLE LIKE US WERE LAUGHING AT YOU, FUG" - laugh then laugh lor. she very funny and humorous , on her behalf i shall thank you : )

"SADLY, GLARING AT PPL DOES NOT MAKE YOU ANY PRETTIER. TRY SMTHN CONSTRUCTIVE: GO PLASTIC" - plastic arh ? her face is pretty enough la, no need go plastic also got guys want to jio . i shall advise her on not to glare so much so as not to incur the wrath of some neighbourhood school bimbo who has no brains or guts to fight jiahui in the open :)

"YOU WANA GO ZOUK? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA PPL WILL LAUGH THEIR ASS OFF THE DANCE FLOOR IF THEY SEE YOU." - haiyo, people want to go zouk enjoy themselves cannot ah ? ppl ugly cannot go zouk meh ? even ugly people deserve to have sex, so what is zouk? NOTHING : )

"READ HEADLINES: FUGLY GIRL SPOTTED AT CLUB-ZOUK" - must be you right : )

"Life is good. I seriously think u should try and get one."- do your opinions matter ? HAHAHA : D

jiahui dont say i never help to defend you hor, though really a bit late la : )

anyway.
hello paul (whoever that is) in my tagboard :)
day: i like the soft toy in happy meal haha.
eunice: ahems is so interesting lor, when you take that pic one ?
jasmine: ya then i paste all over my body HAHA free wax : o
janice: uh haha
alan: yea im an optimistic girl xD

I AM A HAPPY GIRL.
- because i finally sat for the physics test and now i can throw away all my physics notes :D
- because i sprained my ankle, and as a result i got my VERY OWN PACK OF SALONPAS ! :DD
- because i ate at kobayashi just now :)
- because i didn't lose my new phone today :)
- because it rained today.
- because yitong sat beside me today during physics test.
- because tong and val and me all took the test together.
- because jasmine waited one hour for all of us.
- because i had a bad hair day today :)
- because the bus came as soon as i reached the bus stop so i didn't have to stand for so long.
- because i sprained my ankle near to the bus stop, so i didn't have to limp for so far.
- because i am appreciative and love everyone around me.
- because i love salonpas and i have my very own pack of it :D
- because i didn't get scolded by lkc for not doing my chinese homework.
- because huiyi bluetooth-ed me nice songs.
- because eunice bluetooth-ed me AHEM digging his nose LOL !
- because i have my charlie girls :)
- because i love all my friends and family.
- because last but not least, I HAVE MY OWN PACK OF SALONPAS ! (did i mention it already?)

sometimes little things that people around you do are just so .. interesting, if you think about them. many of these things are actually taken for granted cos, you know, they're small. but if you open your eyes big big, fill yourself with optimism, and look around you, you'll find that the world is filled with beautiful things :)

and i need to go now,
because i need to do my maths homework :)

I SO LONG NEVER BLOG LIAO, SO SORRY ><

wah my tagboard so many ppl sia. who is flint ! my ma'am ah ? o.o

val: hee too late im addicted to bleach
zhixin: i lazy to relink >< and ichigo is hotter man ahaha
alan: i'm the most enthu right? hahaha
lq + shereen : tyty flint: hello :]
elin: yeah i'll stay forever faithful to you ! LOL
jasmine: why you say disgusting =x
junqi: hehe you see this post should be happy already wahahaha

shall update a bit on what's going on now, hmm. i lost my phone, that one same as jiahui that one. my heart broke. fuck the bastard who stole it. i dont care whether his family is starving or he is jobless. it's WRONG to take other people's handphones :( and also i sprained my ankle on friday, and liyan was like laughing at me la -.- evil git she laugh when ppl sprain ankle. *rawr*

and i got my new phone on SATURDAY : D my dad bought it off, second-hand, off this Raymond guy who suffers from compulsive buying. he bought the handphone like, on friday and he didn't want it for some reason and sold it to my dad on SATURDAY. FRIDAY -> SATURDAY = NOT EVEN 24 HOURS ! so can be considered as brand new one lah :D so happy man im in love with my new phone . it's a 3230 :

it has got everything i wanted AND more ; sharp camera, one hour + of vid, RADIO, big big screen, this realplayer thingy, BLUETOOTH, and best of all, A LOT A LOT OF MEMORY : D turns out that raymond guy also bought this memory card and it has like 495 MB of memory, not including my phone mem ! wahahaha im a happy girl right now, i really am :D

but some things too good to be true la, i really really very paranoid ltr i lose this phone again i'll cry my heart out really :'(

okay so i need to go and sleep now cos huiyi says she wants to go to school early and if i can't wake up i'll have to go to school by myself : ( gdnite guys and thank you for tuning in to darkness dot blogspot : )

i finally took a break off watching bleach to do my matrices assignment which i thought i had done but actually i didn't.

today officially took over, i guess the feeling was alright :] part bs weren't as bad as i'd expected them to be. but there's room for improvement la haha. marched them around the track once; expedition sia : )

all of us wore no4 home cos there was not much time left for us to change after mr ong's talk.



i am very tired i want to go and sleep gdnite everyone

my bleach episodes are not loading T.T *cries*

hmm okay im taking a break from bleach cos my episodes aren't loading very fast. my sister is sobbing and wailing like some ***** and i really can't stand it -.-

okay so school has reopened once again and we're all trying to get back into the "absorbing-info-like-a-sponge-mode" but i seriously dont think im ready for school yet. i haven't done my holiday homework, geez.

yeah and we took over (sort of) today. i took part A with jasmine zixi xinran and qihui. it was okay la, just talking and setting goals and stuff.

things i'll never say ; definitely not to you

i survived spec course :]

anyw my blog shall be dead for a while because i am currently addicted to bleach , bloody nice sia . will have no time for blogging , except in between when my episodes are refusing to load ( like now ) yeah. cya : )

i fucking hate rashes !! im god-save-me-guan-yin-ma-please-bless-me-ingly terrified of them i shudder and i get goosebumps when i see them . if there's one thing im afraid of it's rashes. win hands down. im so horrified by the way they spread throughout my whole body omfg . i want to scold vulgarities but it's not very healthy so never mind . this is a short post as you can see.

I'M BACK ~

: D

okay lah . i think it's more of a character building camp of some sort. no internet access for eight days, no rowdy behaviour, no smsing, and definitely no vulgarities ! so many little kids, i scold i teach them bad things the next week nobody come to the centre already.

i learnt how to give pep talks ! you know, those super annoying ones your parents give to you when you do something wrong ? no screaming or yelling , just plain talking . a good and successful pep talk is one with examples and with those open ended questions and true or false questions that kind . after that the kid must listen to what you say. HAHAHA i gave a successful one to my sister !

you all better stay away from me hor, later i give you all pep talks then you all now, HAHA ;]

then i think my grandma is my unofficial doctor or something, everytime i fall sick i will go straight to her ; she always has something for me . i love her very much , throughout my stay in msia she come watch tv with me. then when i go away she sit down there all alone then i feel so bad i go back and watch with her.

anyw i just realised today is the 15th and also the first day of kayaking for the second group , jiayou jiayou people :]

theres an e lit seminar tomorrow and im having a fever, cough and blocked nose and feeling miserable. guess how i fell sick ?

i stuffed myself with snacks and didn't drink any water o.O anyway i was forced to swallow some very bitter pills from Amway that my grandma strongly recommended i should take. i hate swallowing pills, it's either i swallow it or i spit out the pill + all the water =(

it's 11 and i think i should go and sleep now if not huiyi will have to go to the elit seminar alone (i heard beixin also having fever) gdnite ~

okay im back . im still alive after one week's worth of work (actually only four days) at hdcc - fyi it's happy days care centre.

i realised that oatmeal plus honey in the morning is sickeningly sweet, that many kids in the same computer room fighting for a chance at the computer can be very, very noisy, teaching three kids english can be infuriating and you might resort to underhand means to teach them and so on.

i wont say i enjoyed myself but it wasn't that bad either, seriously. except for the fact that i couldn't get any hands on any form of internet access AT ALL.

i slept better while i was there, i ate better (and i am also going to grow fatter). every morning i was to wake up at 8, then creep out of bed and eat my breakfast, then go to the centre to babysit all the kids and finally go home at 8 + . hey, that's twelve hours of work ! but i only get like, ten bucks a day. *grumble grumble grumble*

usually i just play with the kids and teach them. it's quite easy lah, except sometimes i cannot mark their chinese, too hard liao ( my chinese that lousy meh =\ ). i always steal the children's food during teabreak and i just lost my tempter today at the kids. i was yelling like a deranged madwoman. okay lah maybe not that bad but they were making so much moise so i just shouted at them. they kept quiet for a while and then started making noise again, bloody kids. (:

today was wanjun's birthday and her mum ordered a 2kg chocolate cake to be delivered over to the centre, but before that weikang had to go and hit her on the back and make her cry, so she looked quite miserable in the pictures that i took of her. but she was back to her lively self after that, which was good.

i hate msia. the custom officers have attitude problems.

okay so im back from exile and slightly sick. after two days of living on scraps of bread and dishwater AND sleeping on a straw mat im back, alive and kicking.

so i stupidly knocked myself silly in the bathroom on the first day. >< very painful, still hurts. the kids at the childcare are okay except some that like to stick to me.

going on a hiatus so this blog wont be updated regularly till 18th. sorry for the inconvenience.

had double remedial today ; history and physics. me and huiyi arrived at school at 7+ by my dad's car, which is unbelievably early, but we had to compromise if not we would be stuck on the mrt. i rather be chauffeured there x] was doing my history assg, which i didn't hand up so it's kinda pointless lah.

after physics i waited for yitong then we went to westmall/lot 1 to meet liyan and val to buy sandals for kayaking tmr and they cost $29.95 i very xintong =\ but they're pretty, i like =)

never mind enough about the sandals im sososo excited about tomorrow can =D

i feel so xing4 fu2 (fortunate, in case you dont know). just now after i finished practising the piano i fell asleep on the sofa, 70% due to sheer exhaustion and 30% because i've been so engrossed in my book that my eyes were dying on me. my little sister thought i was having a fever and when i woke up at 2000 , she went to wrap ice cubes in her little towel and started to .. uh should i say wipe me haha. including arms legs face and neck.

i was so touched, seeing her being so sensible and all. it's a wonder how even little kids can be so caring x] i <3 my mei mei heh.

i shall go to sleep now, goodnight x]

i do the most retarded things.

like taking 51 from queensway on the WRONG side of the road, and winding up at PAYA LEBAR -.- and taking one and a half hours to reach home, dammit.

i feel stupid.

never mind.

flag day was okay, though huiyi and beixin were being umm over-enthu, considering this was their first flag day. haha and no, beixin, i have more donations than you would like to admit x]

went to collect the class tee after that, realised that the surpise is actually non-existant the names aren't in gold after all =( sorry.

then me and huiyi uh did the most retarded thing we ever did in our lives -.- as mentioned above. no need to elaborate i feel like a moron enough already.

im too tired to post anymore gdnite

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in this order: bei-jas-wini-tong-val x]

hee. i blogged. okay so i didn't sleep well last night because:

i went to bed at 11

fell asleep at 12

woke up at FIVE IN THE MORNING

tossed and turned till 9 >< bag ="x">< and honestly i didn't expect myself to get marksman lah but well : ) my score is 14 =)

after the shooting i was having a stupid headache because the helmet was too small for me and the hairband kept biting into my head. we sort of 'escaped' from the ncc hq in fast march, then wound up sitting at the roadside doing nothing -.-

went to je to take neos, then ate at pizza hut. we happy happy order a lot of things, in the end the bill come up to about $97 -.- then seeing that all of us were broke me and jasmine went downstairs to borrow money =x bingyang was the only one nice enough to lend us the money lor x] thanks bingyang whee ~ and xianwen was a jerk he tell sze kiat dont lend us =x

anyway. we ate till we were stuffed, then i went home. i swear im having indigestion =[

*breathes in*




*breathes out*




*breathes in*




*breathes out*





slowly, now..













OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG !!! *tears out hair and goes bald* SHOOTING IS JUST TOMORROW AND IM SITTING HERE DOING NOTHING oh no >< everyone wish me luck !


ugh never mind. i know i ought to sleep early (being tired wont do me any good) but my hair isn't dried yet. so there.

woke up after i had 10 hours of sleep, then idled about. played the piano, completed my kumon worksheets and practised mty guitar, then prepared for maths remedial (1400-1630 hrs, weird timing isn't it).

after maths remedial i hurried to guitar (i was late for 15 mins -.-) then went to jp with huangbei to eat icecream at Scoops. honestly the ice cream sucks. wayyyy below standard. but the only good thing is that you get lots of samples. and the aunty is nice, but that doesn't change the fact that the ice cream sucks. the banana flavour tastes like it was made with banana PLUS skin, and it was so disgusting that i decided to throw it away. thoroughly gross.

okay i need to prepare for tomorrow. wish me luck, once again. gdnite (:

i swear the journey from taman rendang (my aunt's house) back home is too short for me to get any decent sleep.

today there was no piano lesson (goodness knows why) and so i went to read my book. title is 'Dear Prince Charming'.

went to my aunt's house and ate lunch, and played with my cousins. weile was jumping around screaming and dancing and i filmed it down. when i showed it to him later he was reduced to a fit of hysterical giggles. then weikang wanted to contruct a tent, and so i did it, SINGLEHANDEDLY : D got sense of achievement afterwards you know ;) happy happy.

fell asleep on a table, fell asleep on the journey home, and i threw myself straight into bed after i reached home. slept till about 8+. this is what happens when i only get 6 hours of sleep the night before.

there's maths remedial tomorrow and i have no idea on where to go after that. the timing is weird, i should say. 2 to 430 ? lets just say it's smack in the middle of everything. =x can't do anything before or after that. sigh.

stella is kAwAii nEhhxX :)

sighh my life is boring.

and so my lovely saturday went by with me wasting away at home reading the da vinci code and attempting to complete some homework.

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can
Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

(: beixin qing3 zhu4 yi4, once i perfected the chords i shall play with you hee.

andd ii've cOme tO realiise thatt biitchh typee ishh superr duperr kawaii nehhx ! maybe i should experiment typing one post in bitch type and see how you guys take it HAHA.

feei: hello (: will link you soon
huiyi: i think the show all the men in the 9oclock show will die out eventually, leaving the women to fend for themselves, accentuating how important women are in modern society. LOL
lizhu: LOL you're so stupid. haha i'll change your link soon (:
beixin: take care hehe. a bit too late le hor haha.
day: okay you're a refined and cultured lady uh =)
stellala: :D *wrinkles nose) LOL
jasmine: ohmyguanyinma xD i think my schedule more packed lor, heh
cheryl: i had no idea you decided to blog again you never told me : ( will link you

ii sWeAr sTeLLa l0oks superr kawaii wOrrs, wHenns sHe wriinkles up herr noseeyy =)